A/N: Okay everyone, this is my new story. This is what is going to happen. Each Chapter will start out in the present at the hospital, then it will switch to an important memory in the life of Edward and Bella together. This will continue until there are no longer memories needed cause we arrive to present day. I hope that makes sense, if you have questions.. please ask away.. I am more then happy to answer.

This story was inspired by the song What Sarah Said by Death Cab for Cutie.

As always my amazing Beta Ereeen is helping and will be joined by Birdee this time. So clap clap clap for them.

I do not own the characters, just the idea

Carry On


I stepped into the bright white hallway of Seattle Memorial Hospital. Doctor Willis, and older, balding gentlemen, followed close behind me and closed the door once he was out of the room.

I leaned up against the wall to support my tired, aching body. I couldn't tell you the last time I slept. I lifted my hands to my face and rubbed them vigorously against my cheeks and eyes, trying to wake myself up.

The doctor cleared his throat.

"Mr. Cullen, we've done everything possible. There just isn't anything left to try. She is deteriorating at such a rapid rate, that it is only a matter of time. I'm very sorry." He said looking grave.

My throat felt as though it was closing up. I brought the back of my hand to my mouth feeling as though I may be sick as tears began to burn my eyes.

"H-How much time?" I was barley able to croak out.

He gave a heavy sigh and placed his hand on my shoulder.

"If she has loved ones who aren't here and need time to arrive, I would call them now. There isn't much time left, son." The Doctor answered, trying to give me a comforting squeeze.

My chin started to tremble and the water in my eyes stung until they flowed down my face.

"I'm so very sorry."

I simply nodded, unable to work my voice. He gave my shoulder another squeeze then turned, leaving me to melt-down in private.

My feet gave out from underneath me and I slide down the wall unable to hold myself up. I threaded my fingers into my hair, clenching my fist and pulling. I was hoping the pain would focus there instead of my dying heart.

I couldn't lose her. I could not survive that. Everything was finally perfect when this happened. Our story wasn't over, this couldn't be the end. I thought of all the things she would miss; all the time we had wasted.

This couldn't happen now.

Bella was going to die, and there wasn't a thing I could do to stop it. Her body was laying in a hospital bed, left fragile and thin from the illness ravishing her body. She looked like the mere shell of the girl that I fell in love with. her beautiful brown hair was thinning, her beautiful brown eyes now rested sunken and surrounded by dark shadows, her soft porcelain skin seemed to hang from her frail bones.

I couldn't take this. I couldn't watch my only love die.


It was freshman orientation at the University of Washington. As a returning student and a active member of the Kappa Tau fraternity, it was our job to be some what of a welcoming committee for the incoming students.

We were stationed at the freshman dorms and would be helping the new students find their rooms, then take groups of them out for a tour of the campus and letting them know about life here at UW.

I was standing in front of Walton hall when I spotted my group of friends making their way down the hill towards me.

Emmett, Jasper, and Rosalie were also part of the welcoming committee.

We had all met last year at our freshman orientation.

Jasper and I were roommates and Emmett shared a connecting bathroom with us. He was rooming with a guy named Mike Newton, a little weasel of a guy who thought he was a ladies man and better then everyone.

Jasper was a good-looking guy, tall and somewhat built like a soccer player. He sported a head of shaggy blonde hair. He and I shared a great interest in history and music, so we hit it off right away. He was the perfect roommate; always so considerate of everyone, so calm in almost every situation.

Emmett was nothing like Jasper and I. He was this huge beast of a guy who looked like at any moment, would be capable of a serious bout of 'roid rage. But it wasn't until you got to talk to him and got past his size, that you found him to be nothing more then a huge prankster, a teddy bear so to say. You always knew when Emmett was around. His booming laughter could be heard from miles away.

We had been talked into pledging for a fraternity after a party one night. It wasn't really the type of thing Jasper and I were into, but Emmett begged us to at least rush with him and see what it was all about.

In the end, we were all glad we did. We accepted bids to the Kappa Tau's, and were now brothers for life. It all seemed strangely perfect.

We meet Rosalie, Emmett's human version of a Barbie doll of a girlfriend, during rush week. She too was a freshman and attached herself to our group once she got sight of Emmett. She accepted a bid to our sister sorority, Sigma Alpha Epsilon.

Joining gave us all one thing in common, but after having time to get to know each other, we all bonded over our common interests.

Rose was amazing. she was one of the guys when it came to sports and car talk. She just fit in. We never had to treat her any different because she held her own.

They had finally reached me, and Emmett looked like he was dead on his feet.

"Who ever made the rule that we had to do this move-in and tour thing should be shot." He complained as they came to a stop in front of me. He rested his head on Rose's shoulders.

"Oh shut up, now you know why our guides last year were so eager to get rid of us." Rose said elbowing him in his side, causing him to jump.

"Oh it will be fun! We get all the scared little incoming freshman to play with." Jasper added with a mischievous grin.

"Just think of all the fresh meat." Emmett perked up suddenly, visions of scantily clad freshman running amok in his mind, I'm sure.

That earned him a smack in the head from Rose.

"Well, we have activities planned all this week, you all know that. We have to keep them entertained until classes start." Which was true, but I remembered the activities last year were kind of fun. It gave us the chance to meet new people. The friends I had now wouldn't be in my life if not for the awkwardly forced fun.

"That is true, that should at least be entertaining." Emmett said, rubbing the place Rose had got him.

Just then, the resident advisor for the dorm came and handed us sheets with the names of the kids in our section. The dorm was a four floor building split off into four wings. The wing we were in charge of was the Walton wing.

Emmett and Rose had the kids with the last names A-M, and Jasper and I finished the list of N-Z kids.

Move-in was from eight am until two pm, followed by the tour of campus.

Today was going to be a bitch.

It was getting close to two now and the crowd of newcomers had started to dwindle down.

I was thankful.

I was sitting at the front desk taking a much needed break from running up and down four flights of stairs all day. Jasper was currently showing a pixie- like girl with black hair to her new room. I had laughed as he lead the way for her and her parents. She practically bounced the whole way right next to Jasper, talking his ear off. She wasn't even on our list. He had to find Emmett and Rose to get her room info. The girl had come up to him and merely said she wanted him to show her to her room and Jasper was in such shock at how forward she was, that he just went along with it.

I was now resting my head on my hands, letting out a loud yawn when I heard the most beautiful voice I had ever heard.

"Excuse me, is this where I check in for my room?" The voice sang to me.

My head snapped up and I was met with the most beautiful chocolate eyes I had ever seen. This girl was absolutely stunning. She wore a ratty high school track hoodie and a pair of khaki shorts. Her long brown hair, that almost matched her eyes, was pulled back into a loose ponytail. She had the type of skin that looked like it would be the softest thing in the world to touch, and it was a beautiful porcelain shade.

I don't know how long I sat there taking in ever single one of her beautiful features, or how long my mouth had been hanging open, but she cleared her throat and waved her hand in front of my face trying to get my attention.

"Umm, are you okay? I am at the right place to check in, right?" She asked, her brows knitted together. A slow blush rising on her cheeks.

I swooned.

"Umm, yeah. This is where you check in," I was stammering like a fool in front of her. Get it together, Edward. "Name?" I asked trying to get back on track.

"Isabella Swan, it could be under Bella Swan." She said biting her lower lip.

I did a mini victory dance in my head. I had the S's and I would get to show her to her room. I located her name on the list and saw that she was on the third floor, room three-twenty-four.

"Alright, if you wanna get your parents I will show you to your room and give you your checklist."

"Actually, it's just me. My dad's a cop and there was an emergency this morning, so I am here by myself." She said smiling, but it didn't reach her eyes.

"Oh, well, how are you going to get all your stuff upstairs?" She would be stuck moving the rest of the day. I couldn't let that happen.

"It shouldn't be a problem. Just a few more trips then I had planned." She shrugged casually.

"Nonsense. I'll help you. Is your car out front?"

She nodded shyly.

"Alright, well, let me show you your room and then we can go get your things," I said as I stood up and stretched.

"You really don't have to do that…"

"No problem! It's what I'm here for." I said with a smile.

"Well, thanks…Oh, I don't know your name?"

"Sorry, my name is Edward, Edward Cullen." I extended a hand to her.

I wasn't expecting the shock that ripped through my body when our skin made contact. I could tell she felt it as well. Her eyes were wide and she turned blood red. It wasn't a painful shock, but one that set everything in motion; my purpose in life. I hade found her. She was the one. This was the girl that I would marry one day.

"Sorry, I must have built up some static somewhere." She apologized as she brushed a tendril of hair that had fallen from her pony tail behind her ear.

"Don't worry about it. How about we check out your room?" I found her room key on the hook in the box and grabbed it.


We headed up the stairs past parents bringing down empty boxes of mini fridges and microwave.

We reached the third floor landing and I opened the door for her as she stepped in and waited for me to lead the way.

We moved past the open doors of the girl's floor. New kids were talking to their roommates or people that were across the hall from them, and it brought back a strange familiar feeling of my first year.

We arrived at her door and it was already standing open. Her roommate must already be here. I knocked and called, "Roommate delivery service" and the pixie girl that hand bounced so merrily next to Jasper popped out from the other side of the room.

"Oh goodie!" she squealed clapped her hands together, then ran toward us at top speed. "My roomie is here!"

"Oh no. A hyper one. You can't leave me with her," Bella whispered, grabbing my shirt and pulling herself close to me. The contact sent shivers down my spine.

"Isabella Swan, I'm Alice Brandon! I am so happy to meet you! Oh my God, we are going to be such great friends! I have always wanted a sister! I am an only child and…" Alice Brandon continued to drone on.

"Shit, and she talks in exclamations…" Bella sighed under her breath. I had to suppress a laugh.

"Okay, Alice. Let the girl in her room," Jasper said standing behind her. I gave him a questioning look. Why was he still in here with her? He responded with a, "later" look.

Bella was still attached to me and she looked up and mouthed the words, "Help me!" and I tried to hold back the laughter that was attempting to escape.

"Okay, well, Bella needs help getting things from her car, so we will be back in a few." I said and grabbed hold of Bella's arm and walked back down the hallway.

"That girl is going to be a hand full." Bella laughed.

"I'd say! I won't always be there to protect you though. What are you going to do when you're alone?" I teased and pushed my shoulder against hers playfully.

"Oh god, I don't even want to think about it." She smiled and buried her face into her hands.

We chatted the entire time I helped her move her things. We talked about her major and mine, then things like favorite books and movies. We also discussed where we grew up, and the friends that we left behind.

Before we knew it, everything was upstairs and she was on her way to move her car to the student parking lot. I offered to come with her so I could walk her back to her room.

When that was done and we were standing outside her door, I got this feeling like I didn't want to be apart from her. Not even for a moment.

"Well, thanks so much for helping me today. It was really sweet of you," Bella crooned while looking up from behind her lashes.

My breath caught it my throat. She was so beautiful.

"Would you like to go out with me sometime?" I blurted out suddenly without thinking. I mentally smacked myself. "I'm sorry that was kind of-" but she cut me of with the most wonderful word in the English dictionary.

"Yes-yes!" She smiled as she bit her lower lip again. "I would love to go out with you."

"Really?" I was a little shocked.

"Yes, really." She smiled broadly at me.

"That's great!" I cleared my throat to clear it of the high pitch. "When?" God, Edward, could you look anymore desperate?

"Well, I would guess whenever you were free. I really don't have any plans to do anything. Hold on," She ran back into her room and I did a quick fist pump. Soon, she came back out and handed me a piece of paper with her cell number, email address, and instant messenger name.

"Call me, email me, pm me…anything that is easier for you, I guess. I've pretty much covered all the bases." She said blushing.

"Alright, well, I guess I'll see you for the campus tour." I smiled stupidly as I felt my heart soar. I really wanted to spend more time with her. I hoped she would be in my group.

"Sure, I guess I'll see you downstairs in a few then."

I watched as she gave me a small wave goodbye, then I turned and ran down the hallway.

Once I reached the front desk again, I saw Jasper, Emmett, and Rose chatting.

I plopped into a chair and let out a much needed sigh. I couldn't help but smile.

"What's with you?" Rose asked, raising one of her perfectly manicured eyebrows at me.

"I just met the woman I'm going to marry." I couldn't stop smiling. My face was starting to hurt.

"Who? Alice's roommate?" Jasper asked.

"Who's Alice?" Rose asked, looking at Jasper now.

"Just the last girl I showed to her room."

"Oh, you mean the one that requested that you be the one to show her to her room?"

Jasper grimaced an blushed slightly.

"So apparently freshman move-in day has been very good to both of you." Said Rose, nudging us both in the legs with the tips of her shoes.

"So when do we get to meet the future, Mrs. Cullen?" Emmett asked as he reached over and ruffled my hair. I shot him a glare.

"She is doing the tour, so I'm hoping that she will be in my group so I can talk to her more. But I asked her out, and she said yes." I felt myself grinning again.

"Wow, way to not waste time, Edward." Emmett laughed. "What about you Jazz? Did you already ask your girl out?"

"No, she actually asked me out." Jasper mumbled and ran a hand a cross his chest pretending to scratch it.

"Hah! Wow, that is one girl who knows what she wants, Jasper. You better watch out!" Rose laughed and nudged him again.

We continued to chat a little more as the hour went on. We had a few last minute move-ins, but it was time to start the tours.

We were staying in pairs so that we could handle a larger crowd, and while one explained things around the campus, the other one was there to answer any questions.

Soon the lobby of the dorm was filled with eager students ready to get out and do something now that their parents had said their goodbyes.

I searched the crowd waiting for Bella. Every time I saw a flash of brown hair, I stretched on my toes to see if it was her, only to be let down that it wasn't.

I was just about to get the tour moving, when I glanced over and froze. Mike Newton, a Phi Sig and my old suite mate, was chatting with Bella. She was laughing and joking around with him. I don't know where it came from, but a sudden pang of jealously hit me. I couldn't stomach seeing her flirt with another guy like that, and especially not the vile Mike Newton.

The guy was a pig.

He leaned down and whispered something in her ear and she smiled. My vision went red. I wanted to walk over to them, pick her up, throw her over my shoulder, and yell, "MINE!" But I am pretty sure that she wouldn't have been too pleased with that stunt.

Time came for the tours to officially start and my heart dropped and the jealousy faded into disappointment as I assumed she was going to stick with Mike's group. I motioned to Jasper to take the lead as I trailed to the back of our line to answer any questions. I didn't feel like talking anymore.

We made it out of the doors and started to head up the hill to the actual buildings that held classrooms, when I felt an arm slide through mine. Shocked, I stopped and looked down and met a smiling Bella.

"Hey, Sorry, I almost missed the group. That would have sucked," She laughed.

I tried to smile back at her but my foul mood wasn't helping.

"What's wrong? Are you okay?" She asked, her brows knitted together in concern.

"I'm fine." I answered, still pouting.

She stopped while still attached to my arm, which caused me to stop as well.

"We're going to lose the group, you know," I said, pointing to them as they moved farther away from us.

"Umm, you go here. I'm sure we won't get lost. Now, why don't you tell me the cause of the dramatic mood change since I last saw you? Did something bad happen?"

"No, it's stupid. can we just go?"

"No, please tell me. You look really upset,"

"I'm just upset with myself because I'm overreacting."

"To what, may I ask?"

"You're going to think I'm crazy."


"Because it is crazy for me to be acting like this,"

"Like what?"

"Upset for the reason I am upset." I was growing slightly annoyed. Why did she ask so many questions, it's not like she was a journalism major.

"Edward, I have no idea what you're talking about,"

"I know, it's probably better that way. You'll just think I am a loser if I told you." I kicked at the dirt beneath us and heaved a sigh.

"Edward, I could never think you were a loser."

"Want to bet?"

"Sure." Bella squared her shoulders and forced me to look into her determined eyes.

"I saw you with Mike and it made me jealous. The idea of you talking to him makes me sick. He is disgusting and a creep, and you seemed to like him. I don't even really know you, and I know I have no claim on you and you're free to talk to whoever you want, but I wanted to be the one talking to you and making you smile." I whined like a four year old.

She looked up at me wide-eyed. Great. Any minute now, she was going to freak and think I was going to start stalking her.

She looked as if she was deciding on something. She chewed on the side of her bottom lip, then out of no where she threw herself at me.

I stumbled back, trying to prevent myself from falling over, but it was too late. My ass made contact with the grass next to the sidewalk and Bella, still attached to me, fell on top of me. Before I could ask her why she did that, her lips were on mine.

She had positioned herself so she was straddling my waist. Her lips, oh god her soft lips, moved against mine. Her tongue darted out to trace my bottom lip and I granted her access. She tasted like nothing I had ever experienced before in my life. A mix of honey and mint. She was intoxicating.

I ran my hands up her arms to her neck, where I locked my fingers together so that I could hold her there without letting her go.

She continued to deepen the kiss and, embarrassingly enough in public, I was getting excited.

Soon enough, I heard the booming laughter of someone who could not be mistaken for anyone else.

I froze.

There was a clearing of a throat, and I knew where Emmett and Rose would be. Still holding Bella's head, I took a peak around her to see Emmett biting his bottom lip and turning red from trying not to laugh anymore, and Rose had her hands crossed over her chest and her eyes narrowed. It was the, "I'm trying to be an authority figure" look. I could tell she was holding back a smile.

Behind them was a group of freshman students who were wide-eyed and snickering.

"So, you must be Bella," Emmett said, extending his hand to her. Bella was blood red now as she turned to accept his hand. "I'm Emmett and this is my girlfriend Rose. We're this loser's friends." Emmett laughed and gestured towards me.

"Umm…nice to meet you," Bella went to stand up, but I grabbed her hips to stop her.

"Please wait until they leave. I'm having a little issue here," I whispered. I could almost hear what I meant click in her head and she slapped her hand to her mouth, turning even more red then I thought possible, then let out a chuckle.

"OH!" She whispered back with a sly smile.

Emmett must have caught on to why we didn't get up from the current position once caught and could no longer hold back the laughter.

"Ugh, come on guys! Oart of this tour is not sex education!" Rose called, pulling Emmett next to her as she lead the group of laughing freshman.

Once they were out of sight, I slowly sat up holding her close to me.

"What was that? Don't get me wrong, that was, well, wow. But, why?"

"I couldn't think of any other way to prove to you that Mike definitely holds no interest to me. You're the only one I see." Bella shrugged smiling.

"You don't even know me. Maybe once you see your options…" She placed a finger on my lips, silencing me.

"From the moment I saw you I felt something. You're like no one I have ever been around. I know you felt it too when we touched. It was like finding my other half. I don't need other options, you're the only one I see."

"It's the same for me, but I didn't want to tell you or assume anything because I didn't want to scare you."

"Oh I am scared, but in a good way. It's exciting. I've never felt this before."

"Yeah…" I agreed.

I looked into her dark chocolate eyes and was in utter shock that I could have truly found my soul mate, the one I was to be with for the rest of my life.

I leaned forward this time capturing her lips with mine. She wrapped her arms around my neck and we picked up where we had left off. Once again, little Eddie made an appearance and we thought that it was best to call it a night and not tempt each other too much.

We knew we wouldn't be able to stop once we started.

I walked her back to her room. we stayed there chatting and getting her things set up. Once we were done, we decided to order some pizza and hang out. I didn't have anything to do until tomorrow and although I felt bad about leaving Jasper to fend for himself with the group, he would understand when I talked to him.

Time passed and soon enough both of us had drifted off to sleep, my arms wrapped around her.

I was woken up by a small musical girl's voice saying, "Awww, Jazz, look how adorable they are!"

My eyes fluttered open and I looked at Bella cuddled up to me and smiled lazily. Once I could focus, I looked for the source of the noise and I saw Alice and Jasper standing there.

Alice was clapping her hands together silently and Jasper had a smirk on his face as he shook his head from side to side.

"Sorry I bailed on you man. Something came up," I hoped he wouldn't be angry with me once I explained what happened.

"Hmm, I'm sure it did, Edward." He teased.

"Not that…well…no, I don't mean…never mind, Jasper. I'll talk to you when we get home." Man, I a bumbling mess today.

"Are you coming back to the house with me now?" He asked.

"I guess I should," I said pouting a little. I turned to Bella and lightly gave her shoulders a shake. "Bella, I have to go home. Bella, you want to say goodbye?"

"Hmmm," She moaned as she started to wake up.

"I have to go home now, but I'll be back in the morning. you know for the activities and all."

"Oh," she popped up from her laying position. " Oh, I'm sorry! I kept you here so long,"

"It was my pleasure." I said with a smile and kissed her forehead lightly.

I noticed Alice and Jasper had left the room to give us some privacy.

"Will you call me when you get home to let me know you made it there in one piece? She asked me, looking up from underneath her lashes.

"Of course," I leaned forward placing a chaste kiss on her lips. "I'll see you tomorrow."

She stood and wrapped her arms around me in a hug as we made our way to the door.

I leaned in whispering into her ear, " I miss you already." before giving her a kiss on the cheek and headed out the door.

Jasper was standing with Alice, and once they spotted me, Alice placed a kiss on his cheek and hopped past me into her room.

"What was that about?" I asked, taking in Jasper's goofy smile. I wore the same goofy grin.

"I have a date. She is perfect, Edward. It's like I've been waiting for that girl my whole life."

"I know what you mean," I really knew exactly what he meant, because it was just how I felt about Bella.

On the ride home, we talked about our day, sharing little things about the two amazing girls we had met.

Once I was back to the frat house and I was in my room, I picked up my phone and the paper Bella had given me with all the ways to contact her and dialed her number.

She sounded as if she were trying to go back to sleep after I left.

"I am just calling to tell you know that I made it home in one piece." I smiled, mimicking her words.

"I'm glad you're alright."

"Okay sleepy head, you're about to pass out on the phone. I'll see you tomorrow. Sweet Dreams, Bella."

"Night, Edward." I heard her fumble with the phone to close it.

Tonight I would be having amazing dreams of her.

That day started the most important relationship I would ever have, the relationship with my future wife, my soul mate. That day forward, we were always together and never apart unless classes or duties called for it. It was just too painful to be separated from your other half and that was something neither of us ever wanted to experience.

A/N: So what do you think?? all is well?? yes