I decided to continue it. Still my first fan fiction. Takes place during the time of Eclipse before Bella has agreed to marry Edward. It's the period of time before Edward has even suggested getting married. Bella has decided she wants to be changed and has asked Carlisle to do it. The date is set. Edward has not given Bella the option to have him change her, though she has mentioned it. This story is about Edward's point of veiw and an alternate proposal scene.

Edwards POV

I ran through the woods as fast as I could go. Oh why did I have to go hunting? I hated not being able to be with my love. I hated every second I spent away from her. I had just gotten back from my two day hunting trip with my brothers. I had taken off immediately to go see Bella.

I finally reached her house but I didn't break my pace. I jumped up to Bella's window knowing that the neighbors wouldn't be able to see me. I swiftly opened the window and jumped inside landing lightly on my feet. After I closed the window I turned to look at my beloved Bella. She was sitting up in bed looking at me with her dazzling smile. She didn't realize how often she dazzled me. I just stood there taking in all her beauty.

"Hi," she said. Her voice made me melt. Oh how much I had missed her.

"Hi." I said back. I went to her side and took her into my arms. She sighed in content and I lowered us until her head landed softly on the pillow.

"Did you miss me?" She asked.

I rolled my eyes. "Love, I always miss you. Every time you are not in my arms I feel empty. Evey time I cannot feel your warm skin against me I ache." I could see her smile in the dark.

"You could have just said yes." She whispered. It was just like her to be embarrassed. I ran my finger along her rosy cheek.

"If I just said yes, I would be lieing." I responded. She didn't reply. She pushed her body closer to mine. Reaching her head up, she brought her lips to mine. I responded gently, not wanting to cross the boundaries I had made.

"Edward?" She said as she pulled her lips away.

"Yes love?" She ducked her head against my chest. I brought my head down to her head and lightly kissed it.

"What is it?" I whispered. She looked up into my eyes. I returned the gaze. Her beautiful brown eyes looked at my longingly. I brought my lips to hers and she respond letting out a long sigh. I chuckled but I pulled her closer to me. She brought her hands up, combing them through my hair. I began to get lost in the kiss. I had to stay in control. I felt her body tense as I broke from the kiss. I chuckled as she reached for another kiss.

"Sleep love." I said. She shook her head and again reached up to stroke my hair.

"You're pushing my self-control." I said pushing her gently against the bed. She realized that it was merely a statement not a refusal and lifted her lips up to mine. I eagerly kissed back, surprising both of us. I let my hands run through her soft hair. I pulled away and we both gasped for air. I continued kiss along her jaw line before letting out a sigh.

"It's late love." I began to sing her lullaby but she shook her head no.

"Bella please."

"Edward.." She whimpered.

"Bella, I could kill you. Do you not understand that?" I said. My tone came out harsher than I had intended. I quickly grazed my hand along her cheek trying to undo the pain I may have caused her.

"This is not a rejection. You know that I want to too. But if I hurt you..." I trailed off. It was to horrible to imagine.

"But you won't." She said.

"I could though Bella! You are my life. I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I ever hurt you. You are my love, the only thing there is to live for. I will love you for the rest of my existence. I cannot do anything that might...hurt you." I whispered.

She really was my everything. The reason the sun rose and the moon shone. The only reason I could manage to live forever. Before her my life was dark but she came into it shining like the sun. I couldn't, no i wouldn't hurt her. I would do everything in my power to keep her safe.