Soundtrack

If It Kills Me by Jason Mraz
(Soundtrack to entire story)

Hello, tell me you know
Yeah, you figured me out
Something gave it away
And it would be such a beautiful moment
To see the look on your face
To know that I know that you know now

And baby that's a case of my wishful thinking
You know nothing
Cause you and I
Why, we go carrying on for hours, on and
We get along much better
Than you and your boyfriend

Well all I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can't say it after all we've been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me

Well how long, can I go on like this,
Wishing to kiss you,
Before I rightly explode?
This double life I lead isn't healthy for me
In fact it makes me nervous
If I get caught I could be risking it all

Baby there's a lot that I miss
In case I'm wrong

Well all I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can't say it after all we've been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me

If I should be so bold
I'd ask you to hold my heart in your hand
Tell you from the start how I've longed to be your man
But I never said I would
I guess I'm gonna miss my chance again

All I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can't say it after all we've been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me
If it kills me
I think it might kill me

And all I really want from you is to feel me
It's a feeling inside that keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me
If it kills me
It might kill me


Prologue/Chapter One

Break Stuff by Limp Bizkit

Its just one of those days
When you don't wanna wake up
Everything is fucked
Everybody sux
You don't really know why
But want justify
Rippin' someone's head off
No human contact
And if you interact
Your life is on contract
Your best bet is to stay away motherfucker
It's just one of those days!!

chorus
Its all about the he says she says bullshit
I think you better quit
Lettin' shit slip
Or you'll be leavin with a fat lip
Its all about the he says she says bullshit
I think you better quit talkin that shit
(Punk, so come and get it)
Its just one of those days
Feelin' like a freight train
First one to complain
Leaves with a blood stain
Damn right I'm a maniac
You better watch your back
Cuz I'm fuckin' up your program
And if your stuck up
You just lucked up
Next in line to get fucked up
Your best bet is to stay away motherfucker
Its just one of those days!!

chorus

I feel like shit
My suggestion is to keep your distance cuz right now im dangerous
We've all felt like shit
And been treated like shit
All those motherfuckers that want to step up
I hope you know I pack a chain saw
I'll skin your ass raw
And if my day keeps goin' this way I just might break somethin' tonight...
I hope you know I pack a chain saw
I'll skin your ass raw
And if my day keeps goin' this way I just might break somethin' tonight...
I hope you know I pack a chain saw
I'll skin your ass raw
And if my day keeps goin' this way I just might break your fuckin' face tonight!!
Give me somethin' to break
How bout your fuckin' face
I hope you know I pack a chain saw, what!!...

chorus


Chapter Two
Losing Grip by Avril Lavigne

Are you aware of what you make me feel, baby?
Right now I feel invisible to you, like I'm not real..
Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you?
Why'd you turn away?
Here's what I have to say...

I was left to cry there, waiting outside there
Grinnin' with a lost stare,
That's when I decided...

Why should I care?
'Cause you weren't there when I was scared
I was so alone...
You, you need to listen!
I'm startin' to trip,
I'm losin' my grip
And I'm in this thing alone...

Am I just some chick you placed beside you,
To take somebody's place?
When you turn around can you recognize my face..?
You used to love me, you used to hug me
But that wasn't the case,
Everything wasn't okay..

I was left to cry there
Waiting outside there
Grinnin' with a lost stare,
thats when i decided...

Why should I care?
'Cause you weren't there when I was scared,
I was so alone
You, you need to listen
I'm startin' to trip
I'm losin' my grip
And I'm in this thing alone

Cryin' out loud
I'm cryin' out loud
Cryin' out loud
I'm cryin' out loud

Open your eyes
Open up wide

Why should I care
'Cause you weren't there when I was scared,
I was so alone

Why should I care
'Cause you weren't there when I was scared,
I was so alone
Why should I care?
If you don't care, then I don't care
We're not going anywhere

Why should I care?
'Cause you weren't there when I was scared
I was so alone
Why should I care?
If you don't care, then I don't care
We're not goin anywhere


Chapter Three

Coffee House Soundtrack by All Time Low

Should I write myself out of the history books,
and mark a place in time for every chance you took,
Don't get me wrong I know you've got your life in place -
I've yet to take the hint,
Some day
I'm sure I'll get the picture,
and stop waiting up...

When it all comes down,
to a sunrise on the east side,
will you be there to carry home,
the remains of my wasted youth,
this wasted time on you
has left me shaking in waiting,
shaking in waiting for something more.

Tonight is alive with the promise of a street-fight,
and there's money on the table,
that says your cheap-shots won't be able,
to break bones.
I've yet to break a sweat
I'll make your past regret its future.
Here's to you.

When it all comes down,
to a sunrise on the east side,
will you be there to carry home,
the remains of my wasted youth,
this wasted time on you
has left me shaking in waiting,
for something more.

Make all of my decisions for me,
I've never taken the fall for deceit,
I'll keep a secret if you keep me guessing,
The taste of your lips says we shouldn't have met like... (repeat)

I can keep a secret if you can keep me guessing,
The flavor of your lips is enough to keep me pressing,
for more than just a moment of truth between the lies told,
to pull ourselves away from the lives we leave back home...
I can keep a secret if you can keep me guessing,
The flavor of your lips is enough to keep me here...

When it all comes down,
to that sunrise on the east side,
will you be there to carry home,
the remains of my wasted youth,
this wasted time on you
has left me shaking in waiting,
for something more.


Chapter Four

First Day of My Life by Bright Eyes

This is the first day of my life
I swear I was born right in the door way
I went out in the rain
Suddenly everything changed their spread
Blankets on the beach

Yours is the first face that I saw
I think I was blind before I met you
I don't know where I am
I don't know where I've been
But I know where I want to go
So I thought I'd let you know
These things take forever, I especially am slow
But I realized how I need you
And I wondered if I could come home

I remember the time you drove all night
Just to meet me in the morning
Yeah I thought it was strange
You said everything changed
You felt as if you just woke up

And you said, "This is the first day of my life."
I'm glad I didn't die before I met you
Now I don't care, I could go anywhere with you
And I'd probably be happy
So if you want to be with me
With these things there's no telling
we'll just have to wait and see
But I'd rather be working for a pay check
Than waiting to win the lottery

Besides, maybe this time it's different
I mean, I really think you like me


Chapter Five

Why Don't I Miss You? by Bowling For Soup

Remember back at Ryder High
Wishing on stars in the Texas sky
I got your name tattooed
Across my heart how could we lose
Back in black when we were hand in hand
Two young kids like Jack and Diane
Falling at the speed of light
Burning up never felt so right
So why I don't miss you
Tell me what I am supposed to do
After all the shit that we've been through
I can't feel a thing
Maybe I was too high
Maybe I just sobered up too soon
You're still on the dark side of the moon
And always on my mind
So why don't I miss you
So many nights we drove around
King and queen of the whole damn town
Voted most likely to succeed
We were everybody's meant to be
Burned out plans to take over the world
Did I fuck it up, or did we just get bored
Kept losing at the same old game
We had our 15 minutes of fame
We took it all the way
You can't say we didn't try
So why I don't miss you
Tell me what I am supposed to do
After all the shit that we've been through
I can't feel a thing
Maybe I was too high
Maybe I just sobered up too soon
You're still on the dark side of the moon
And always on my mind
So why don't I miss you
Why don't I miss the way you laugh
At everything I say
You mom's apple pie always blew me away
It's funny how I always write the same old song
I wonder if you ever sing along with me
Sing along with me
So why I don't miss you
Tell me what I am supposed to do
After all the shit we've been through
I can't feel a thing
Maybe I was too high
Maybe I sobered up too soon
You're still on the dark side of the moon
And always on my mind
So why don't I miss you


Chapter Six

All Eyes On Me by The Goo Goo Dolls

Daylight burns your sleepy eyes
It's hard to see you dreaming
You hide inside yourself
I wondered what you're thinkin'
And everything you're chasing
It seems to leave you empty
And it won't take long to burn
All eyes on me
Through the nothing that you've learned
All eyes on me
And the things you choose to be
All eyes on me

But your eyes look away
It's so hard to be someone
Strung out from today
And all that you knew slips away

You drown in deeper oceans
Inventing new religions
They smile and stab my back and
I lie and have to laugh

And it won't take long to burn
All eyes on me
Through the nothing that you've learned
All eyes on me
And the things you choose to be
All eyes on me

But your eyes look away
It's so hard to be someone
Strung out from today
And all that you knew slips away

And you hid in your room
And the light burns away
And you move from the truth
It's all so far from you


Chapter Eight

nothing


Chapter Nine

Move Along by The All-American Rejects

Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking
When you fall everyone stands
Another day and you've had your fill of sinking
With the life held in your
Hands are shaking cold
These hands are meant to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
Move along

So a day when you've lost yourself completely
Could be a night when your life ends
Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving
All the pain held in your
Hands are shaking cold
Your hands are mine to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)

When everything is wrong we move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
When everything is wrong, we move along
Along, along, along

When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
x3

(Move along)
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
Right back what is wrong
We move along


Chapter Ten

Mr. Brightside by The Killers

I'm coming out of my cage
And I've been doing just fine
Gotta gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I'm falling asleep
And she's calling a cab
While he's having a smoke
And she's taking a drag
Now they're going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it's all in my head
But she's touching his—chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, let me go

I just can't look its killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it's just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
'Cause I'm Mr Brightside

I'm coming out of my cage
And I've been doing just fine
Gotta gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I'm falling asleep
And she's calling a cab
While he's having a smoke
And she's taking a drag
Now they're going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it's all in my head
But she's touching his—chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, let me go

I just can't look its killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibi
But it's just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
'Cause I'm Mr Brightside

I never...
I never...
I never...


Chapter Eleven

Hey Love by Jason Mraz

Hey love, where you going to?
You're not sleeping anymore, you're just trying to.
Stay love, where you running to?
Awful happens all the time, don't let it kill you.

Easily with me I feel as fast as I can see..
Afraid of the horror stories I fall down on my knees.

Come away, come away
From all these things unheard
If a chosen word has got you cornered
Then it's a lesson learned
Like close the book before it burns you.
Come away, come away
From all these things unseen
At the price you paid I promise you won't believe anything they say
Belief will only disappoint you

Well in case you never noticed the path you never chose has chosen you.
Don't be fraid to face and break it, your secrets...yeah...Don't be afraid to face and break it, your secrets...stay, stay...

hey, hey love where ya goin'? ya goin to...
You're not sleepin' in, you're not sleepin' in, no, not...
Hey love, hey love, hey love, where ya runnin' to?
Awful happens all the time, try not to let it kill you...


Chapter Twelve

Here Without You by 3 Doors Down

A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me

The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me

Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it won't take away my love
And when the last one falls
When it's all said and done
It gets hard but it wont take away my love

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me


Chapter Thirteen

Don't Let it be Love by Bowling for Soup

I was out on the front line, doin' just fine.
Put it all behind me
'til I cam across a letter from an old friend,
Askin' "How you been?"
Stopped me dead in my tracks
And shot me right back there to '02
And it was me and you
What am I supposed to say?
I hope I don't fall head over heals
Cause I know how it's gonna feel.
And I don't think I could live through you again.

CHORUS
So don't don't don't
Let it be love love love
Because it hurts a lot, like it or not.
If it comes down to love or money,
It won't be love love love
It won't be love love love.
And I know I should know better.
Man, I hate this stuff. Don't let it be love.

Let's think in the front line.
I'm on the drop line.
So fill me in, bash me over the head.
Wish I was dead. Time heals everything,
Time heals everything.
At least that's what I've read.
Here we go again. We're head over heals
And I know how it's gonna feel.
When it crashes and it burns
It'll be too much. So

CHORUS

And if I ever hear that song again
I just might kill someone.
Not literally
But the thought has crossed my mind.

So don't don't don't
Let it be love love love
I'm much better with
WHAM! BAM! Thank you Ma'am

CHORUS


Chapter Fifteen

Accidentally In Love by Counting Crows

So she said what's the problem baby
What's the problem I don't know
Well maybe I'm in love love
Think about it every time
I think about it
Can't stop thinking 'bout it

How much longer will it take to cure this
Just to cure it cause I can't ignore it if it's love (love)
Makes me wanna turn around and face me but I don't know nothing 'bout love

Come on, come on
Turn a little faster
Come on, come on
The world will follow after
Come on, come on
Cause everybody's after love

So I said I'm a snowball running
Running down into the spring that's coming all this love
Melting under blue skies
Belting out sunlight
Shimmering love

Well baby I surrender
To the strawberry ice cream
Never ever end of all this love
Well I didn't mean to do it
But there's no escaping your love

These lines of lightning
Mean we're never alone,
Never alone, no, no

Come on, Come on
Move a little closer
Come on, Come on
I want to hear you whisper
Come on, Come on
Settle down inside my love

Come on, come on
Jump a little higher
Come on, come on
If you feel a little lighter
Come on, come on
We were once
Upon a time in love

We're accidentally in love
Accidentally in love

Accidentally

I'm In Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
Accidentally

Come on, come on
Spin a little tighter
Come on, come on
And the world's a little brighter
Come on, come on
Just get yourself inside her

Love ...I'm in love


Chapter Sixteen

Just Friends by The Jonas Brothers

There she goes again
The girl I'm in love with
It's cool we're just friends
We walk the halls at school
We know it's casual
It's cool we're just…

I don't want to lead you on
No
But the truth is I've grown fond
Yeah

Everyone knows it's meant to be
Falling in love, just you and me
'til the end of time
'til I'm on her mind
It'll happen
I've been making lots of plans
Like a picket fence and a rose garden
I just keep on dreaming
But it's cool cause we're just friends

Small talk on IM
Just one word sentences
It's cool we're just friends
If I had my way
We'd talk and talk all day
Yeah

Everyone knows it's meant to be
Falling in love, just you and me
'til the end of time
'til I'm on her mind
It'll happen
I've been making lots of plans
Like a picket fence and a rose garden
I just keep on dreaming
But it's cool cause we're just friends

Thinking about how
We're gonna say our vows
It's cool we're just friends
She walks down the aisle
I see all my friends smile
Cause now we're more than friends

Everyone knows it's meant to be
Falling in love, just you and me
'til the end of time
'til I'm on her mind
It'll happen
We've been making lots of plans
Like a picket fence and a rose garden
I'll just keep on dreaming
Just keep on thinking of when we used to be just friends

La, La, La, La
La, La, La, La
La, La, La, La, La
When we used to be (When we used to be)
La, La, La, La
La, La, La, La (Just friends)
La, La, La, La, La
When we used to be just friends