I sat in my car while Debussy was quietly playing. Bella's car pulled in and parked a great distance away from mine. Her eyes fell on me as she exited her car. Her eyes saddened when she saw me. She turned quickly away braking any contact. She tripped over her own feet and sprawled on the pavement.
I ran quickly to her. "Are you okay?" I asked, my voice laced with panic and sorrow.
"No" Her voice held more sorrow than any one person should know. "please leave me."
"Never again am i going to leave you."
A single tear dropped from her eye. I could see her resolve weakening. Hope filled my heart until I saw her put up her walls.
I grabbed her hands as she turned to leave me. She looked into my eyes.
"Why Bella? Trust me please."
Her eyes hardened."Trust?" She spat. "I will never ever trust anyone again. Trust leads to pain." Her voice softened. "I've had enough pain."
She pulled her hands out of mine and walked away. The meaningless chatter of everyone else continued. I went to first period determined to find a way to ease her pain.
Lunch came, finally. I went to the MPR and saw her sitting alone.
I sat with my family and watched her. Her brown eyes locked on to my golden ones. I tried to put everything I felt into my eyes. I wanted her to see everything I felt. Her eyes opened and I saw into her broken soul.
She wanted to trust to let someone in. she knew though that I left her once.
I saw her stand and walk to the door. Alice looked at me.
"Shes going to the reservation." Her eyes blanched. She saw me leaving. She sighed. " Im not going to be able to stop you am I?" She asked
I shook my head and ran to the parking lot. I saw her truck leaving. I got into my Volvo and followed her from where she couldn't see me.
She parked at the side of the road. I followed from a distance. Every footstep she took I head. Every beat of her heart moved my spirit. Her breathing increased with the effort of walking.
She came to a clearing. She walked to the edge of a cliff over looking the ocean and my heart screamed. She stood still over the cliff. Wind blew through her hair as her arms were outstretched.
I ran as fast as I could. I grabbed her and pulled her from the cliff.
"What were you thinking?!" I screamed as I held her. Her eyes shone with shock.
Bella started laughing. Slowly at first to the point where I had no idea what she was doing. Slowly it got louder and more clear. Oh how beautiful her laugh was.
"You think I was going to jump?"
She saw hat I did and that caused another round of laughter. When she laughed the pain in her eyes was melted away. She was angelic.
"I would never jump. No matter how much pain I'm in."The walls began to come into her eyes.
"No please. You don't have to be alone. Not anymore."
"You left me." she said in a still small voice.
"Never again. Please trust me." My voice begged her.
Tears began to fall from her eyes.
"I don't know how to." she cried.
Hesitantly I wrapped my arms around her and she let me. I pulled her closer. She sobbed into my shoulder.
I'll help you. All you have to do is try."
"I will." she said as she looked at me. Tears still poured from her eyes. I kept my arms surrounding her. I held her as she released her pain.
Finally she stopped crying
"What does this make us?" she asked. The clouds in the sky began to part letting the sun hit me.
"Whatever you want us to be."
"Even..." her voice faded. "Even lovers/" she asked shyly.
I leaned down as she looked up. My lips touched hers and I gently kissed her. I pulled away and saw peace in her eyes.
I laid down on the grass with my back against a rock. She sat on my lap and I wrapped my arms aroudn her.
The sun fell and lit put the sky in its last burst of color. Bella's breath evened out as she fell asleep.
"I love you, my angel." I whispered as the day died.
Well...its been a while since i updated and don't know if anyone is going to read this. i liked this chapter...yes it went very fast but it was the only why it would have ever been written. im almost done. im thinking one or two more chapters depending. well review please.