Half my life is in books written pages
Live and learn from fools and from sages
You know it's true
All the things come back to you

-Dream On by Aerosmith

Monday, October 14, 1995

Winchester, England, United Kingdom

God? I know you're out there. Well, from what I've heard, you're always out there. Can't you please help me? From what I've heard, you can. I know that this is the first time I've ever tried talking to you, and I've never been in a church. So, I don't blame you if you're even a little mad at me. But please, I just have two small favors to ask of you.

Don't stop the rain from falling. If it were up to me, I'd have it raining all day, every day. You probably don't get this request often, most likely not at all. I heard that people don't like the rain so much. So many people are running away from the rain, the streets, going inside to keep themselves dry and presentable. Why would they care? I certainly don't. The rain feels good against my hair, making it wet and making it stick to me. The rain feels good against my skin, causing goosebumps to come up and making all the dirt slide off. The rain feels good against my clothes, making them cold and bitter, making them stick even closer to me, even though they are already a size too small for me to wear. The only problem I have with it is that it makes my eyesight even worse that it already is. Before I would have to strain to see far away, during the rain, I have to strain to see even close up. Please don't stop the rain from falling.

Bring someone to me. To help me get up and start walking. I have somewhere I need to be, I'm not sure where it is or even what it's called, but I know I need to be there. Ok, you got me, I'm lying, I'm really, really, really, really sorry. I don't have anywhere I need to be, but I feel a pull, like someone, or something, is pulling me somewhere, and I need to be there. Can you make it an old person? You know, like with grey hair and wrinkles? I heard they were really nice and would maybe be able to help me. Then again, there are the old people that are mean and make people get away from them. I don't know. The only thing I know about other people is what I learned from the television. And I heard that a lot of stuff on the television is fake and made up. But I want the old guy that's nice and would always be smiling at me and would never yell at me, no matter what I did. I know, I'm being picky, and I'm really sorry for that too. I guess I just want to make sure I can trust whoever you send to me, if you send anyone at all. Please bring someone to me.