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II

Konoha Private

Written by Dragenruler


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It has been two weeks since we moved back to Konoha. I wasn't in Konoha private, yet. My aunt wanted me to wait a week before I went back, which is today…

I didn't want to go back, I didn't want to walk into the school today and know that every memory would flow back into my head, every sad memory.

Too see everyone that hurt ne again and too try and not cry when I step into the hall of Konoha private.

I've been crying since I got back, every memory of that day was back and the pain was worse. Seeing a happy family everyday, seeing how they smiled at each other…

And worst of all, seeing all the newborn babies, knowing that I didn't have a sister who was like that, who I couldn't see, ever.

I sighed, pulling onto the school uniform. A plain black shirt with a long black shirt, socks that went to the knees, very plain…

But I must say, the plain ride towards Konoha wasn't that bad, I had some company… and thankfully it wasn't my aunt.


I sighed, staring at the clouds that pasted by. This sucked; the pain made its way towards my heart again, making me feel numb.

I shifted in my seat and accidently bumped my elbow against the guy sitting next to me. I looked up at the guy and met eyes cold blue eyes; his hair was white, extremely white. He smirked down at me, showing off his beautiful face as he lay back against the plains chair.

I looked down on his clothes, a punk… and frowned, he was exactly like Sasuke, just looked a little different.

"I'm Suigetsu and you are?" His voice was as soft like silk… just like Sasuke's.

"Haruno Sakura…" I mumbled, looked back at the small window.

"Sakura… it fits you." He said, taking a stand of my hair in his hand. Wow, talk about fast.

"Uhm, I guess…" I mumbled, not quiet in the mood to talk.

"Alright Sakura, so… where are you off to?" He asked, I turned my head towards him and frowned. He was really close to me. Too close.

"Konoha…" I moved a little back, I hate it when people get too close to me. I didn't even let my aunt touch me; it would always remind me of how my mother touched me when she comforted me.

He suddenly smiled, showing off his sharp white teeth."Really now, that's where I am heading. I was visiting my parents for a while. They live in America, what about you?"

"Uhm, I am moving back with my aunt." I mumbled, looking back to the window, trying not to break down crying… Why is this so hard!

"Oh…" He mumbled. "So you are going back to your parents?" He asked, his voice sounded… misplaced, if I could put it like that.

I only shook my head. "My parents are dead…" How I tried not to let my voice break, just bysaying that word…

"Oh, I am sorry…" He mumbled, I could hear that he was sad… great pity.

"I don't need your pity." I growled, why did people had to pity me! I don't want pity, so my life is broken; it was none of their business.

"Sorry… did anyone ever tell you how beautiful you are?" Was he really using that pick up line? Really didn't this guy get that I didn't want to talk to him, I didn't want to talk to anyone!

But I had to admit, he was trying to be sweet… how I hate sweet. "…No, but thanks." Really couldn't this guy go away?

"So how old are you, I mean, I can see that you are a punk or something…" I looked at him again, he was really starting to annoy me but I did kinda like the attention and I had to admit, he was handsome…

"Seventeen…" I frowned as I saw his eyes widen as he smiled.

"Nice, I am also seventeen! So are you going to Konoha private?" He asked his voice soft and silky. Making me think of Sasuke again…

How can he so much like Sasuke?

"Uhm yea… why?"

"Because I go to that school since last year, and I want to know if we are going to be friends?" A friend, it did sound nice…

"Yes… I am going to Konoha private." I mumbled…maybe having one friend would be better than having no friends… besides he also reminds me of Gaara a little.

I looked out of the window again and smiled as I heard him mumble a yes…

Maybe this wasn't going to be so bad…


But my thoughts changed as soon as I stepped off of that plain as the pain (The black hole) came back, trying to make me numb again…

And it did, just like always… I liked Suigetsu, I must admit that, but I know that I would never like him like that. I never even looked at someone else since Sasuke and I know I'd never will.

I glared at the mirror; there stood a girl staring back at me. Her hair short, hanging loosely over her shoulders, her green eyes standing out as the black eyeliner surrounded them. A frowned on her small beautiful face…

She looked truly broken, like everything she had was taken away from her and she was too far away to get it back.

I sighed, looking away from the mirror. I knew that, that girl was me, she was me! But I didn't want to believe it; I didn't want to see myself…

I reminded myself of my mother…

And to think that I got to live with pain while they died in pain… it didn't seem fair to me, it seemed like I was the one who deserved to die, not them, they were the ones who should've lived, not me!

Sigh…

But I can't change back time, no matter how much I want, and if I could change the past. I would make sure that my friends didn't leave me, that Sasuke didn't leave me and I would make sure that my parents didn't leave me alone when I needed them the most…

Knock-Knock

I glanced up at the door and smiled sadly as Tsunade walked in; she smiled softly as she looked at me up and down. "My, how great you look, you are simply glowing! I think Konoha is doing wonders on you!"

If only she knew…

I just smiled and looked down; she was truly the only one who could see behind my mask. She was the only one who truly knew what I was going through and act like she didn't see it.

"Well then, I can see that you are finished. Why don't we get going, the school is waiting." She smiled; I always wondered how she could smile like that when she felt the same pain as me…

"Sure…" I mumbled, trying to hide the pain from her as I looked up at her again…

I just knew how this day was going to end up…

Disaster…


"Some along Sakura, I'll show you to the office and from there on I'll let Shizune, my new assistant, she will give you your locker number and your school schedule and take you to your first class." Tsunade said to me as we walked into the teachers lounge.

"Alright…" I mumbled, looking around. I have never been in the teachers lounge before, to think that I can be in here whenever I want to, made me happy. I wouldn't have to sit in the cafeteria, staring at all the faces that hurt me.

"Good, now where is she…?" Tsunade looked around, searching for her assistant.

I smiled sadly; the whole room was full of teacher. The sounds of talking was all over the room, it made me wonder how we couldn't hear them talking from miles away.

"Why Tsunade, is this your niece you've been talking about?" I looked up, damn this man was tall. His long white hair standing in every direction, I could swear his hair reached the floor.

I looked up at Tsunade. "Jiraiya, yes… this is she, Sakura this is Jiraiya. He's the health teacher…" Oh great, sex class.

"Nice to meet you…" I glanced up at him, either he was way too tall or I was way too small.

"Jiraiya could you please look after my niece while I go search for Shizune, I can't seem to find her" Tsunade mumbled, looking around the room.

I frowned; she couldn't trust this man, could she? I mean he looked like a pervert!

"Of course..! How can I disappoint an old friend?" He had laughter in his voice, so they knew each other for a long time…

"Watch it, I am not that old." Tsunade glared, pushing past him leaving me alone with him… we may not be alone in the room, but his gaze was sharp upon me.

"You look extremely familiar, have me met before?" He bucked down to look me in the eyes, slowly pointing a finger at my face. "I swear I know you…"

How did he know me? I've never even met him before, well… I think I've never met him. His eyes did seem familiar, but that was all.

I shook my head a little too fast, not wanting him so be any closer. I hate it when someone is close to me.

"No, as far as I know, I have never met you…" I know it was a little harsh, but he was way too close for me to say it in a nice way.

He finally backed away, a smirk on his features. "You sure are Tsunade's niece." He grumbled.

I frowned, sure I was her niece… but I wasn't anything like her, she always smiled, she was always happy… but I knew inside she was sad, that's why she drank a lot of alcohol.

My fifteen year old flashed in-front of my eyes. Her long pain hair, green eyes that shone with happiness as she sat with her boyfriend. A graces smile on her face, she seemed so happy…

That girl seemed like Tsunade, and I wasn't that girl anymore…

"Believe me kid, she just puts on a mask to be strong for you… She knows how you feel and she still feels the same as then." His voice turned serious, but flashed me a smile and walked away.

I stood there shocked… Tsunade wasn't hiding anything from me, was she? She wouldn't, she knew how I felt betrayed by everyone, so she would always be open to me. Tell me everything she did or knew.

"Sakura…!" I looked up, frowned. Tsunade came walking towards me, a small petite women standing behind her. Her black hair was short and she had the most shocking brown eyes I'd ever seen.

"This is my assistant, Shizune. Sorry we took so long; she was busy preparing your schedule." She smiled down on me, a fake one…

I glanced at Shizune, her face was graceful. There wasn't a flaw on her face, she looked perfect and happy. "Hallo Sakura, nice to meet you. I am sorry I took a while, I just wanted everything to be perfect for Tsunade's niece." Even her voice was graceful.

I smiled sadly, knowing that I would never be like her. I would never be as perfect. "It's alright…"

She smiled as the bell suddenly rang. She grabbed onto my hand, making me groan in pain. The freshly cuts burned as she pressed hard onto them.

I could feel my face twist in pain. "I am sorry, did I press too hard?" A frowned was placed on her perfect features, her voice full of concern…

It was all just pity…

I looked up at Tsunade, she knew I cut myself. In the beginning she had a big problem with me causing myself harm. It was the first time she yelled at me and let her mask slip, showing me all her pain she was hiding.

I quickly pulled my arm away, a smile on my face. A fake one… "No I am fine, don't worry." I didn't want her to know, I didn't want anyone to know…

The room was empty, the three of us all alone. "Well then Shizune, I'll let you two to be. Have a nice day Sakura and Shizune, I'll see you later."

I nodded, smiling again… How I hated to smile, it made the pain only worse; it made the pain grow further.

Shizune only smiled at Tsunade and bowed. Tsunade left the room in utter silence, she was always so graceful, and my aunt always looked so perfect… Just like Shuzine.

Shizune smiled at me and pushed a little piece of paper in my hands. "That is your schedule, now your first class in English by Hatake Kakashi."

I nodded, Hatake Kakashi… Wasn't he my homeroom teacher when I was fifteen? I could remember. She grabbed my wrist, this time being careful not to press to hard and pulled me out of the room and into the hallway.


I frowned; Shizune was busy talking in the class room full of people with Kakashi-sensei. She told me to wait outside, making sure that no one could see me.

Sigh…

Today was going to be so hard… I glanced around the hallway and that's when I spotted it. That locker, my old locker…

I could see Sasuke leaning against it, waiting for me to show up so that he could leave me… Just like everyone else…

How he was standing in-front of me, how he hit me, screaming at me how he hates me and wished that I die.

I frowned, trying not to cry. It was all so hard, the memories flashing back. I needed to cut, to make this pain go away, to just feel alive…

Today was going to be harder than I thought…


I stood in-front of the whole class. Kakashi-sensei smiling, well at least I though he was smiling. No one could see his face, he always wore a mask. "Well class, this is Haruno Sakura. Sakura, why don't you tell the class about yourself…?"

Oh, how I am going to hate this teacher…

I glanced around the room, trying to find any person I knew. Luckily no one I knew was there, at least one class I don't have to worry about…

"Uhm, I am Haruno Sakura. Mostly that's all I can say, there isn't anything special about me." I mumbled, I knew everyone could hear me but I didn't care…

I looked up at Kakashi-sensei, his eyes were sad. Great more pity…

I could see how he knew everything about me, he knew what happened that day but he didn't know everything. All he would know it about my parents and nothing more.

"Alright then, Sakura why don't you go sit next to Chouji?" Kakashi mentioned, pointing towards a fat guy who was busy munching on chips…

Great… just great… So much for sitting alone…


The bell finally rang, telling us to go to our next class. I was silently thanking God that Chouji didn't bother me; he didn't even look at me.

He wasn't bad-looking, no, he just looked like… well he looked like a guy who would hurt anyone that he came across.

When I walked out of the class, Shizune welcomed me again. Her face was glowing as she smiled at me. "So how was your first class?" She asked.

"Alright I guess…"

"Well okay, your next class would be better…" She smiled, grabbing my wrist again. "You have Biology next by Orochimaru." And she pulled me along the hallway, taking me towards the second floor.


I sighed; this teacher was way too creepy to even be a teacher! Just by looking at him made the think of the word 'pedophile'.

How could I have biology by… by this guy?

I didn't bother to look at the kids again; I was too busy staring at Shizune and my Biology teacher. She let me follow her into the class this time.

I saw Orochimaru smirked at me, his eyes holding onto a secret promise… I looked at Shizune again as she smiled at me, she walked past me and mumbled. "Look after yourself in this class…" and she disappeared.

I glanced back at the teacher; he was right in-front of me. His long black hair hanging loosely as his snake like eyes stared at me with a smirk. "Well class this is Haruno Sakura, she's new here so treat her with the utter most respect. We don't want to hurt such a delicate flower." His voice was so… slick.

I frowned; it would not matter if someone hurt me… I am already broken. This teacher was scaring me…

He suddenly turned around, walking towards his desk. He glanced up at the class and smirked. "Sakura… it fits you… well then, go sit next to Uchiha…"

What!

He couldn't be in this class! I couldn't be sitting next to him! I just couldn't, I glanced at the class and frowned, his cold eyes were right on me. Staring into my soul, like he always could.

He looked even more handsome then when we were fifteen. His hair was a little longer, but still spiky. His black eyes still the same, and if his face could get any handsomer I know for sure that it was…

I wanted to go and crawl into a hole and cry myself to death. Never to be seen again, I mean no one would care would they?

I saw him smirk, how dare he!

I felt the pain in my soul come back, the black hole eating more pieces of what was left. There was barely anything left anymore, one day I was going to break.

I stared back at the teacher; he was looking at me with a frown. "Well Sakura, aren't you going to go sit?" His voice was smooth, a little too smooth.

"No… I want another place to sit." I hissed, I didn't care if he was a teacher and could give me detention, I wasn't going to sit next to the guy who broke my heart into a little pieces…

It didn't matter how much I still love him… I would breakdown if I sat next to him and that wasn't something I was about to do.

I didn't have a breakdown since that day and I wasn't about to have one again…

His eyes widen a little, as he scowled. "Haruno-san…" He growled. "I said go sit next to Uchiha!"

I could feel everyone's eyes one me now, great more attention… Something I wanted, not. I glared at the teacher, I wasn't about to break.

And truly I didn't care what happened; he could send me to the principles office. Tsunade wouldn't hurt me, no matter what.

Times like theses I was thankful for having Gaara as a friend. He taught me to talk back to anyone… but no matter if he didn't teach me that, I would still not sit next to him…

It would be too much for me to handle.

The teacher suddenly smirked, his eyes on me as he leaned against his desk, arms crossed. "Well then Sakura…" He rolled my name of his tongue, making me shiver. "If you don't want to sit next to Uchiha, then you'll have to sit at my desk."

I didn't say a thing… I didn't want to say a thing, so I only nodded. At least it was better than sitting next to him or getting a detention.

I made my way towards his desk, I knew he wouldn't try anything with me; I did live with the principle… I was her niece.

I scowled as he smiled sickly at me; I sat down at his desk. He walked away for me and towards the class. He stared at everyone.

"Stop staring at her, she has a choice where she wants to sit and you don't. Now open your textbooks at page 150." He glanced at me, his eyes showing some kind of emotion…


The bell suddenly rung, making me jump up. I was about to stand up when I heard the teacher call my name. "Sakura please stay behind."

I looked up and saw the class was empty. How did the kids get out of the class so fast?

I sat back against the chair, frowning as the teacher sat on his desk. His eyes were following my every move. "Sakura… don't ever do that again. Not in my class."

I frowned, what was his problem? "Next period you will be sitting next to Uchiha, do you heard me!" He hissed, grabbing onto my wrist, making me groan.

He pressed hard onto my wrist, seeing that he caused me pain. "Good, that should teach you for now. Next period you are sitting next to Uchiha, you understand."

I stared up at him, tears threatening to fall; I only nodded, not trusting my voice. I knew this day wasn't going to be good…

He let go of my wrist and smirked, moving away from his desk. "Good…" He left the room, leaving me there alone…


Gym…

I hated it, thank god that I was new and didn't bring clothes… This time Shizune wasn't there to greet me after class and I was thankful because I only ran towards the bathroom… and cried my eyes out as I got my razor. I needed this, I deserved this… because I deserved to die, I should've died, not them.

So, I was a little late for gym, but I don't think the teacher would mind. I but then again, this wasn't the first time I was here…

I knew my way perfectly around the school, no one needed to show me around. I knew where to go and I was thankful that no one noticed me walking in the hallway…

I sighed as I stood in-front of the gym doors. How I hate this… my fifteen year old self flashed before my eyes again…

A smile on her face as she enjoyed herself in gym, playing around with Sasuke… I didn't need this… I swear I was going to run out of this school and never come back…

I quickly pushed the doors open, taking in the view of girls in short pants and boys without their shirts playing basketball. The smell of sweat filled the hair. Oh, the sweet stench of sweat…

I wanted to choke; this wasn't what I wanted… I didn't want to be here, I didn't need to be here. To hell with my future, I am sure feeling this and seeing all the memories wouldn't get me one…

I glanced around there wasn't a teacher here. Nothing besides everyone having fun… how can someone have fun by throwing a ball…?

I looked at all the students, nobody I knew… thank you…

At least two classes without looking into someone's face that hurt me… but I still had biology and I had to sit next to Sasuke, or else…


Lunch…

I walked towards those big doors that would lead me into the same place where everything started, the same place where I would sit with everyone glaring at me.

I quickly pushed them open, looks like the burned smell of food was still there. I glanced around the room, searching for the same people that hurt me two years ago…

I saw them… they weren't looking at me. They sat in the middle of the room, still on the same place as always. Naruto, Hinata, Neji, Tenten, Shikamaru and Ino but where was Sasuke?

Naruto was laughing at something and put his arms around a blushing Hinata… Looks like he finally saw that she liked him, Ino was holding onto Shikamaru, they were together obviously.

Neji was caressing Tenten's hand, well, looks like he did like her after all…

They seemed so happy, nothing distracting them from their little world of friendship…

I think I need to get away from here. Maybe the teacher lounge would work, but Orochimaru would be there.

I guess I didn't have a choice…

Sigh…

I looked up again; staring at them… but the only thing that I saw was piercing blue eyes staring back at me with a frown… Naruto…

I guess everyone caught his gaze because they all turned around to stare at me… everyone frowned… I knew the bathroom would've been a better place.

I was about to turn around and head towards the bathroom when I heard a familiar soft voice. "Sakura…" I looked up and saw Suigetsu smiling at me.

He made his way towards me and stood in-front of me, blocking their gazes from me. "I was wondering when you were coming. I even thought that you were lying to me!"

I smiled at him; he didn't deserve to be around me… He was too sweet… and it made me jealous… "Uhm, no… I was only a little busy with unpacking." So I lied, no big…

He smirked at me, grabbing my wrist, making me groan out loud. Please tell me he didn't hear that… but as luck would have it, he looked down at me and frowned, letting my wrist go.

I frowned, I was sure he knew something was up… "Alright, I won't tell anyone." He would be a good friend but nothing more…

He grabbed my wrist again, only a lot softer, being careful not to hurt me and pulled me towards a table…

I glanced around as I saw him sit. There was a red haired girl with glasses and a tall guy that looked twenty… this was his friends?

"Karin Juugo, this is Sakura. Sakura the ugly red-haired girl is Karin." He pointed towards the girl, who frowned and glared at him. "And this is my good friend Juugo, he may look scary but he is sweeter than honey…"

I only smiled, not bothering to look at anyone. "Hallo…" I whispered. I looked at the red-haired girl who smiled at me and Juugo who also smiled.

"Hallo Sakura-san." Juugo said his voice soft but yet rough.

"Hallo Sakura, finally another girl!" Karin sounded excited; maybe I and she could be friends. I could clearly see that she wasn't a brat.

Suigetsu smirked and pushed me onto a seat, making me sit next to Karin. Her red eyes staring into my green one, she did seem nice…

Maybe they could full the black hole?

No… nothing could make it go away… That was something I knew…

"Hey Juugo, where is our 'leader'?" Suigetsu's voice was sarcastic.

I glanced up at Karin and frowned; I leaned closer towards her and asked. "Who is he talking about?"

She only smirked, "Oh, you'll see soon enough."

I frowned… why wouldn't she tell me? I get it, they didn't know that this was the second time that I was in Konoha private and I also knew that while I was away, they came into the school.

Maybe- just maybe I could feel alive again; they did seem like a nice people… People that cared or they just pitied…

I didn't know which one, but for now it didn't matter… I just wanted to feel alive again…

"Sakura…?" Well there went my plans of feeling again… his soft voice… the pain came back again, it was the first time I heard his voice in two years and it was still so soft as silk, and yet so husky…

And it still made my heartbeat go faster… I just knew that it would be too good to be true… I knew that I couldn't stay in Suigetsu's group…


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A/N) I am so sorry for the very late update! I was very busy! Truth be told, I don't really like the out come of this and I chanced the name…

This is still a SasuSaku with some SuiKarin… Suigetsu only likes her for a little while… it's nothing more than a simple crush.

Sorry for the lame and long chapter…

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