Yo wad up sorry I have not been updating in a veeerrrrryyyy long time this being cause I have lot of other things to and I'm kinda lazy. But if you want me to update faster I'm gonna need some reviews, do that and i'll update faster. Oh there is a lemon in this story so for all the people who don't like this you can just skip out the dream, but the dream is important as it shows how sesshy and bella met each other and the reason why she claims to hate him so and by the way for all those Bleach lovers out their I have a forum up titled Bleach Couples check it out, and some ideas for the forum and also the story will be appreciated, you can IM me about it.

Anyway on with the story and my poor attempt at a lemon!!!!

"So you think I should ask him out," I asked Sango looking at her.

"I don't think this is the right time to be talking about this"

"Awww come on anytime is a good time to talk about guys" I said with a smile on my face.

"Yeah well not while where on a mission," she said with a stern look on her face.

" But the other day at the meeting it was soooo obvious he was flirting with me"

"Look can't we discuss this when we get home the target is arriving"

I looked down from our position on top of the roof to see our target getting out of his car and walking into the building with his guards behind him.

"Well it looks like its time for action," I said standing up, Sango following me.

"Are you ready to kick some ass" Sango asked me with a grin on her face.

"Hell yeah" I said and we both jumped off the roof.

(2 Hours later)

"So do you think should I ask him"

"What the hell Bell can I at least get my foot inside the house" she said giving me mean look.

"But you said when we reached home we could discuss this"

"Yeah well home is inside the house witch we aren't at the moment"

"Ok ok"


"Look do what you want already" Sango said looking fed up.

"But I don't want to be too forward"

"Then don't ask him"

"But I like hiiimmm" I said whining like a little child.

"You know what fuck you I'm going to bed"

I watched as Sango stormed up stairs not saying another word. Maybe I was being a little annoying, anyway she'll be better by morning. I walked up the stairs taking off my clothes and diving into my bed not bothering to bathe. I soon dosed off into a deep sleep.


"Where am I?"

I looked around and all I could see is darkness. I tried calling out, but there was no answer. Suddenly a bright light appeared out of nowhere.

"Well at least I can see where I'm going now," I said as I started to walk towards the bright light.

"OH MY GOD" I screamed as I was now in the bright light.

In front of me was a scene I was hoping to never relive again, the first time I met Sesshoumaru.

I was now in a large ballroom with lots of people in it dancing, talking and enjoying them selves. I remember this as if it was yesterday. It was a party to celebrate my sister's new marriage. A handsome demon lord by the name of Riordan, he had long black hair that was in a ponytail and dark eyes to mach. Although it was an arranged marriage they loved each other more than anything. I walked around looking for myself. Yeah I know that sounds weird but I finally found me talking to some guy I can't remember.

"Wait I remember, this is when he appeared," I said to myself.

As if on cue a tall man with long white hair wearing a white tuxedo and a blue scarf around his neck tucked neatly in his tux. He was heading in my direction. Well he was heading towards my past self.

"Well lady Isabella it's nice to finally meet you" he said with a smirk on his face.

" And who might you be" my past self said to him.

"I'm hurt that you don't know me mi lady, I'm lord Sesshoumaru," he said with a fake hurt expression on his face.

"Oh you're the man from Japan my father has been telling me about"

"Ahh there we go so you do know me," he said with a fake smile on his face.

By this time the guy that I was talking to was gone and now it was just the asshole and I left talking.

"Just perfect, and if I remember properly were gonna talk all night and then shits gonna happen. Just fucking great," I said talking to no one but myself.

And just a predicted we talked all night, all fucking night. That is until the bastard started to lead me outside into the gardens very very far in the gardens where no one was.

" You son of a bitch" I said as I ran after myself.

"This garden is really beautiful," my past self said looking around.

"I think I can find something more beautiful to look at," he said looking at my past self.

"Oh hell no don't fall for it don't!" I shouted but it was too late as reached down and started to kiss me.

"Oh god here we go I'm about to make the biggest mistake of my life"

My past self-POV

He leaned down to kiss me touching my lips gently with his. I started to kiss him back wrapping my hands around his neck as he wrapped his around my waist. He started to deepen the kiss his tongue pressing up against my lips. I opened my mouth allowing him entrance. He started to caress the inside of my mouth with his tongue making me moan, which encouraged him to start sucking on my tongue making me moan even louder.

"What am I doing he is neither my mate nor my husband I have to stop" I said in my mind as I started to push him away.

"What is it?" he asked looking at me with lust in his eyes.

"I can't do this it's wrong" I said looking away from him.

"Nothing is wrong with expressing your self"

"You're right but not like this I just met you"

"Yes I know but I can't help the way I feel about you" he said stroking my cheek with the back of his hand.

"I can't"

"Yes you can," he said leaning in to kiss me again.

But this time a turned my head leaving him to kiss me on the cheek. I felt him smile on my face and he started to kiss my ear going down to kiss my neck finding my weak spot bellow my jaw line. This made me moan making him start to suck my sensitive skin.

"Sess….shoumaru st-op" I said out of breath.

"Make me," he said in a low whisper.

But I couldn't stop him I tried so hard, but it felt sooo good I couldn't help it. He started to remove my clothing kissing my exposed skin as he went on till he left me in nothing but my under garments.

"You look so beautiful," he said eyeing my body.

I looked at him not able to say anything as his beautiful amber eyes searched my body. He picked me up and then placed me on the soft grass and continued to kiss me again. I started to kiss him back entangling my fingers in his hair as I reached for his jacket trying to take it off, but before I could he stopped me by holding my hands. He stopped kissing me and took of his jacket along with his scarf and dress shirt leaving his well sculpted abs to be seen. I stared at him unable to breath.

"See something you like," he whispered in my ear.

"Maybe" I said still looking at his perfect abs.

He chuckled and started to kiss me again this time taking of all my clothes. He stopped and stared at my naked form beneath him. He leaned down and started to kiss and suckle my right breast putting my nipple in his mouth as his other hand caressed my left breast. I arched my back and moaned continuously grabbing his hair and pushed his head closer to my breast. He switched to my left breast sucking and biting it while he rubbed the right one with his hand. His other free hand started to travel down my body stopping just above my womanhood for a second, and then his hand went to my lips separating them so he could rub my now wet pussy.

"Mmmm don't tell your getting wet already," he whispered against my now erect nipple.

I couldn't do anything but moan. He stopped harassing my breast with his mouth and went back to kissing me quieting my moans. He inserted one of his fingers inside of me making me whimper and tense up.

"Shhhh just relax," he whispered and I did what he said. He started to move is finger in and out of me slowly. Eventually I started to moan again which made him enter another finger.

"Ohhh goddd" I moaned as he started to move faster now entering another finger. My moans got louder and louder as I started to feel this pressure start to build up at the bottom of my belly. Then suddenly he took his finger out of me. I glared at him ready to curse him for stopping what he was doing to me. He chuckled at my expression, which made me even angrier.

"Don't worry I'm far from finished with you" he said in a husky voice. He kissed me on the lips and then he went lower kissing my breasts to my belly until reached the entrance of my womanhood. I looked at him with shock and tried to close my legs but he held my thighs preventing me from closing them.

"Trust me your not going to be disappointed," he said then he lowered his head and kissed my lips. I inhaled sharply and started to nuzzle my clit with his tongue. I gasped as he inserted his tongue in me and started to lap up my juices.

"Ahhh ohhhh Sesshommmaru" I screamed as the pressure returned and increased rapidly leaving my breathing to be uneven. The pressure then turned into an inferno making me arch my back and grab a fistful of his hair. Then the fair died down leaving my breathless.

"See I told you that you wouldn't be disappointed" he said with a smirk on his face.

"But I most say you taste very good. Do you wish to taste yourself?"

Without thinking I nodded and he came up and gave me long and lustful kiss. He looked at me and then started to remove his pants. I watched in silence as he took it off. My eyes widened as I saw his manhood, it was huge how was that suppose to fit inside of me. He saw the look in my eyes and gave me a gentle kiss on the lips.

"Don't worry I wont hurt you"

I braced myself ready for what was to come. I felt him adjust himself till his penis was at my entrance. I went rigid but told me to relax our it will hurt more and I did what he said. He started to enter me slowly until is head alone was in. This alone made me gasp.

'It's not even all of him and I'm panting already'

And with one quick thrust he entered me. At first a felt numb for about five seconds, then I felt it, the pain.

"Ahhhhhhhh-" my screams were cut off by his mouth. He kissed me tying to comfort me, he stayed still for a while not moving just kissing me. I looked up at him to see a pained expression on his face as he was trying to stop himself from hurting me any further. I broke the kiss and looked up at him. We stared at each other for a while until a lifted my hips creating the much need friction between us. This made him groan and look down at me with a lustful look in his eyes.

"Are you ready" he asked me in a husky voice and I nodded. Without a second thought he started to pump in and out of me, first slowly as to not hurt me too much. It felt weird like his tongue but way bigger. I started to get use his size and all the pain vanished completely being replaced with pleasure. I started to moan which encouraged him to go faster thus increasing my moans until they were screams.

"Mmmm ahhhh fff fa fasteerr" I pleaded and he obeyed and did what I asked of.

He groaned and went even faster if that was even possible. He whispered in my ear how good I was and how he liked how I felt and how tight I was, this alone mad me want to come and I did just that. I shivered and arched my back as he continued to thrust in and out of me, taking himself out completely and then thrusting back inside of me. Another wave of pleasure washed over me as I came again. Shortly after he followed with deep growl spilling all his seeds inside of me. A few minutes passed and we stayed in that position. Eventually he lifted his head to look up and gave me a devilish grin.

(End Of dream)

I sat up in shock of what I just saw. I can't believe after all these years and I'm still dreaming about that bastard. A low growl erupted from throat at the thought. After he had had sex with me we dressed and went back to the ball, he gave me a passionate kiss saying he had to and go left me after that saying he would see me again.

'Pfft yeah right'

When I did see him again he acted as if nothing happened and ignored me, which angered me so I went to him about it. He said that I meant nothing and that he was only in heat and needed to get rid of the tension. I cried the night he told me, to know that I was only a toy to him something to be played with. But at the same time a have to thank him because if it were not for him I would not be the bad ass I was today. I would probably be married to some bastard with lots of kids by now, but thanks to him I know better now. I sighed and laid back down on the bed staring at the ceiling until I fell into I silent slumber.