I didn't try to love her, I honestly didn't. I could never love her in the way I loved Esme, no it would never be

romantic that I was sure of. And yet I didn't love her the way I loved my children either. She's far to wise to ever be

considered a child. I respected her in no way I had ever respected anyone, as a mental equal. My children are all highly

intelligent but none of them have that wisdom that comes with age.

With out Esme I would not be able to exist, she is my core. This girl was something completly diferent. She is

completly different from myself. She is my light that guides me and accompanies me through the dark. She is my best friend.

And after only 10 years of life, she is going to die.