Chapter Twenty-Six: I'm Yours
"Bella, I am so sorry," Emmett said for what seemed like the hundredth time. It turned out that I was hurt worse than just a broken toe. He had cracked one of my ribs trying to restrain me. I had bruises around my arms and waist from where his arms held me. My big toe was broken on my left foot and the ball of my right foot was cracked.
"Just don't do it again, Emmett. You should know by now that nothing can come between Edward and me. I forgive you and in about four days, you won't be able to stop me anymore. No one and nothing will." I chuckled and winced. My rib hurt. Carlisle had just finished taping it up. I was lying on new sheets on mine and Edward's bed. He was holding my hand and sitting on the edge of the bed. The rest of the family was gathered around the foot.
"Four days? Why not now? This wouldn't be necessary then." Esme asked, indicating my bandages.
"Tomorrow I will begin my change. Tonight will be my last human night and I am going to spend it with Edward. I would appreciate it if you all would give us our alone time tonight." I told them. That was what I wanted more than anything. I had a strong motive for asking for that.
"Bella, I don't think I can. I don't want to hurt you any worse than you already are, love." Edward's head was down as he said this.
"Does it matter about my injuries? They will all be healed during the change anyway. Please? I want it to be my last human memory. Would you deny me that?" I begged him, pushing myself as close to him as I could manage. It was difficult to get as close as I wanted to. The whole time, I was conscious of Emmett trying to stifle laughter.
"Ok, you're right. How could I deny you anything you want after all that I've put you through? I'll do anything you ask me to, love. I'm yours forever to do with me what you will." Edward vowed, pulling me closer to him and kissing my forehead.
"Can I ask you something? I want you to be completely honest with your answer, please. Will you do that for me?" I had a question burning in me and I had to ask it. I didn't care if the family was listening in on our conversation, I had to know.
"Of course, love. I will never lie to you ever again. What is it you want to know?" Edward stared at me with agonized, pleading eyes. I wondered what it was he thought I wanted to know.
I took a deep breath and asked, "Why now? We've been married and on this island for two weeks now without any problems. Why did you choose today to get upset and leave?" It hurt to say the words. I didn't want to upset him anymore but I had to know. This wouldn't be completely ok until I knew the reasons behind it.
Edward's breath came out in a hiss. "I was an idiot. It was ridiculous to react like that. I hate the idea of hurting you but Carlisle was the real reason I left. His praise was something I couldn't stand. It was like he was complimenting me for giving you bruises. Emmett was trying to picture it. Eventually, I would have snapped if I had stayed. I have no idea what would have happened but it probably wouldn't have been pleasant to see or be around. I left so I wouldn't hurt anyone and I ended up hurting you even more. Please forgive me, Bella. I'm so sorry, love." He was remorseful; more so than I had ever seen him be. It broke my heart a little to see him so vulnerable.
It took me a minute before I could speak. Edward was staring at me like a dog waiting to get scolded. I laughed lightly at his expression before speaking. "Well, then I'm glad you left. You would have been utterly miserable if you had hurt anyone. I'm not mad at you, sweetheart."
"Bella, I'm sorry. I- wait, what?" Edward seemed astonished that I had forgiven him so quickly. His eyes were large and mystified.
"I understand why you had to leave. I'm just glad that you're back. Don't beat yourself up for this. It's not your fault. If anyone's to blame, it's me. I shouldn't have reacted like that. I just couldn't stand the thought of losing you." I tried to explain my reaction. I couldn't lose him again; it would kill me.
"You had every right to act however you want, love. I acted shamefully and handled the situation poorly. You will never lose me, Bella. My heart is yours and I can't live without you. That is an impossibility." Edward said tenderly, brushing his fingers over my cheek. Then he grabbed my hand and placed it over his unbeating heart; my personal possession.
"My heart is yours too," I told him and put his hand over my beating heart. "Two halves of a whole incomplete without each other." I remembered what the preacher had said at our wedding. It was so true. Our lives only had meaning when we were together. I knew from Edward's smile that he was happy and that he knew where that had come from.
"One entity forever." Edward agreed and kissed me passionately. Everything was almost perfect again. My husband was back, our family was surrounding us, and I felt almost as happy as I did at my wedding. The only thing missing was that I wasn't a vampire yet but for now, I was content.