Much as I'd hate to sound like some celebrity making an acceptance speech, there are some people that must be thanked for their general amazingness. You are the ones who made Drabbles for Bella happen--there's no way I could have done it without the amazing support. And here I am-- 2,000 reviews, finally at the end—after 196 chapters. It's been a hell of a journey.
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Thank you all so, so much.
This might just bore you beyond belief, but I've decided to add in my page of quotes and inspiration here, used over the entire series. Feel free to steal from it.
"…and she made a poisoned, poisoned apple. From the outside it was beautiful, white with red cheeks, and anyone who saw it would want it. But anyone who might eat a little piece of it would die."
Brothers Grimm "Little Snow-White
All the 5 senses (you'd get a few chapters out of that)
Books (some of Bella's?)
"When God shuts a door, he opens a window."
"So we'll live,
And pray, and sing, and tell old tales, and laugh
At gilded butterflies."
- "Bubblewrap" - by McFly. Very good break-up song (it works. Believe me!).
- "Even God" - by Charlotte Church. No. Really.
- "Like I Never Loved You At All" - by Take That.
- "Favourite Year" & "Easy Silence" - by Dixie Chicks
- More Shakespeare!
"If you love someone, let them go. If they love you too, they will come
flying back" (Tennyson counter-argument?)
"Do you know one, I ask you, one grief that God [Zeus] will not perfect the two of us while we still live and breathe?"
"There's nothing, no pain - our lives are pain - no private shame, no public disgrace, nothing I haven't seen in your griefs and mine"
- Antigone, by Sophocles
"With one fool's head I came to woo, but now I go away with two." ~ Merchant
"And civil blood makes civil hands unclean" ~ Romeo and Juliet
"Love looks not with the eyes but with the mind." ~ A Midsummer Night's
"All the world's a stage,
And all the men and women merely players." ~As You Like It
"If music be the food of love, play on,
Give me excess of it; that surfeiting,
The appetite may sicken, and so die." ~ Twelfth Night
"He bravely breached his bloody boiling breast." ~(?) Nice alliteration.
"Beauty that is Medusa's head
Which men go armed to seek and sever.
It is most deadly when most dead,
And dead will sting and stare forever" ~ Archibald McLeish, "Beauty" (Rosalie?)
"Murder, though it have no tongue, will speak" ~Shakespeare, "Hamlet"
"To handle stone is to handle the stuff of life and death" ~ Linda Newbury, "Set in Stone"
"For beauty is nothing
But the beginning of terror we can just barely endure,
And we admire it so because it calmly disdains to destroy us."
~ Duino Elegies, "The First Elegy"
You whom I could not save.
Listen to me." ~Czeslaw Milosz, "Dedication"
"For I have sworn thee fair, and thought thee bright,
Who art as black as hell, and dark as night." ~ Shakespeare, "Sonnet CXLVII"
"Better to reign in Hell, than to serve in Heav'n" ~John Milton, "Paradise Lost (Book I)"
"The first stab of love is like a sunset, a blaze of colour—oranges, pearly pinks, vibrant purples…"
~ From the diary of Diana Holland, September 17th, 1899
"I've always believed in savouring the moments. In the end, they are the only things we'll have. I hope that I have imparted this belief to my children, though it is so hard to tell when they are still stubbornly becoming themselves."
~ From the diary of Edward Holland, 1898
"We see our sins reflected everywhere: in the pallor of our intimates' faces, in the scratching of tree branches against windows, in the strange movements of everyday objects. These may be messages from God or tricks of the eye, but in neither case are we permitted to ignore them."
~ Reverend Needlehouse, "Collected Sermons", 1896
"Lord, what fools these mortals be!" ~Shakespeare, "A Midsummer Night's Dream"
"I must be cruel, only to be kind."
Abandoned; Lost; Hardened; Cruel; Cynical.
"Why? Why not? Why not you? Why not now?" –Aslan.
"Because it's too bloody hard, alright?"
"Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all" ~ Alfred Lord Tennyson
Liar, liar pants on fire…
"Things are coming to a head. I don't know how much longer I can keep up the pretenses."
The boy who never grew up.
"Forever is an awfully long time" ~Peter Pan, 2002
"And art thou changed? Pronounce this sentence then:
women my fall when there's no strength in men." ~Shakespeare, Romeo and Juliet
"Nothing like an irritated grizzly bear"
"I may neither choose whom I would, nor refuse whom I dislike" from 'The Merchant Of Venice'
"Why then, you are in love" from 'The Merchant Of Venice'
"And if I lived a thousand years you know
I never could explain
The way I lost my heart to you that day
But if destiny decided I should have looked the other way
Then the world would never know
The greatest story ever told
And have I told you that I love you
Just how much I really need you
Have I told you that I love you tonight?" --Mine and Amy's song xD
"Everybody put up your hands/ Say I don't wanna be in love/ I don't wanna be in love/ Feel the beat now/ If you got nothing left/ Say I don't wanna be in love/ I don't wanna be in love/ Back it up now/ You got a reason to live/ Say I don't wanna be in love/ I don't wanna be in love/ Feelin' good now/ Don't be afraid to get down/ Say I don't wanna be in love/ I don't wanna be in love/ To the beat/ To the beat/ To the beat/ You got nothing to lose/ Don't be afraid to get down/"
~I don't wanna be in love, Good Charlotte
"They days pass by/ I wonder why/ You're not by my side/ I'm here without you/ Sleepless nights/ I try and try/ To figure out why/ I'm here without you/"
~Here without you, push play
"There is no future/ There is no past/ Thank go this moment's not the last./ There's only us/ There's only this/ Forget regret, or life is yours to miss/ No other road/ No other way/ No day but today."
~Finale B, Rent
"Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life"
~How to save a Life, the Fray
On the 21st December 2008, at 19:48, I received a new email from . It was a review for 'Drabbles for Bella'. I opened it with the usual customary glee, though I was a little confused—that day's drabble was posted quite early, and had certainly already gone off of the front page on the Twilight archive. I opened it though, and was shocked, as I read it through. It was an anonymous, simply from 'A friend'. To this day, I couldn't tell you who the writer was, but they helped me so, so much. It was really a massive turning point for me, in the writing of these drabbles. If that person is reading this now, then I'd like to say: Thank you very much indeed. Probably the best review I've ever been sent and I appreciate it hugely. I just wanted to share this with you.
I walk into the living room, where Carlisle and Esme are curled up.
If I were Edward, I would know that they were thinking of a lost daughter. If
I were Edward, I would know that Esme was thinking that it was worse then
having her baby boy die. But I'm not Edward. So I hear only silence.
I walk into the Kitchen. I see Jasper there, staring into the refrigerator.
It is full of tasty snacks that none of us would eat.
If I were Edward, I would know that he was thinking about how our leaving was
his fault. If I were Edward, I would know that he would never forgive himself
for what he did. If I were Edward, I would know that he was thinking of the
one meal that he and the rest of the family had cooked just for Bella that one
day in the summer. But I am not Edward. So I hear only silence.
I walk upstairs, and into Rosalie's room. I see where she is sitting by her
window looking out and into the forest.
If I were Edward, I would know that she was thinking of how terrible she was
to Bella. If I were Edward I would know how strong the guilt was that she
felt. But I'm not Edward. So I hear only silence.
I walk across the hall and into the game room. I see Emmett staring blankly
at the black T.V with the controller hanging uselessly in his hands.
If I were Edward, I would know that he was full of remorse. If I were Edward
I would know that he was thinking of the sister that he didn't get a chance to
know nearly as much as he liked. But I'm not Edward. So I hear only silence.
I walk into my room and into my closet. It is full of my clothes, and clothes
that I had bought for Bella. I look at Bella's future. I see her, huddled down
and crying, gasping for air. I see her true pain, and the true silence and
true darkness that we put her through.
If I were Edward, I could return to her, and tell her that everything is
right. If I were Edward, I would heal her broken heart. But I am not Edward.
So I can do nothing.
I walk into Edward's room. He is laying down on his couch, staring up at the
If I were Jasper, I feel the horrible, emptying pain and suffering that he is
going through. If I were Jasper, I would be able to console him. If I were
Jasper, I would be able to let him feel relief. But I am not Jasper. So I feel
The house is silent. Not a word is spoken. Nothing. I am not Jasper, nor am I
Edward. I am Alice. And Alice, the poor pixie, can do nothing. She would, if
she could. But she promised she wouldn't. She can do nothing for the silent
family in the house, or for the silent girl. Who has no idea we haven't even
left yet. This is the true silence. That nothing I can do will break it.
Hey! This is just a short one-shot that I thought if you were ever had
writers block you could use. Thanks for doing this, it ends the silence for
all Twilight-er's that want to know what exactly happened each day. Thanks!
All that's left to do now is leave, I guess. Thank you. Again. Everyone. Give yourself a round of applause, a standing ovation. Throw some flowers at yourself. You're all incredible.