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Eternal Hell or Newfound Heaven?

"Bella's POV

"So Edward, what's on the agenda for today?"

"Hmm, I was thinking that since it's sunny out, we could spend our day in the meadow."

"Okay. Sounds good. But I'm going back home first. I'm just going to prepare something for Charlie to heat up afterwards, and I'll tell him I'm sleeping over." I winked and smiled.

"Good." Edward returned the smile, and kissed my forehead.

--

Charlie must've been running late because it was already half-past-six. It didn't really bother me that he was more than half an hour late. Maybe he just got caught up with something?

My attention was drawn to the house phone. Who could be calling? Must be Charlie. "Hello?"

"This is Constable Anthony Peters; I'm one of the officers in Forks that works with Charlie. Is this Bella that I am speaking with?"

"Uh, yes, this is Bella." My voice broke as it shook nervously.

"I'm sorry that you have to experience this Bella, but Charlie was in an accident and is in bad condition."

My brain couldn't function. I didn't want to understand the concept that this was reality. Why couldn't I be dreaming? Charlie doesn't deserve this! I heard a loud, pain filled cry. I was stunned when I realized that I was the one crying.

"Ms. Swan, please calm down. Charlie will be fine."

"W-Wait. What? I don't understand any of this."

"Bella, I know this is difficult, but Charlie needs your support. He's at the hospital here in Forks. From what I've been informed, Dr. Cullen is treating him."



Carlisle is treating him. That information makes this situation a bit more bearable.

I didn't even bother to say good-bye or to thank Constable Peters for calling. I just hung up and drove straight to the hospital.

"Where – is – he?" Those three words were almost impossible to choke out because I was gasping and still crying from the shock of this entire situation.

"Oh. Ms. Swan, you're here. I don't think now is the right time to be visiting your father –"

"Where is he?" My voice was sturdier, and very edgy now that I was able to calm down a bit.

"Isabella now is not a suitable time for visitation." It was obvious that this lady was growing with frustrated with my opposition to her statement.

"I don't care if it's 'not a suitable time.'" I made air brackets with my fingers. "I need to see my father! What room is he in?!" I practically screamed at the secretary, drawing a lot of attention to the commotion I started.

She sighed in defeat. "He's on the fifth floor in room five-fourteen." I spun on my heels, determined to get to Charlie right away.

I half-ran through the halls, tripping over myself twice. When I finally reached his room, after running around this maze endlessly, I took a breather, and stood outside his door for a minute.

"You must be Mr. Swans' daughter, Isabella, right?" A nurse asked me, smiling sweetly as she held her hand out.

I took her hand, and shook it. "Bella. And may I ask who you are?"

"Oh my! Please excuse my rudeness! I'm your fathers' nurse, Patricia Stevens. Please just call me Pat."

"Okay thanks Pat. So ... how is he?" I looked away, afraid of her response.

"Well Bella, right now Charlie is heavily sedated, and Dr. Cullen is changing his bandages. Charlie broke his left leg, and his left arm, his right wrist, a few ribs, and he's wearing a neck brace. I'll inform the doctor to let you know when it's okay to see him."

"Oh, alright then. I'll just wait around the corner." I stared at my feet, as I progressed down the corridor, and into the waiting area.

I focused my attention on the gorgeous designer shows of a lady sitting on a chair a few feet from where I was walking. "Alice? Edward? Esme? What are you doing here?"

I looked closely, to see Edwards' face buried in his hands. Why was he reacting so strongly?

"Oh Bella! Look at your eyes! Their all swollen and red. You must be exhausted! Please, have a seat." Esme ran towards me and hugged me, gesturing that I sit in the seat she was in.



"Thanks Esme."

I sat across from Edward and Alice, while Esme stood next to me, her hand resting on my shoulder.

"Bella ... I'm so sorry." Edward finally spoke after sitting there quietly for a little less than an hour.

"For what? You know that Charlie'll be okay." I said, smiling the best I could, hoping that he would feel better.

"How could you look at me like that? Aren't you angry? Do you not see how much of a monster I am?" Edward asked, as he looked up into my eyes. His eyes were dark butterscotch, and were filled with resentment. Sorrow.

"Do you not know?" Esme asked, shocked.

"Know what?" I was utterly lost. I had no idea what was going on.

"Bella, do you know what caused the accident?" Alice asked, her voice was hurt too.

Now that I thought of it, I never did find out what the cause for Charlie's accident. "No ... when the police called, I was stunned, and wasn't able to speak to ask. I just screamed in horror, and ran all the way here."

Edward looked unstable, like what I said to him hurt him even more. His face fell in his hands again, as his body shook with dry sobs.

"What? What happened?" I stood up walking towards Edward, stopping mid-way when Alice lifted one of her hands to stop me from walking any further. "Why are you all acting so strongly to everything?!" I was now anxious, so my voice rose with anticipation.

"Bella... you may want to sit down for this." Esme walked right up to me, and took my hand as she directed me to my seat.

"What. Happened. To. Him?" My voice was fierce as I fought back tears.

"Alice had a vision that Charlie would be in an accident. Edward panicked and drove over to your house as fast as he could. He was so eager to get there, that he didn't pay much attention to anything around him and..."

Her voice trailed off as I felt as if I was being consumed by darkness and pulled into a pit of loneliness. Edward, my Edward had crashed into Charlie? How could he be so... so...? I was at lost for words, but I was upset. This honestly couldn't be real. It had to be a dream!

I felt a strange, sensation on my lips, and I wanted it to last. But as quickly as it came, it left. And I was intoxicated with dreams of Edward.

"... Bella? Bella, I know you can hear me. Please open your eyes."



I slowly opened my eyes to see Carlisle hovering over me. "Charlie is awake now." He continued.

I looked around the small waiting room, to find that I was alone. "Where's Edward?"

"He... left."

"Oh." Why would he leave? Did something else come up?

Carlisle helped me up from my seat and together we walked into the room where Charlie was.

My face lit up when we walked in the room and I saw that Charlie was awake. "Dad!" I ran towards him, and hugged him.

He grunted. "Careful Bella. I'm bandaged up for a reason." He chuckled at his own joke and I joined him.

"How are you feeling Dad? Is there anything I could get you?"

"Bella, you worry too much. I'm fine. I'm in great care, so need to get all worked up."

"Sorry, you're right. I probably am over-reacting."

"Did you just wake up, Bells?"

"I should be asking you the same thing."

He smiled, and his eyes got all crinkly. "Uh, yeah, I just woke up, why?"

"Hmm, did something happen between you and Edward?"

"Sort of ... again, why?"

"He rushed in here to apologize over and over again, and then he told me to tell you that he loves you, he's sorry, and goodbye. I'm surprised he didn't wait for you to wake up."

My eyes widened in fear. "Dad, what were his exact words?"

"He said something like, 'Charlie, I am sincerely sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you. I apologize.' "

"Dad, cut the crap! What did he say that was meant for me?"

"Bella, watch your language."

"Dad," I said sternly, as we looked into each other's eyes.

"Edward just told me to tell you, 'Charlie, please do me a favour and tell Bella I love her with all my heart. I need you to apologize a million times over for me as well. And one last thing, tell her that this is goodbye. I've hurt her too many times, and I can't bear to see all the pain I've inflicted on to her.' Well, those weren't his exact words. But it came out a lot like that."



My world came crashing down. I knew the real meaning to the words. It wasn't a goodbye because he was leaving the hospital. But a goodbye because he's leaving. He lied to me.

I got up from the bed, absentmindedly, as I took little steps towards the door, waiting for the immense pain to wash over me.

"Bella? Is everything alright?"

I could tell Charlie was asking because he was concerned with my sudden mood change, but I just ignored him, and continued walking to the door.

I wasn't even halfway to the entrance when the pain struck me worse than lightning. Damage from being struck from lightning was something I could recover from. This was unrecoverable damage. This was an eternal hell.

I threw my hand in the air and clung at my torso. My heart was ripping, and the pain was growing more intense each second. This pain didn't rush though my entire body like I would've liked it too; instead it took it's time at shredding my fragile heart to pieces. Each piece contained a memory of Edward.

A wave of dizziness washed over me, pulling me towards the ground. I must've fallen to my left because my body hit the table with all the utensils on them. I felt as the needles, scissors and other device pierced my skin and cut deep into my neck and chest. Even the pain of being cut up didn't overcome the pain inside me.

I could hear Charlie screaming frantically, and the sound of the nurses rushing into the room. But all the noise was just a faint whisper, fading into the distance.

I closed my eyes, and was happy because even in my memories, Edward was as beautiful as ever.

Edward's POV

"So Edward, what's on the agenda for today?"

"Hmm, I was thinking that since it's sunny out, we could spend our day in the meadow."

"Okay. Sounds good. But I'm going back home first. I'm just going to prepare something for Charlie to heat up afterwards, and I'll tell him I'm sleeping over." Bella winked at me, and smiled. She looked so beautiful when she smiled sweetly.

I thought of the day we had ahead of us if our day went as planned and I smiled. "Good." I leaned in, and kissed her forehead.

--

"So Edward, I hear you and Bella are spending the day together."



"Yes, we are Alice." I replied. Not the slightest bit of curiosity as to why she needed to confirm that.

"I had a vision that tomorrow is another sunny day... So maybe you want to hunt. And I can watch over Bella for you."

There must've been a bigger reason as to why she was blocking me out of her thoughts. "What do you have planned that you need Bella for?"

"Well ... tomorrow there is a new clothing store opening tomorrow over in Seattle. And over at some of the other good stores, they're having a sale. So I need a shopping partner." Alice smiled as if to encourage me to go hunting. "Please?"

"Alice, if I allowed that to happen, than it would seem like some sort of punishment to Bella. She might think that she did something wrong."

"That's exactly why you tell her you're going hunting!"

"She'll wonder why you didn't come hunting too."

"I don't need to go hunting. I just went today. But I came back early leaving Jasper, Emmett and Rosalie there. And just to tell you, the amount of mountain lion up north is getting pretty out of control. They're everywhere!"

You know it was a mistake to tell your devious sister one of your weaknesses, when she finds a way to use it against you. I sighed heavily, knowing that she won this war. "Yay! Shopping tomorrow!" She trotted off down the hall, as I chuckled and walked into my room.

I lifted up the remote to my sound system and played some music. I lied down on my bed, completely taken away from thoughts of my Bella. Today would be fun. Tonight would be better.

"Edward!" Alice stormed into my room, completely freaked out about something. "I just had a vision of Bella in tears. She's in a lot of pain. I can't see why, but I do see her driving somewhere, and there's some sort of accident... I'm unable to see who is in the accident, but one does occur."

My breathing became uneven, and in an instant I was in the Volvo, driving at speeds nearly one hundred miles per hour. My mind was so focused on getting to Bella and protecting her. I wasn't even paying attention to anything around me, so as I made a turn I crashed right into Charlie's cruiser.

I was so completely horrified with myself that I have done such a thing! I called Carlisle, and he sent people over to the scene. I just sat in my unscratched Volvo, staring at everything unravel in front of me.

I was taken to the hospital just to see if anything did happen, when it was clear that nothing could. When I arrived in the hospital, I sat with Alice and Esme while Carlisle patched Charlie up.

From where I was seated, I heard Bella step out of the elevator, and stop right in front of Charlie's door to even her breathing.



I heard as Bella talked to the nurse, and I panicked when Bella's footsteps drew closer to the room Esme, Alice and I were waiting in. I composed myself in time, as Bella stepped around the corner and spotted us.

I quickly glanced at how hurt she looked. Her eyes were swollen, and some of her hair was out of place. She was sniffling, and my heart ripped in two because I caused her this pain.

"Alice? Edward? Esme? What are you doing here?"

I quickly allowed my face drop into my hand as I sat there, torn at the sight of Bella.

"Oh Bella! Look at your eyes! They're all swollen and red. You must be exhausted! Please, have a seat." Esme stood up from her seat and ran to hug Bella, and asking her to sit in the vacant chair.

Bella murmured a 'thank you' to Esme and sat down. "Bella... I'm so sorry." I was finally able to speak to her after being silent for a long while.

"For what? You know that Charlie'll be okay." I looked up, and saw Bella smiling the best she could at a time like this. How could she even bear to look so happy?

"How could you look at me like that? Aren't you angry? Do you not see how much of a monster I am?" I asked her, as I looked up to see her dace again. I focused closely on how much agony she was in. I let my memory take it all in, so that I know what I caused her. This is how I could torture myself.

"Do you not know?" Esme asked Bella. She was as shocked as Alice and I were.

"Know what?" Bella actually looked like she had no idea why Charlie was even here.

"Bella do you know what caused the accident?" Alice asked.

Bella hesitated, but answered shortly. "No ... When the police called, I was stunned and wasn't able to speak to ask. I just screamed in horror and ran all the way here."

She screamed and cried in horror because of my carelessness! I couldn't take this pain. I couldn't be around her anymore. I hunched, and sobbed dryly into my hands again.

"What? What happened?" Bella stood up, and took small steps towards Alice and I. Something must've occurred because she stopped half-way. It was good that she did, because if she tried to comfort me I would completely lose it. "Why are you acting so strongly to everything!?"

"Bella... you may want to sit down for this." Esme walked towards Bella and sat her down again. "Alice had a vision that Charlie would be in an accident. Edward panicked and drove over to your house as fast as he could. He was so eager to get there, that he didn't pay much attention to anything around him and..."



Bella suddenly passed out. I had fully thought everything through, and now was my chance. I have already caused Bella so much pain, and I couldn't bear to hurt her anymore. I would carry that pained look she had on her in my mind for all eternity.

--

"Edward! You can't do this! This is not even about my sale anymore! Just don't do this! It's not worth any of it!"

"How would you know?! And don't say it's because of your visions!"

"Edward, I don't need vision to know that you're making a mistake."

"Alice, I've made up my mind. That's why you know what I'm doing. If I didn't have my heart set on this, you wouldn't have seen this. I'm sorry."

"You are the most selfish creature! It may seem like you're the only one losing someone from this experience, but if we leave, I'm losing a best friend – a sister – and everyone is going to be missing someone! She's a part of our family!"

"Alice, this is what's best. Don't stop me." I ran quickly, into Charlie's room.

"Oh, Edward, what brings you here?" Charlie's voice was heavy with fake enthusiasm.

"I'm really sorry for hurting you Charlie. It was my carelessness that led to this. Please accept that we have paid for all the expenses and I am forever in debt to you. If there's anything I could do to make it up to you... "

"Originally, I would say that you stop dating my daughter. But from experience, I know that you leaving her would only tear her apart." It was as if he knew what I planned, everything just became a lot harder. "So I forgive you, son. It wasn't your fault anyways. Accidents happen."

He called me 'son'. To think, I've been yearning for him to call me that since the day I knew I loved Bella. Funny how things work. "You brought something up before... kind of the reason why I came here."

"What's up?"

"Could you do me a favour, Charlie?"

"What is it?"

"I need you to tell Bella something for me. This is something you cannot forget."

"I'm not following..."

"Charlie, I'm leaving. I need you to tell Bella that I love her with everything I have, and that she is everything to me. Apologize to her, and say goodbye to her from me."



It's urgent that I tell Bella that he's leaving the hospital? Strange ... but I can cope.

I guess its okay that he thinks that. It will make things easier.

"Yeah, I'll tell her when she wakes up."

"Thanks Charlie. I hope you recover soon. And I hope that one day, you'll learn to forgive me for what I'm about to do."

What he's about to do? Oh no. When he meant leaving he meant that. Oh no, n, no. He's going to really ruin Bella!

"Edward, don't you leave her. If you walk out of those doors, I hope you know that you will never be welcome back here. This is crossing the line mister. And to think, I considered you someone like a son to me! You are her world, and you're ruining it. I can't pass on that message.

"Charlie you must."

"Why should I be the one to suffer for what you do to her?!" Charlie was clearly very angry, I couldn't blame him. I was about to ruin our pride and joy.

I didn't hear anymore. I just walked out while he called out after me. I left and went straight home. The only things I packed for myself were little reminders of Bella and clothes. I may be out of her life, but she will never be out of mine. I packed all the pictures I had of her, my Debussy CD, and everyone else's clothing. I drove to her house. I knew I was trespassing but did it really matter now?

I flew straight up to her room and stole her deep blue sweater. This is the one thing I needed to survive (aside from Bella herself). I took all the stuff that might remind me of her, and instead of putting them in the floorboards like last time, I decided to put them in her mattress.

I ran back to my car to go to the hospital to pick Alice and Esme up. Carlisle had to come afterward, and we'd all be meeting in a hotel up North.

Alice and Esme reluctantly got into my car, as I put my car on idle and quickly ran to do one last thing. I strode into the waiting room where Bella laid, still fast asleep. I kissed her soft, pink lips one last time. Just as I pulled away, I felt her kiss back. And if my heart could stop, it would've at this very moment. How could I leave now? No. I must. It's for the best.

I told Carlisle the plans, and took a final glance of Bella. It would've been the last time I would see her sleep like this. I took a step forward, away from the room. "Edward... We're meant for each other." She mumbled in her sleep.

My knees weakened, and I fell to the ground. I quickly composed myself, and hopped in my Volvo where I sobbed against the wheel. I didn't care that Esme and Alice were watching me. All I cared about was that Bella was right, and I just ruined it. I was about to enter my eternal hell – an eternity without Bella.

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