Where Your Shadow Falls

Where Your Shadow Falls

By: Natilie Sawada

A RIN-HARU FAN-FIC

PART ONE:

Darkness, My Old Friend

OPENING NOTES- Part One:

Hello everyone. Welcome to my new Rin-Haru fan-fic. That was a poem and a song that I though fit perfectly with the first half my story (except for the fact that "Hate Me" is from a guy's point of view (they're supposed to both be from Rin's)). I would like to thank all the sources I got quotes and chapter titles from. I don't own any of them, I'm just borrowing them for my story, so please don't sue me u. Anyway. I hope you enjoy this. I have no clue how long the first part (or all of it, for that matter) will be, but who cares? Also, I am very, very prone to spelling mistakes, so please bear with me u

Well, I'll see you guys later! Enjoy!

Poem: AND I STILL TELL MYSELF I LOVE YOU

By: Natilie Sawada (me )

Song: HATE ME

By: Blue October

"I can't remember the last time I saw your face

Or felt your arms around me in a warm embrace

I know I was the one who pushed you away

But I did it for a reason, okay?

We had something special, you and me

But aren't some things not meant to be?

I did it to protect you, or at least that's what I say

I just didn't ever think that I would end this way

I know I really hurt you, but please don't cry

You know I really love you deep down inside

I love you, but that's no excuse for the hell I put you through

And at the end of the day I still tell myself I love you

It's the whole entire world that hates me and wants me dead

And then I turn around and end up hurting you instead

Then when I need you most, you're always coming back

Whether to catch me when I'm falling, or just to pick up the slack

When I would fall asleep at night, I always knew you'd be there the next day

And whenever you would kiss me, you never failed to take my breath away

You know the reason we can't stay together, even now

And yet with each passing day, I want to see you more, somehow

I keep replaying it in my head, my words in such an icy tone

But I'm scared to wake up, in the middle of the night, and discover I'm alone

I hurt you, desert you, and still I wonder why

You say when I'm around; you don't need wings to fly

But I'm scared to death that I'm going to end up dying all alone

And the truth is; all I want is:

Just for you to come back home"

-And I Tell Myself I Love You By: Natilie Sawada

I have to block out thoughts of you so I don't lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I'm alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again?
And will you never say you that love me just to put in my face?
And will you never try to reach me? It is I that wanted space

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you

I'm sober now for three whole months;

It's one accomplishment that you helped me with

The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won't touch again
And in a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I'll drive so fing far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you

And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street or every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man until I saw your blue eyes bright

And I held your face in my hand and then fell down yelling:

"Make it go away!"
Just make a smile come back and shine just like is used to be
And then she whispered "How can you do this to me?"

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you

-Hate Me By: Blue October