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You Save Me:
Every now and then, I get a little lost.
I tossed and turned, watching the images dance across my eyes for the thousandth time. No escape, even after I got out, there was no escape. It had been so many years now, yet the memories were fresh in my mind like it had happened yesterday. I tried to make it go away, some nights I actually could. Some nights I would wake up when I told myself this was all a dream and I wasn't there anymore.
Tonight, it wasn't like that. Tonight I was trapped in the one place there was no escape from. Tonight, my mind was my prison.
My strings all get tangled, my wires all get crossed.
I tried not to scream, which was impossible in this situation. Agony nearly blinded me, I couldn't move, I couldn't breathe. The red that surrounded me disappeared for moments at a time when this white hot anguish turned white in front of my eyes. Please, somebody get me the hell out of here.
Every now and then, I'm right up on the edge.
I opened my eyes and sat up, my breath heavy and deep. I glanced down a Lauren, who was asleep beside me. At least I hadn't waked her up, tonight. I shut my eyes and shook my head, trying to get the images out. Sixteen years. Sixteen years and it hadn't even dimmed. God not even a little. Any minute detail, any and every scream of that had happened in that four months, or, forty years or whatever, hadn't faded even a little. I shuddered. Lauren stirred next to me and her eyes slowly opened. She looked at me and sat up, worry in her tired eyes.
"I'm okay," I said instantly, knowing that she wouldn't believe me.
Dangling my toes out over the ledge
"Again?" She asked. I nodded.
"I'm alright." I assured. She touched my face, gently stroking my cheek. She pulled back a second later, a new expression on her face. Damn it, she cheated. Stupid psychic crap. After Caity turned two her powers had changed for the last time. Her levitation, telekinesis and memory giving had disappeared; Kris said it was a temporary thing that was evolving into something else, and it had been since she was three. Now, my Girl was a mind reader, and a damn good one, which was my current predicament.
"Dean, you're shaking." Oh yeah, there was that other give away. "I don't consider that okay." I didn't look at her. I noticed after a minute I was hiding my face from her in the darkness. I couldn't look into those eyes right now, she'd see right through me.
I just thank God you're here
"Dean, it's not your fault," She said gently. I winced. Please, Lauren please don't. "I've been telling you for fifteen years now. There's…I, you, Dean…" She stammered. I swallowed. It still made me do this too. I felt the salt water prick at the corners of my eyes. But, I was an expert at this. Emotions on, emotions off. Clap on, clap off. That simple. When she wasn't looking at me that way. I took a deep, uneven breath. "Baby," She whispered, wrapping her arms around me. I shut my eyes and pressed my face next to hers. God, I needed her so much. If anything ever happened to her, I don't know what I'd do. Suddenly she gasped and pulled away from me, her hand on her chest. "Dean!" She choked.
"Baby, Baby what's wrong?" I asked, frantic. Not a heart attack, please God. She looked at me, a tear sliding down her cheek.
"You," She gasped. "Y-your heart. So much…Gohod." She bowed her head and started to sob. I felt a pained expression work its way onto my face. I was hurting her, and I hadn't touched her. I gathered her into my arms and squeezed, pushing her as close to me as possible. She buried her head in my chest and cried. This wasn't the first time this had happened.
"I'm sorry Lauren." I whispered. She shook her head and lightly kissed my chest.
Cause when I'm a bullet shot out of a gun
I looked up at him, feeling his heart throb again. I was making him feel this way. God, why couldn't I have just kept these stupid tears back? Because I loved him too much, and his pain had overwhelmed me. The tears started to dry as I pushed them back into their native spring. I smiled at him, silently assuring I was alright. I closed my eyes and rested on his warm body, listening to his heart beat. His cheek touched my forehead and I heard his thoughts in my head. Once I heard them, I cringed, then was infuriated.
"Damn it Dean!" I said, pulling away from him. "For once, for once, would you just listen to me? Look, I'm fine, you're the one that…" I couldn't say it. I couldn't say you're the one that needs me right now. I know he did, and he knew that I knew that. So it was really irrelevant. Those green eyes locked into my own, so perfect. He closed his eyes and leaned forward, his flawless features smoothed. My eyes closed too, and I felt those glass like lips touch mine, his warm, chiseled body pressing against me. I ran my hand down his chest, shivering when his lips grazed my neck, kisses butterfly soft.
When I'm a firecracker comin' undone
I loved him so much it hurt. I didn't deserve him. I didn't deserve the insane amount of love he gave me back. Of all the women on the face of the Earth he could have, he picked me. For eighteen years I had wondered why, and I guess I'd have to keep waiting for eighteen more. God he felt good. I felt the hunger in his touch, saw it in his eyes. He still needed me.
When I'm a fugitive ready to run, all wild eyed and crazy
This wasn't something I thought I'd ever get. I never thought me and Sam would stay so close. I never thought I'd have a house of my own. I never thought I'd have a kid. And never, even when I could hope and pray forever that I might be so lucky, I never thought I'd have Lauren. But I did, by some grace of God I had her, and no one could take her away from me. She was mine. And right now I was being selfish.
She saved me from myself so many times I had lost count. And when there was absolutely no light at the end of any tunnel, she'd always tell me it would be okay.
No matter where my reckless soul takes me
Like I said, she saved me.
Baby you save me.
My fingers braided themselves into her hair and held her to me, cradling her face in my hand, tracing her lips with my thumb. She stared back at me in the semi darkness, her soft hand on my neck. I kissed her softly, leaving my face close enough so our lips still grazed each other. Her arms wrapped around my shoulders. I wrapped my arms around her waist and laid down, pulling her with me.
It's hard lovin' a man, that's got a gypsy's soul. I'm not sure how you do it, I'm not sure how you know
I pulled her close to me. Gazing into those sky blue eyes. I brushed her hair out of her face and continued to caress her cheek. She closed her eyes and leaned into my hand, sighing.
We'd been through so much.
That mess on our first date. Then Lindsay. Then I lost my memory. I almost lost her because of that. She almost lost her mind when that psycho Edward kidnapped me and Sam. That was one time I wish I could forget.
I'm not sure how you do it. I'm not sure how you know. The perfect thing to say, to save me from myself.
When Sam and I got turned into babies, man, that was just flat out weird. I thought bein' an adult was hard. Those siren bitches that…Never mind. Telling her I was going to hell. Getting married; putting her through hell when that demon possessed me and put me in the hospital. Being away from her, not knowing where the hell she and Sam were when I was trapped outside while those creeps were trying to get money from Maggie. I still hate the woods because of that. Nutjob people that ran a closed community and sacrificed the residents, who were brainwashed. I was almost the next one too. Then we had our baby.
You're the angel that believes in me, like nobody else. And I thank God you do
Then it was Annie and her whores that almost ate me. Bleh, she was so damn gross. And so effin' crazy. Then I died. I went to Hell and died. So did she for awhile. Angels, demons, the first attempt at an apocalypse, my baby girl saving the planet. Yeah, we'd had a hectic life. And she stayed with me on this crazy ride for this long. Maybe she was crazy too.
Cause when I'm a bullet shot out of a gun. When I'm a firecracker comin undone
I loved it when he stared at me like that. Like I was the best thing he'd ever seen.
"I love you Baby." I whispered. His passion poured from his lips when he kissed me, his grip tightening around me, pulling our bodies flush.
When I'm a fugitive ready to run, all wild eyed and crazy. No matter where my reckless soul takes me, baby you save me.
"I love you too." He breathed. He kissed me again, and it was the most amazing thing I had ever felt in my life. I don't even know how to explain it. This fiery electricity jumped through me and I wanted to be even closer than I was to him, though there was no way it was possible. The desire I felt at that moment was more powerful than an atom bomb, and his was twice that.
I know I don't tell you nearly enough, I couldn't live on day without your love.
I tangled my fingers in his hair, feeling him everywhere. I couldn't get away from him. His touch, his voice, the smell of his skin that only belonged to him. And I didn't want to get away from it.
When I'm a ship tossed around on the waves, up on a highwire that's ready to break.
"Dean," I gasped, unable to think of anything else to say. His lips went down my jaw line and onto my neck, slowly moving to the hollow behind my ear. I felt this buzzing in my head. I felt his heart pound in his chest underneath mine. He bit the lobe of my ear just right and I shivered. I pulled away from him and kissed his chest.
"Huh," He breathed. "Baby." I pushed my lips onto his and trailed my fingers up his body. "Mmm." He moaned.
When I've had just about all I can take baby you, baby you save me
He was on top of me in a second, I felt my head spin when his lips crept down my chest, my stomach, and back up again. His lips crushed to mine, a new ferocity in his touch as he pulled our bodies against each other's again. I jumped and bit back a moan when he bit my neck.
Cause when I'm a bullet shot out of a gun
God, now I know why I lover her so damn much. She knew what I needed, when I needed it. How I needed her to touch me. She was so damn beautiful. She bit my neck and this amazing amount of pleasure jumped through me. I moaned again, unable to stop myself.
When I'm a firecracker comin undone
If I died at this particular second I don't think I'd object to it. I'd die happy. I'd die with her. My life wasn't perfect, of course it wasn't no one's is, but it was so damn close. I loved her, so, so, so much.
My train of thought was interrupted when she kissed me with her perfect lips.
When I'm a fugitive ready to run, all wild eyes and crazy
Right now everything was fine. Tomorrow, well you never know. So much could happen in five minutes already, but hey, who cares about the future. Right here was what's important.
No matter where my reckless soul takes me
We had forever. I had forever to be with her. I wish I could have found her earlier in this life. Everyday went by so fast…But tonight, like I said, was important right now. I kissed her and let all the love I had gush out in that one kiss.
And now, before things get too good, I say goodnight to you.
I have to get back to my happily ever after.
--There ya go guys the end of my series. Lauren and Maggie had a good run right? I want to thank all of you that has followed this series from the beginning and loved it as much as I have. So send me feedback and tell me how you liked the last chapter of the last fic! I would love to know!! God bless you all and I'll c u around. I've already got another fic lined up called "What's In The Box". Hopefully I'll see you there! Bye!!