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Hello Readers! This is one of my many new stories that im working on! I hope you like it! Edward is slightly OOC in this chapter... Read and Review! Enjoy!
It hurt to breathe. My entire body ached. I was slowly losing my fight against death. I didn't understand how this was happening. It wasn't supposed to be like this! I was supposed to graduate high school, Carlisle would change me, and then I would live eternity with Edward. My beautiful, strong, ice cold, sparkly, vampire boyfriend Edward.
Instead, here I am, lying on a hospital bed, hooked up to some stupid machines, in the master bedroom of the Cullen house, and withering away until death claimed me. When I repeatedly refused to marry Edward he threw a fit and threatened his family that he would go to the Volturi if they tried to change me. That was the first time I left Edward, but of course I came back running.
"Edward! What the hell?! Stop breaking things! You're such an idiot!" He threw the couch through the wall. Great. Now he's just acting like a two year old with super strength! UGH! Esme was staring at Edward with wide eyes. I felt sorry for. Her son was breaking nearly everything he could get his hands on.
"Isabella Marie Swan! I am not the idiot! You are!" I flinched. This was getting out of hand. No, this had gotten out of hand an hour ago when he destroyed his room and almost snapped the staircase in half.
"You," He continued, "you think you can refuse to marry me and go behind my back expecting Carlisle to change you?! Especailly when i told you, many times i might add, that it will never happen! Stupid! Reckless! Insane! Did you even think of how this would affect me? Do you enjoy my pain? You will not become a monster! You will not live this life! You will go to college, grow old, and die! Just like you should!" I cringed away from him. I felt like my heart was breaking all over again. He had really planned on staying with me until I was wrinkly and using a walker. How sweet.
I glared at him. I wish I could at least put a dent in his face or something. I hated being a weak human! When I'm a vampire I'm going to do some serious damage! I was hurt, annoyed, and furious at the same time, not a good combination.
"Edward, what has gotten into you? You're not even acting like yourself! I will not marry you! Get over it! You're pathetic with your melodramatic temper tantrums! God! Get a grip! Be a man! I hardly recognize you!"
He was the one who cringed this time. My voice went from whispering to screaming at the top of my lungs. His expression was pained, but immediately transformed into outrage. This was not getting us anywhere.
"Pathetic? No, I am not pathetic. You going behind my back and demanding to be changed into a monster is pathetic! You're a stupid human! That's all you are!" Suddenly i didn't know who I was looking at in front of me.
This man was not my Edward. He was a stranger. A stranger who had just shattered my heart into a million pieces. I could feel the hole slice open, pieces crumbling and shattering. I had to get out of here.
I turned to run out of the house, but I stopped when I saw his family. Jasper was on his knees, his eyes squeezed shut, and he screamed in agony. Alice was whispering in his ear and trying to sooth him. Emmett looked as if he was going to tear Edward to pieces. Rosalie seemed worried about Edward. Esme kept looking from me to Edward, horrified. Carlisle was glaring at him.
"I can't handle this! God! The pain! Alice help her! Somebody fix her! Please!" Jasper was screaming and gripping his hair. My eyes grew wide. I was the on causing him pain. Alice looked up at me from her spot on the floor next to Jasper. I started shaking my head and ran for the door.
Edward had let me go. The next morning I was on my way to his house and the next thing I knew he was running next to my truck. I had pulled over and we both started apologizing. I cried half the day and Edward still hasn't forgiven himself.
I shifted uncomfortably in the bed and winced. I was constantly in pain these days. The cancer was spreading from my knee to my thigh. Sure, I had options. I just wanted to stop fighting and let the cancer take me. About two years ago I was diagnosed with Osteosarcoma bone cancer. The doctors had caught it early and I had to take chemo and radiation therapy.
My life was pure hell those few months. Of course, Edward was by my side every step of the way. I was horrified that he had to see me puking my guts out, but I was grateful for his love and support. Even if he had refused to give me the only thing I had ever asked from him, I still loved him and I had needed him more than ever.
When Jacob found out he was almost in hysterics. He had apologized and our friendship grew stronger. He was there during a few of my treatments and moral support. He had made it just a little easier to deal with. Edward and Jacob had put their differences aside, but only for my benefit.
Renee came down and stayed with me from the very beginning until I was in remission. Phil had come a few times too. Charlie and Renee were constantly talking about me when I pretended I was asleep. They obviously thought they knew what was best for me. Charlie still didn't like Edward and Renee was so confused that she didn't know if she should trust him or not. In the end, Edward had earned their trust and respect.
Once I had gotten over the cancer I began to live a normal life again. Well, at least the way it was before. I finished my senior year and graduated. Since Edward wouldn't budge on his choice to change me I had decided to go to Dartmouth. Renee had flown to Forks just to help me pack and do our partings. Saying goodbye to my parents was hard, but saying goodbye to Jacob was much worse. Things didn't end to well between us though.
Jake was bashing Edward and I was fuming. When he kissed me I punched him in the face and all I got was a broken hand, not hurting him at all. We didn't talk at all after that. I was busy with school and Edward, but I never forgot about that day.
My not-so-normal life came to a screeching halt when I started getting pains in my left knee. At first, it was just a little shooting pain every once in awhile and then it got worse.
I dumped my bag on the couch as I walked into me and Edward's room. Everyone else was occupied and I was exhausted from my day. I stumbled over to the bed, but I hit my left knee on the bed frame. I wasn't prepared for the pain I was about to endure.
I screamed and fell to the ground as hot tears streamed down my face. Before anything else could happen Edward burst through the door, panicked. He knelt beside me and cradled my face in his hands.
"Bella! Bella, what happened?! What hurts?" His eyes roamed my body looking for a wound. He was probably searching for a deep gash or a broken bone.
Carlisle came in and knelt on the other side of me. He ran his hands gently along my legs and when his cold hands made contact with my knees I started screaming. Carlisle and Edward stared at me with wide eyes.
"Bella, we need to know what happened." I could see the worry deep in Carlisle's eyes and he continued, "Your knee may be fractured and I'm going to have to take you to the hospital and run some test, but you have to tell me what happened first."
"I- i… I hit my knee on the bed frame." My knee was throbbing and I whimpered when Carlisle touched my knee.
Edward's face twisted into pain ad he had a silent conversation with Carlisle. How could this be that bad? I just hit my knee on the bed. It was probably just a fracture or something and I was being a wimp. Carlisle looked me straight in the eyes.
"I think…that possibly…the cancer might be back." Edward held me tighter and I couldn't control the sobs. I had been put through enough haven't I? Cancer. Again. I had a feeling death was going to win this time.
A light knock at the door startled me and I jumped. The seething pain shot from my knee and up through my thigh. I bit down on my tongue so hard that I tasted blood and a loud whimper still managed to escape my mouth.
Edward was by my side in less than a second. His face was full of concern and pain, as always. He held my hand and the pain stopped.
"I'm so sorry! This is my fault. Is it bad? Do you want more morphine?" He searched my face for an answer and I rolled my eyes.
"Edward, stop this! Not everything is your fault. I was just thinking and you startled me a little. This is a normal every day kind of thing for me. Relax." I lifted my head and kissed his cheek. He smiled a small, wary smile and nodded. His eyes were a shade of light topaz and honey mixed, my favorite. He had just gotten back from hunting. I hated it when he went hunting. It was the worst time for me, but I would never let him know that.
"Is there anything I can get you? Do you want anything?" He looked around the room quickly and ten focused on my face again. I hesitated before answering.
"Yes." I said simply. His brows furrowed in confusion. He had obviously noticed my hesitation.
"What is it?" I sighed.
"Edward, you know what I want. It's the only thing you won't give me." I looked up at him, my eyes pleading.
His jaw clenched and he let go of my hand stepping away. He stared out the window for a few minutes before closing his eyes and pinching the bridge of his nose. After a very long five minutes he turned to face me with no sign emotion on his face.
"No." His voice was firm. I sighed. I knew this would only lead to an argument.
"Whatever. This is all just so stupid. I'm lying on my death bed for crying out loud! I'm just going to die anyways! You're just making things harder for everyone!" I glared at him. He was still staring at me with that blank expression, but he had flinched. I was making progress.
"Isabella, we have discussed this numerous times. It always turns into an argument. My answer has always been no and it is not going to change. You should save your energy." He continued to stare me down with his "emotionless Edward" glare. It was annoying. I wish I could hit him in the face without hurting myself. Maybe Emmett would do it for me.
"Save my energy for what, dying? Ha! Good one. Maybe death will come faster if I use my energy up faster! Think of what you are doing to your family, Edward. Esme will be heartbroken. Carlisle will be disappointed. Alice might never forgive you. Emmett will want to smash you to pieces. Oh wait! I forgot! You plan on getting yourself killed anyways so maybe that would workout for you! We are both going to be missed and your family is going to be hurting, and it's all because of your stupid stubbornness! God, Edward! I don't understand you anymore!"
He flinched at the remarks about his family, but he still had on his perfect little mask that I hated so much. I slammed my fist on my thigh in frustration. That was probably the most stupid thing I had done all day. I screamed and crumpled over as the pain cut like glass back and forth in my thigh and down to my knee.
Edward rushed to my side and grabbed my hand again, but I was too angry at him. I tried to push him away or at least let him know I was trying to, but that was another stupid decision. The pain increased and traveled down my leg to my ankle. I screamed every time the pain shot through my leg.
"Damn it! Bella, stop! Calm down!" He was practically yelling at me. The pain was worse than ever, but I still struggled against him and I wasn't sure why. Loud sobs came from my mouth and my entire body was shaking. This only increased the pain. I gave up against Edward and let him hold me.
"Carlisle!" Edward was stroking my hair and trying to calm me down, but my body continued to shake violently.
It felt as if a bone in my leg had snapped. I shrieked in agony and my body thrashed. I had never felt this amount of pain. Even when James had broken my leg it didn't hurt as much.
"Edward! She needs to be still, calm her down! I don't want anything else to break!" Carlisle's voice was frantic.
Somehow Edward had managed to calm me down. Tears were still rolling down my cheeks as he began to kiss them away. Carlisle must have given me the morphine because I felt sleepy. My eyes drooped shut and I tried to fight it.
"Stop fighting it Bella. You're exhausted." I nodded. He was right. I was tired of fighting. Maybe this would be the end. Maybe I wouldn't wake up. I wasn't ready yet though. My eyes flew open. I couldn't leave like this.
"Kiss me, please" My voice trembled. I stared at his face, studying every inch. My Edward. So beautiful and he was all mine. I closed my eyes, waiting.
He cupped my face with his hands and paused briefly before placing his cold lips to my warm ones. He kissed me passionately and I returned it with as much passion as I could in this state. When he pulled away I couldn't open my eyes to take one last look, they were too heavy. I smiled as much as I could and felt the blackness trying to pull me under, but I had to cling to these last few moments.
"This isn't goodbye my Bella. You're going to wakeup. I promise." His voice faltered.
"Edward?" It was barely a whisper.
"Yes, love?" He still held my face in his hands. I was going to miss this.
"Love…you." The darkness was winning and now I was ready. I just hope he heard it.
I felt him press his forehead to mine and I noticed he was trembling.
"I love you too. More than you will ever know. Bella…" His voice trailed off as I heard loud sobs.
The sobs were shaking the bed. My angel! My angel was crying! No! I couldn't leave him like this. I tried to fight it, but it was too late.
The darkness had taken over. I went under and I was never to return.
A/N: So did you like it? Don't worry Bella didn't die! I'm not that cruel! She just thinks that she is and she's hoping to, a little bit. I'm working on chapter two right now. Review please?! The more reviews i get, the faster I'll post chapter two! Thanks for reading! review...?