Disclaimer- Don't own anything from seaQuest DSV or the song from SYSTEM OF A DOWN-
Chop Suey.

Personal Note- After hearing this song over and over, it got me thinking… this is my first song fic
thing… feedback welcomed. All shape all colors! Thanks to Jules- you are a great nephew,
thanks for the blackeye! JK. A MAJOR THANKS TO JESSICA FOR FINDING ME THE LYRICS
TO THIS SONG!!! This story is AU and first season and sorry again for the English.. not my
major or my friend!!!

CHOP SUEY

Lucas Wolenczak shut the link of the vid link and began to pace in his room. He just got a call
from his father, Lawrence Wolenczak, who told him that he had to cancel the week for some
important reasons. Lucas tried to reason with his father that it would be the only shore leave
before a tour of 4 months. Lucas wanted to see his father so badly that he begged for his father
to accept him. His father denied his son's request and told him to call his mother, and Lucas' dad
just hung up. Lucas tried to call his mother and talk to her but she wasn't home. Lucas called
back each hour and his mother was still not home. After the fourth hour and the fourth try,
Cynthia Wolenczak answered the call. Lucas noticed that her makeup was all messed up and
was a little drunk. Lucas just hung up on his mother.

Lucas continued to pace around his room. What to do now! he thought. He hated being alone on
a leave like this. Every one of his friends had made plans for their own leaves and there was no
way Lucas was going to bug them. He would ruin everything for his friends and it wasn't their
fault that Lucas' parents never cared for him. He could understand that his father was busy with
his project and all but his mother… 'It was all her fault' he thought. Each minute, he had more
reasons to blame his mother for the divorce his parents had. In the back of his mind, he knew it
wasn't really her fault but it was easier to blame her than himself. Even if somewhere in his head,
he knew it wasn't really his fault either.

"It's all her fault, if she was a real wife to my dad… if she only stopped…" Lucas began to think
out loud. Soon, he went over to his computer desk and pulled out a music disk. The label read
'Anger' and he popped it into his disk player. He slipped on the headphones and headed towards
his bunk. He listened to each lyric as he paused the disk in place…

Play

Wake up ,wake up,

Pause.

Lucas remembered those lines his father used to yell at his mother. She came late almost every
night, drunk as a bum and smelling like smoke. Lucas was only six but he remembered almost
every night was the same. His father would be all ready for work and he would yell at the top of
his lungs for his mom to wake up. His father would go up stairs and yell at her more.

"I don't care if you have a fuckin' headache, you shouldn't drink on a work day! Now get up!!"
Lucas heard his father yell.

Play

Grab a brush and
Put a little makeup

Pause

Lucas began to remember the dinner party his father had for some important people in his work.
At the age of 8, he believed every single word his father said but now that he thinks about it, it
was really only a meeting to show him off.

The food was all prepared and the guest had arrived. Lucas was in an uncomfortable suit, and
his father greeted everyone that showed up. It was time to eat and Lucas' mom still hadn't shown
up. Lawrence excused himself from the table and went upstairs. All the guest flinched when
Lucas' dad began to yell.

"What the hell are you doing? You don't even have your dress on! The people are waiting for
you! Damn look at you, you are a mess, have you been drinking again? Damn you look terrible,
get yourself ready NOW!" Lawrence yelled as he slammed the door to the master bedroom.
Lawrence continued the dinner like if nothing happened. Cynthia never came down from the
room and the yelling was picked up again after the guests left. It never stopped.

Play

I just crossed the feeling
With a shakeup
Why'd you leave
The keys up on the table?

Pause

Lucas remembered when he was just five years old. His family just took him to the park and his
father got paged. Lucas was mad that his father was leaving; he had the day off and so did his
mother. For Pete's sake, the park was only two blocks away but his father left him any way. He
noticed his mother drinking some water but when he moved to take some, his mother refused to
give him any. 'It must not have been water', Lucas thought. She told Lucas to play on the swings
and the little boy obeyed. After swinging forever, he went to find his mother. She was nowhere to
be found and Lucas began to cry. No one noticed the little boy crying and Lucas sucked it in.
Boys don't cry. He tried to think how to get home; he knew it wasn't far and started to walk home.
After two hours of making wrong turns and almost getting hit by a car, he found his home. Lucas
walked in and found his mother and father arguing about leaving car keys inside the car. Lucas
just began to make his way up to his room. Cynthia saw her son but returned to yelling at
Lawrence. She threw the keys on the table and left them there and left the house. Lawrence
began to chase after her as they continued to yell outside.

Play

Here we go
Create another fable

Pause.

In Lucas' whole life, never once did his mother tell him the truth. Every night, she would come
home late and say that there was another late meeting. After a few years, the lies got old and
Lucas started not to care what his mother said. She tried to change, she promised that she would
go to his high school science fair. Lucas had entered a small experiment and was happy it was
good enough for the fair. He was only 10. She promised to show up and Lucas' hope was
returning. After the fair was over, his mother still didn't show up. Worse thing was that Lucas had
no ride to get back home. Lucas' mom had told the driver that she was going to take Lucas home
and there was no need for his services. The school started to close as a car pulled up in the
driveway; his mother was 2 hours late. She tried to explain her lateness, but Lucas ignored her;
another story for Lucas, another lie for Lucas, another shattered dream for Lucas.

Play

Grab a brush and
Put a little makeup
(You wanted to)
I just crossed the feeling
With a shakeup
(You wanted to)
Why'd you leave
The keys up on the table?
(You wanted to)

Well I don't think
You trust in
My self-righteous suicide

Pause.

Why not? Suicide was the only way out for Lucas, right? Lucas thought all this over when he
was 13 and got accepted to Stanford. Did his parents care? His birthday was just the other week
and his parents just forgot. He told them about Harvard, and still they asked "Why didn't they
accept you sooner?" Suicide. It was a right thing to do, right? Lucas wondered, as he looked at
his 16-year old hands. His hands, when he was 13, were filled with some sleeping pills and some
aspirin he found in the cabinet. He took one last look at the pills and took the pills. He felt into
unconsciousness and woke up in a hospital. His parents were more furious at his actions and for
the first time, both his parents were not yelling at each other; they were both yelling at him. 'It
was the right thing to do', Lucas thought but then he saw the little plan backfired as the days
passed and his parents blamed each other for Lucas' actions. Bad went to worse.

Play

Why cry when angels
Deserve to Die

Pause.

Lucas tried to remember a peaceful night he had when he was living with his parents but none
came into his mind. He hated his parents fighting, and every night he cried himself to sleep. He
didn't know whom to blame.. His father was right for yelling at his mom but that can't be right…
his father was never around to begin with… "Now I lay me down to sleep..." Lucas began to say
every night before busting into tears. After a while, he learned not to cry. There was someone
higher to blame. If God was so mighty, why would he let this happen? What did he ever do to
anyone for this to happen? Lucas stopped saying his prayers around 8 as he found no use in his
angel, he never did his job… never protected him from evil, never showed him the way to live...
Never…

Play.

Wake up (wake up)
Grab a brush and
Put a little makeup
I just crossed the feeling
With a shakeup
Why'd you leave
The keys up on the table?
Here we go
Create another fable
(You wanted to)

Grab a brush and
Put a little makeup
(You wanted to)
I just crossed the feeling
With a shakeup
(You wanted to)
Why'd you leave
The keys up on the table?
(You wanted to)

Well I don't think you trust in
My self-rightous suicide
Why cry when angels
Deserve to die
In my self-rightous suicide
I cry when angels
Deserve to die

Father (father)
Father (father)
Father (father)
Mother (mother)

Pause

Try and try again, he tried to tell his father to take him…he even begged, something that was left
until he was despreate. But there were always important things he had to do. He cried out for his
father… again and again…

Play

Father, into your hands
I command my spirit

Pause

Lucas begged every night when he was little to make everything stop. He promised the world to
God if only He made it stop… to stop all this and make his parents be like normal parents. Nice
and loving….

Play

Father, into your hands
Why have you forsaken me

Pause

But He never listened. His parents fought even more every day… Lucas also remembered his
real father, after the divorce was final, handing him over to his mother. Lucas begged God once
last time to let him stay with his father, but once again, that wish was unanswered.

Play

In your eyes
Forsaken me

Pause.

After Lucas lived with his mom for a year, she had another man in her life. He never did accept
the guy and tried calling his dad every day to take him back. Never did his dad picked up the
phone. Once, he remembered that he called and the secretary answered "The doctor doesn't
have a son" and hung up. Again and again he tried but was automatically cut off.

Play

in your thoughts
Forsaken me

In the years that passed, Lucas never got on single birthday wish from his father. No Christmas
blessing, no nothing. One last try, he called his father before graduating from Stanford. His
father finally answered his own call but didn't recognize Lucas. He forgot his own son's name.
Lawrence made a quick apology and also promised to go to the graduation. Lucas was not
surprised that he walked alone with no excited parent taking pictures of him receiving his
diploma… both of them having failed again.

Play

in your hearts
Forsaken me oh oh

Pause.

After graduation night in the University hall, Lucas called his mom to send some one to pick him
up. No one was home. Lucas was mad and left the hall. He accidentally bumped into some
tough jocks and made the mistake of calling one of them a big asshole. The four guys pinned
Lucas down behind the hall and beat the shit out of him. Another graduate saw what was
happening and called the police. Lucas never knew what happened, only that he woke up in a
hospital the next day. But this time, no one came for him. His mom was on her honeymoon and
his dad was in a major important meeting. Lucas stayed in the hospital for 2 days until his father
sent someone to pick him up. 'He sent someone!' Lucas thought, as that someone explained that
his father was busy with more important matters. His mother didn't want anything to do with
Lucas anymore and so he was sent to live with his father. That didn't last long; after a few
months, Lucas was being shipped to the seaQuest.

Play

Trust in my self-righteous suicide
Why cry when angels
Deserve to die
In my self-rightous suicide
Why cry when angels
Deserve to die

End.

Lucas was all cried out. 'The song was made for me'. He didn't blame his mother anymore.
Every time he heard the song, he stopped blaming anyone for the divorce …. It had always been
coming.

Lucas thought about his past again and compared it to his present. He cried even more. Nothing
had changed. Nothing in his life… The only good thing his parents did for him was placing him on
seaQuest…but that wasn't enough. He has friends that care about him, but all he ever wanted
was the love of a parent… that is all a child can ask for… love and support from your parent…
Was that so hard to do?…

Stop. Repeat. Play. End. Stop. Repeat. Play…