A.N. hey guys sorry it took so long but you guys were the ones that kept me waiting. I wasn't going to review until I got ten reviews and last night I got my tenth. So I'm working my butt off right now to give you an absolutely fantabulous chapter. I hope that you like this chapter.
Disclaimer: As always I do not own or claim anything Twilight. That right is held by the Queen Stephanie Meyer.
"MOMMA!" I heard the scream the minute that I walked in the door. I wiped the rest of my tears away and smile as my little boy ran into my legs as I closed the door. I scooped him up in my arms and kissed his head. " I misses you momma!" His little voice sounded innocent and pure.
"I missed you too pumpkin. Did you have fun with Uncle Jake?" I asked walking into the living room and finding Jake's eyes glued to the T.V screen. I think it was a football game but I could be wrong. I had never really paid any attention to sports.
"I wanna color." He said his little lip pouting at me. I smiled and kissed his forehead.
"Why Don't you put your pajama's on and then we can set up your coloring book?" I set him down as a great big squeal came from his mouth. He didn't say anything but just rushed into his room to grab his p.j.'s. I smiled at him and walked towards the couch, plopping myself down next to Jacob.
He looked over at me and his attention was instantly drawn to my puffy and red rimmed eyes. "What happened?" He asked puling me towards him and resting my head against his chest.
"He knows about Anthony." I whispered feeling the tears starting again. I chewed on my lip as I wiped the tears away from my eyes. "I left him at the club and took a cab here. Which is why I'm here hours before I'm supposed to be." I said sitting up and hearing the small feet pounding against the floor as Anthony came running up onto my lap.
"I'm ready!" He said his smile widening up at me with his crayons surrounded in his little fist. He hopped down off my lap and tugged on my hand. "Come on momma! Les go!" I stood up and let him lead me into his room. He sat down on the floor and took out the spider man coloring book that I had gotten him for Christmas. "You get dis page!" He shouted at me, ripping a page of spider sitting on top of a building, watching the streets of NYC. I smiled and took the page.
"Ok. You get to color one page and then it's bed time." I said smiling at the miracle before me, wrapping his fist around the red crayon and coloring in spider man's costume. I took one of the crayons and started coloring, my mind wandering off to where Edward was. Wondering if he had finally given up the search for me and just went home. He didn't belong here and I wasn't going to let him come into my life and screw everything up. I wasn't paying attention to how long I was sitting there with the crayon in my hand before I realized that Anthony was pulling the crayon from my hand.
"Was wong momma. You not coloring." He said hoping into my lap and resting his head against my chest.
"I'm sorry honey. Mommy's just thinking about a lot of things right now." I said kissing his forehead. I wrapped my arms around him and stood up. "Well mister I think that it's time for bed for you." I said putting him down in his bed. I smiled to myself as I sat next to his bed. "You wouldn't want to be tired for tomorrow would you?" I asked remembering that tomorrow was my night off and I was planning on doing something together with Anthony.
"Was happen tomorrow mommy?" He asked his little eyes already starting to flutter closed.
"It's a surprise. The faster you go to sleep the faster you get to know what it is." I said kissing his head and telling him good night. I turned on the night light in the corner of the room before turning the over head light off and closing the door behind me. I walked back into the living room to see Jake still staring at the T.V screen. "Jake are you going stay like that all night? What are you watching anyway?" I asked sitting down next to him again.
"It's the football playoff game. My teams is just four away from winning." I cocked an eyebrow and he didn't even look at me when he said that. I just shook my head and walked into the kitchen, making myself a snack before I went to bed. "Hmm…what should I make?" I asked myself as I looked into my cabinet. I was just about to decide when I heard a knock on my door. "It's ten at night who could that be?" I asked myself before walking into the living room to see Jacob already at the door. I could see who it was because Jake was towering over them. "What the fuck are you doing here?" He asked and tried to close the door.
"I need to talk to Bella." I heard Edwards voice say and I felt my body start shaking again. "Please Bella just talk to me." He said his head peeking out from behind Jacob. I nodded my head and pulled Jacob away from the door.
"Just go watch the game Jacob. I'll be fine." I said pushing him into the living room and walking towards the kitchen again, my appetite now completely gone. "What do you want?" I asked leaning my hip against the counter as he sat in one of the chairs around the small table. His eyes were glued to the fridge where pictures of Anthony reigned everywhere. "How did you find me anyway?" I asked my voice hostile and unwelcoming.
"One of your friends told me…um Alice I think her name was? Short little thing with short black hair? It almost took all of my money to make me tell her but she finally did." I huffed and looked away remembering that Alice had been to my home before, several times. I had forgotten that she was coming back to work tonight after she had been sick for a week. "Bella why did you tell me? You knew where I was I never left Forks. You could have told me, I would have done anything to try and help you." His voice was pleading with me.
"I didn't need your help. I've managed on my own for two years now and I'm fine." I said crossing my arms in front of me underneath my bust. "I may be a stripper but that's my problem. I did what I had to, to make sure that Anthony had food to eat and a place to sleep. I didn't need anybody feeling sorry for me so I left." I said licking my lips and hanging my head. I felt a lump in my throat and I tried my best to swallow it.
"Yes you did need my help! I could have at least done something to help you but now you had to be stubborn as usual and do things on your own without even realizing that what you had was half mine!" He shouted at me and my head snapped up, noticing that he was only three feet in front of me.
"Keep your voice down! Anthony is asleep and if you wake him up I swear to you that I will kick you out." I pushed past him and looked in on Anthony finding him sleeping with his little thumb in his mouth. I smiled and closed the door before turning back to Edward. " I think that we are finished here. You know where the door is." I said moving past him towards the cabinet.
"Oh no we are just beginning. That's my son Bella! I had a right to know that he existed. I could have given you everything if you had just come and told me!" I spun around then and smacked his left cheek as hard as I could.
"You didn't want me! If I had known that you would have done something I would have told you but you didn't want me! What would make you want Anthony? I wasn't about to tell you and have you think that I was a whore and have you scream at me that he wasn't yours! I have raised my son to the best of my ability and he's perfect. I won't have you coming into my life and ruining everything that I have worked so hard for." I was panting by then, my tears running down my face without my realizing it.
"Momma?" A little voice that scared me came from behind Edward. I ran towards Anthony and scooped him up in my arms. I held him to my chest and kissed his head. "Wats wong momma? Whos dat?" He asked looking over at Edward and Edward stood there with his mouth hung open.
"Don't worry about him honey. He's nobody." I said moving back towards Anthony's room. "Come sweetie it's alright. Lets just get you back to sleep." I said putting him back under his covers.
"Why you crying momma?" He asked touching my cheeks with his small hands.
"Don't worry about it honey just go back to sleep." I said kissing his head and turning towards the door to find Edward watching me. I pushed him out and closed the door behind me. "I think it's time for you to leave." I said pushing him towards the front door. I turned away from him and felt him catch my wrist in his hand.
"Bella please I'm sorry…I didn't know what I was doing. I was only seventeen Bella. I didn't know that the feelings that I had for you were love. I was an idiot. I know that now. But please Bella. Please don't shut me out of his life. Let me know who he is." He said tucking a strand of hair behind my ear. I bit my lip and hung my head nodding.
"Come by tomorrow at noon. I'm taking Anthony to the park. You can come by then." I said and looked up into his eyes again, the same emerald green eyes that I had fallen in love with.
"Thank you…" His voice sounded like he was promising me something but as I watched him turn and leave I felt the whole in my heart stiching itself back together.
"You didn't have to give into him Bella. You know that." Jacob said standing behind me.
"I didn't give in…I gave up." I said hanging my head and letting the last few tears I had left slip from my eyes.
A.N. Ok that is chapter five I'm hoping that I will get atleast fifteen reviews for this chapter. I'm not going to update until I do. So I'm hoping that everyone liked it and if you will please review I would definitely appreciate it. You guys know that I only update if you guys review. It's my inspiration! Lol J so please review.
~Isabella Black Cullen