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Chapter 4: Boisterous Heartbeats

Right after the bell rang after 4th period, I hurried steadily toward the lunch area. I grabbed my tray with food and scurried over to the table that awaited with the Cullens.

"Well, you seem very excited to see me." Edward said slyly.

"Shut up, Edward." Alice snapped.

I smirked at him and plopped down beside him and Alice.

I pushed my hair behind my ear and shot a look at him. "Explain."

He shrugged. "Are you sure you can handle the truth?" He asked me. I wrinked my brow and nodded.

"Bella... I don't know. This is a little...scary." Alice mumbled, turning my head and looking my way.

"I have to know, Alice. This is my family." I stated. Turning back toward Edward.

"Okay... Here it goes." He took a deep and started. "Dad, Carlisle, likes to read. Well, he was reading the paper the other day and saw that there had been a mass-murder started in Pheonix. We knew right about that it must have been newborns."

"Newborn babies can't start a mass murder, Edward." I interrupted.

"I kno-"

"Look, if you are not going to take this seriously then I will go sit somewhere else." I said coldly. I was about to pick up my tray and stand up to leave when he grabbed my arm.

"Bella, listen to me. I am completely serious. Newborns are newly developed vampires. So sit down and listen." Edward looked at me straight in the eyes.

"Okay." I whispered and sat back down, placing my tray firmly in front of me on the table. I nodded toward him so he could continue.

"Like I was saying... We knew it was newborn...vampires." He said 'vampires' with a thick tone. I nodded again.

"Well, after leaving Alaska, we went straight to Pheonix. When we were around the city, I started hearing some of the newborns' voices. Most of them were along the lines of 'Blood, blood, blood. More blood.' I was kinda disgusted. I followed the voices to into Phils' neighborhood." He stopped and I looked at me.

I had no idea that I was gasping with fright. The intencity of the story was getting to me. "Maybe I should stop..." He murmured.

I grabbed his shoulder. "No, you have to go on." I said, stuttering.

"I don't think that's a good idea..." He sang.

"Please, just do it."

"Well, if you die of shock, then I'm not paying for your medical bill. Deal?" He chuckled.

I rolled my eyes. "Just get on with it."

"Suit yourself." He looked at one last time and started again, looking at his untouched food. "Anyways, I also started hearing Phils' thoughts... Why me? Phil had repeated this many times. I should have kept my temper. I have lost everything now. I shouldn't have signed those divorce papers. I am an idiot. What is wrong with me?! I should die. Oh Renee... I wish I could tell you how sorry I am. Bella, please don't hate me... My beautiful Swans... Oh I miss them... I kept listening. I thought he was safe... then his thoughts changed..." Edward looked at me again. I blinked my eyes.

"Well, keep going!" I nearly shouted. I looked around me quickly, to make sure that no one had heard me.

"Alright, then they changed and I started running faster toward his house. Someone seems to be at the door. Then... He started getting histeric. 'What do you want?' He questioned the newborns. I heard the conversation through his head. 'Why are your eyes so red? Do you want some eye drops? I have that problem too. No, wait. Why are you coming towards me? Why aren't you talking? Are you mental? No stop, that's my throat... Gah! I'm burning! Someone, HELP ME! Why is it so cold now? It's dark... I'm slipping away. Goodbye Renee. Goodbye Bella... My loves. Please forgive me. I was too late, though" Edward stopped.

I blinked out the tears forming in my eyes and looked down. "Can we continue this later? Please? I think I have had enough for right now..."

Edward said, "Of course, Bella. I told you it was going to be scary. Oh god, I am so sorry. Here, use my hankie." He grabbed his hankerchief from his back pocket and swiped it over my eyes. He pushed my hair away from my face and gently ran his fingers over the flushed skin. I gazed up at him and smiled weakly. He smiled back and kissed my hand that was resting upon his left knee. The cold from his skin was rising through the material of his jeans. I sucked in a breath and moved my hand back into my lap.

"Sorry." I said.

"No, that feeling was amazing." He whispered.

"We have a pop quiz in English, guys. Let's go." Alice jumped in, unexpextedly.

"Do you have AP English next?" I asked Edward and Alice.

"Yep." They both said in unison.

"Jinx! You owe me a soda!" Cried Alice. Edward and I rolled our eyes.

"That is SO 3rd grade, Alice." Edward said, chuckling.

"Oh? And when was the last time YOU were in 3rd grade, Mr. Cullen?" Alice snapped back.

Edward immediatly stiffened. He grabbed his tray without a word and walked out of the Cafe. I looked over at Alice and then back at the doors. I jumped out of my seat and dumped my tray in the garbage can. Then, I ran off to find the missing Edward outside the Cafeteria, sitting on the ground with his back pressed against the wall and his head in his hands.

I walked over and sat next to him. "Edward...?" I cautiously put my hand on his shoulder.

"What? What do you want, Bella?" He asked harshly. I cringed and pressed my back against the wall beside him.

"Do you wanna talk about it?" I asked him quietly.

He turned his face to meet my gaze. His eyes were wet, but nothing poured out. He opened his mouth to speak and then sighed. "I hate this life I have lived..." He stated simply. I waited for him to explain. "I wish I could go back... I wish I could have died when I was supppsed to." He pressed his lips together and shook his head. I pushed the stray strands of hair from his eyes, then rested my hand on his hard, silky cheek.

"Why would you ever think that, Edward?" I asked casually.

"God, Bella! Look at me! I'm a monster! A demon! I am a mythical creature. I belong in those fairytale books, not on MythBusters! I am supposed to be fictional." His body tightened everytime he spat out a word. His faced dropped and I shuttered away from him. I knew he needed his space.

I got up slowly and was about to go back into the Cafe when I heard his faint voice. "I wasn't supposed to be created." I turned around to see his eyes boring into my own. I sighed and sat close beside him and placed my arm aross his shoulders, holding him tight against my chest.

His head fell on inner shoulder and sucked in a deep breath then sighed. I felt a crawl of chills spread through my body, but I didn't care. I ran my fingers throw his outrageously smooth hair. I kissed the top of his head lightly. He smiled and sat up. "You smell amazing today." He said coolly.

I tilted my head to the side, "Excuse me?"

"Did you get new shampoo?" He asked. I got confused.

"Uhh yeah, I got this strawberry kind from Wal-Mart yesterday..."

"Mmm.. It smells delicious..." His tongue slid over my shoulder and he purred.

"Oh Edward..." I whispered.

Then the bell dang. We both cursed underneath our breath then got up. "Let's get to class now. Shall we?" He asked. I nodded and we glided toward English together. It took me a while to realize that I was holding his hand. I looked up at him and smiled. This was going to be a good school year.

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