Two Kinds of Love
Two Kinds of Love
Chapter 1: Problems
"I'm going to be so late!" Shuichi Shindou yelled, frantically dashing from the NG building. Eiri and he were going out on a date and Shuichi was supposed to be home by 6 and it was already 5:57. 'I just hope Eiri won't get too mad!' He thought, desperately. More than anybody else, Shuichi knew how cold Eiri could be when he was ticked off. He was proud of Eiri because of that too. Shuichi was glad that his lover was always so willing to express how he felt, and he had begun opening up to Shuichi. That was a jump start to relief too.
Shuichi even helped Eiri to talk about his problems to his family members. Finally, he settled matters with them and filled them in on the sore spots that still captivated his heart to his father, sister, and even his younger brother seemed comforting. Eiri was really making up for lost time. Shuichi had even accompanied him there for moral support.
"I've been so stuck to my past." Eiri had admitted to his father, sister, and younger brother. "Holding onto the memories with…him…won't bring him back…" From behind the sliding door of his father's prayed altar, Shuichi slid to the ground feeling defeated somehow. He knew that Eiri still loved Yuki; he just never knew how deep Eiri's love for him was. So he automatically assumed the worse; that Eiri loved Yuki more than him even if the former mentor was now a corpse. Shuichi understood how horrible it would be to be led on the path of betrayal by someone who you thought you could trust with all of your being. Although it wasn't as bad as Eiri's scenario with Kitazawa, Shuichi did have his heart shattered by Eiri's harsh demeanor time and time again. He could relate to how that must've felt to Eiri. What he was going through had to be so difficult. With all of the drugs and tobacco Eiri had added to his system and all the walls he put up on everyone, Shuichi was overwhelmed by the emotions taking control of his body as he heard his lover cry. He felt jealousy and hate towards Kitazawa and worry and immense concern towards Eiri. Silently, he found himself sobbing along with his lover, his knees bound to his chest, and his head buried in his knees.
"It won't change the fact that I killed him. But…why d-did he have to die?!"
Shuichi's shoulders wracked with more sobs.
"Oh, Eiri…" He heard Eiri's father say, worriedly.
Without a doubt, he loved Eiri more than anything. Shuichi just couldn't help but ponder on his main insecurity: Yuki and Eiri.
That was in the back of Shuichi's mind along with other gloomy thoughts right now though. The forefront of his mind was only occupied by pure happiness and aspiration of seeing his lover. With this thoughts so set on returning home to find out where he was being taken for his date, Shuichi wasn't in the very least expecting his idol to ride his way on a bicycle.
"Hey, Shu-chan! Watch out!" Came Ryuichi Sakuma's warning.
Shuichi snapped out of his stupor, quickly hopping out of the way. Unfortunately, he landed on his right foot wrong, drawing a gasp and falling over. Ryuichi noticed this, slamming his foot down on the break. He hopped off the bike, allowing it to fall over onto the ground, and scurried to Shuichi's aid.
"Shu-chan!" He gasped, helping the wincing Shuichi sit up. "I'm so sorry! Your ankle! You must hate me now! WAHH!"
"It's not your fault! I don't hate you! It's ok! I wasn't paying attention!" Shuichi quickly responded to a teary eyed Ryuichi.
"Oh, Shu-chan!" Ryuichi cried with joy, throwing his arms around Shuichi's waist, the sudden action causing Shuichi to blush. "You're so kind! I'll make this up to you!" He pulled away with his arms, his arms still entangled around Shuichi. Ryuichi then pointed to the bicycle where an add on the seat was attached to the back; handing Shuichi Kumagoro from his shirt. "Here! You could ride with Kumagoro in the back seat!"
"Thank you so much, Sakuma-san!" Shuichi beamed, while Ryuichi helped him up onto the seat.
"Where to, Shu-chan?" Ryuichi asked, positioning himself on the front seat.
When Shuichi told him to drop him off at Eiri's condo, Ryuichi grew silent. He obliged to the deed but the air grew tense with each passing second, reminding Shuichi where he stood on Ryuichi's scale. Shuichi was well aware that Ryuichi was in love with him. He didn't know how to cope with Ryuichi on the matter without hurting his feelings so he kept quiet during the ride too.
"He still hurts you, doesn't he?" Ryuichi asked Shuichi upon the arrival of the building. He had gotten off the bike and now his face was directly in front of Shuichi's, a sad frown on his face. With their noses practically touching, Shuichi was completely vulnerable, his head feeling light and his face burning. His mind drew a blank at what to do so he couldn't stop Ryuichi from laying a peck on his lips. "Just so you know, if you date me, I'll never EVER hurt you."
"Um…eh…" Shuichi stumbled. He had no idea how to reply to that without adding insult to injury.
Even without his desired result, Ryuichi smiled warmly and then goofily as he kneeled in front of Shuichi, his back facing Shuichi. "I'll give you a piggy back ride just as long as Kumagoro gets a kiss from you!" Ryuichi bargained.
Shuichi gave a quick peck at Kumagoro's lips and then got on Ryuichi's back, allowing his idol to carry him personally to Eiri's condo.
Seeing Eiri's pissed off face at the door was enough to tell Shuichi that letting Ryuichi carry him here was a big mistake. Shuichi knew of Eiri's insecurity at seeing a worthy rival marvel over him. Anger only covered his face at the moment but under the mask laid a torn Eiri with little hope of pleasing his lover more than Ryuichi Sakuma seemed to. Shuichi decided talking to Eiri about that as a first priority as soon as Ryuichi left.
"What the hell happened?" Eiri asked, growling. His gaze was focused on Shuichi's swollen ankle. With his glasses on, Eiri had a sharp eye.
"Shu-chan got a boo-boo, na no da!" Ryuichi sung, striding past an agitated Eiri. He carefully placed Shuichi on the couch as if he were a precious treasure, and then knelt in front of him, holding Kumagoro to him.
"Who said you could come in, you idiot?" Eiri spat at Ryuichi, who just ignored him.
"Kumagoro and I love Shu-chan very much!" Ryuichi cried, gripping Shuichi's right hand gently. "Kumagoro would love to stay here with Shu-chan until he's better!" He took a hold of Shuichi's other hand and slipped Kumagoro there.
"Really?!" Shuichi asked, excitedly.
Ryuichi nodded, happily.
"Thank you, Sakuma-san!" Shuichi thanked, hugging Kumagoro close. "I'll take very good care of him for you!"
Ryuichi stood up and smiled in that loving way again. "I know you will, Shuichi. I trust you."
"If you don't mind, I'd like for you to leave, Sakuma-san!" Eiri grumbled.
He complied but before he walked past Eiri, he whispered, "The next time you hurt him; I won't hesitate to take him away from you," and left the novelist unperturbed, on the outside at least. On the inside, it just made him all the more anxious.
Shuichi noticed that something was wrong, knowing this had finally gotten to Eiri. "I just twisted my ankle on the way home. Ry…" Shuichi started.
"I know that." Eiri interrupted. "Stupid idiot." He muttered, running a hand through his hair as he walked over to Shuichi.
"I'm sorry, Eiri!" Shuichi apologized, frantically. "That was stupid of me! I wasn't thinking! I…!"
"Shut up." Eiri said, softly, giving Shuichi a gentle, loving kiss. "I wasn't talking about you." He laid a hand on Shuichi's cheek compassionately.
"I meant that Sakuma idiot." Eiri growled, letting out a frustrated groan, sliding his hand off Shuichi's face. "He didn't even bother to wrap your ankle." He strode to the bathroom muttering, "He's such a freaking dunce."
Shuichi still hadn't gotten over the stunned feeling he got when Eiri cared for him. It all seemed too good to be true. The nightmare they had to go through was finally over but it had led into another…
"Brother? Hi, it's Sis!"
"Hey, what's up? You sound shaken up."
"Um…well…it's going to be Mom and Dad's anniversary soon…"
"Oh! No problem! I can take off from work and…!"
"No, that's not it. I-it's worse…"
"Why?! What's wrong?!"
"Dad's coming over…"
That wasn't good, at all. His mother and father had divorced a few moths back because the father didn't 'feel the same way anymore' for his mother. Shuichi's mom, Kikyo, still loved his father, Shunske, so the situation was one-sided. Every time Shunske visited, hell found someway to erupt inside the house whether it was from a bottle of liquor, cocky train of thought, food, and the smallest thing that set Shunske into a tantrum. It affected them all negatively but Kikyo always took most of the damage, mentally so. Shuichi always made it a priority to help his family in any way he could.
"What are you thinking about?" Came Eiri's voice.
Shuichi snapped back to reality, watching Eiri kneel in front of him. His eyes burned with worry.
Shuichi didn't want to trouble Eiri with his family issues since Eiri was still getting over his own so Shuichi went with the latter.
"I'm so sorry, Eiri. I know how much Sakuma-san bothers you." Shuichi apologized, wrapping his arms around Eiri's neck. "I just want you to know that I love you. I love you so much, Eiri. Sakuma-san is just a good friend to me, that's all." He explained, holding Eiri tighter.
"Thank you, Shuichi." Eiri said, hugging him close before sealing their lips with a kiss. Slowly, he pulled away, confidently wrapping Shuichi's foot in an ace bandage.
Author's Note: Here's my first EirixShuichi long story! I hope you like! Please review and let me know what you think so far!!