This is the alternative epilogue!
December thirty first
I hovered over my beautiful wife's body, completely nude. It was not the first time we had been nude together, or even in this position, but never had we actually intended to do... this. Sexual intercourse. Sex. We were going to have sex, finally. Finally.
I was elated and terrified at the same time.
I loved being able to give her pleasure with my mouth, hands, tongue, and well, with anything else I could. And, I loved the amazing things she did to me, but I still wasn't sure about this. I was so much stronger than her. I could crush her so easily. She was a piece of glass and I felt like I was a hammer about to break her to bits. Fear coursed through me once more.
I had been so deep in thought that I forgot where I was until I heard a soft giggle and felt her fingers trailing through my hair. "Edward..." Bella said in a teasing voice. "Are you okay?"
"I'm fine, just nervous." I said, softly kissing her lips.
Bella sighed heavily, rolling her eyes at my words. We had gone over this before, many times, and she knew where I stood on the matter. I didn't see why we have to push when we could do other things that we both could equally enjoy until I knew I could not hurt her. Bella thought I was being silly. Maybe she was right, maybe not. I just felt like I couldn't take the chance.
"Edward, you won't hurt me." She repeated like so many times before. "I trust you."
"You say that..."
She sighed again, "I say it because it's true. Edward, I want to feel you. I want us to be man and wife, completely. I am completely healed and we are married. There should be nothing stopping you."
"Yes, there should be. The fact that I am a-" I began but she cut me off before I could finish the sentence.
"Say monster." She said in a flat, almost angry tone. "I dare you to."
It was my turn to sigh softly. "Fine, but that doesn't change the fact that I can and most likely will hurt you."
Bella did something then that surprised me. She pushed on my shoulder, signaling that she wanted me to sit up. I did so, relieved that she was finally listening to some kind of reason. I sat back against the hotel's headboard, my hands on either side of me as I laid my head back against the wood and taking in a deep breath. Instead of sitting beside me though, she straddled my waist. Placing both of her hands on my shoulders, Bella settled herself on my lap. "I want to make love to you." She stated simply.
"I want that too, I just-"
She shut me up with a kiss, tilting my face forward with both hands on my cheeks. Bella almost always knew the best ways to make me quiet. I groaned against her mouth, my hands going to her slender and bare waist. It was so soft and warm against the palms of my hands that it was torture. She moved her pouty lips to my ear, her hands running up and down my chest sensually. "Edward, I've been thinking about this night for months. I keep imagining the way you're going to feel inside of me, how amazing it's going to feel. I want to be yours completely. Make me yours. Please, Edward. I need you."
"Dammit," I sighed to myself, grabbing her by the waist and flipping her over onto her back. I knew there was no way I could not give into her now. I had to. I needed to. I wanted to, honestly. Instantly, I was on top of her and in between her legs. I pressed my hardened arousal at her warm and wet entrance, showing her what she did to me with her words. "I can't hurt you. I'll die if I do." I warned her quietly, looking deeply into her large brown eyes.
"You won't. Please," she whimpered softly, her eyes half lidded as she lifted up to kiss me softly on the lips. I pressed my lips against hers, enjoying the hot silk against me. "Please," she said against my lips again.
She was begging me for this. I wanted it just as badly. I wanted her more than anything in this world. So, I did the only thing I could at that moment. The thing I knew I would do in the end.
I gave in.
January thirty first
I had Liz almost all to myself today. It was a rare thing. The rest of the family was out in some way and Bella and Alice had decided to go shopping, surprisingly at Bella's suggestion. I thought it was a little odd, but I didn't say anything about that. I didn't think it was a good idea though that she was going out when she was sick, but Bella insisted that she was fine, so after a few minutes of arguing, I let her be. She was going to get her way anyway, I knew that in the end. It always seemed to be that way.
So, I sat on the floor of Elizabeth's bedroom on the rug and helped her sit up by holding her hands gently. She had discovered funny faces and was practically on the verge of laughter. She had started to smile and gurgle, and every once in a while a squeal would come out, but it wasn't that little laugh yet. I wanted to hear it so badly. I wanted to be the one to make my daughter laugh for the first time.
"Who's my beautiful baby girl?" I cooed at her, making my cheeks puff out, making a sputtering noise afterwards. She smiled widely. I wish I could see what she was thinking, but just like her mother, her thoughts were blocked from me. She'd be thankful for that when she was a teenager. I made the noise again and her smile grew more. "Lizzy is my pretty girl." I said in a baby tone, leaning down to scatter light kisses over her hot little chubby face. Liz gurgled, her head lulling back. She was generally good at keeping her head up, but sometimes her neck control wasn't the greatest. Especially when she was tired.
We played for a few more minutes before she began to yawn, one right after the other. I could tell it was getting closer to her bedtime so I laid her down on the soft mattress, pulling the blanket over her. I stood over her a few minutes, smiling as I stroked her hair as she fell into a deep sleep. She was just like her mother, such a hard sleeper.
I don't know how long I had been gazing down at my child when I heard Bella come inside. Alice, for some reason, was not with her. Bella's heart was frantic as she came up the stairs, sounding as if she was taking them two at a time. I came down to meet her in the middle, going as fast as I can. I surprised her, and she gasped, placing a hand over her heart.
"What's the matter, love?" I asked, placing my hands on her face. She looked so flustered.
Bella shook her head before clearing her throat. "Nothing is the matter."
"Where's Alice?" I asked, not believing her. "What did she-"
"She wanted to give us some privacy." Bella took a deep breath before biting her bottom lip. "Edward, can we go to the bedroom? I need to talk to you."
I scooped her up instantly and took her towards her room. Surprisingly, she didn't argue, wrapping her arms tightly around my neck. "What's wrong?" I asked softly as I sat her down on the leather couch. I sat on the floor in front of her, placing my hands on her knees as I gazed up at her imploringly.
Bella licked her lips slowly. I could tell she was thinking out each word carefully before she spoke them. "Edward, I'm late."
"What do you mean late?" I said, stupidly looking at the clock. Bella placed her hand on my cheek, making me look at her again.
"No. I'm late and I went with Alice this afternoon to get a pregnancy test."
"A pregnancy test?" I said the words slowly, confused.
"Yes," she said, her hand still on my cheek. "Edward, I'm pregnant."
Not five seconds after the words left her mouth the tiny cry of Elizabeth began to ring in my ears, echoing through the monitor we kept in our room for Bella's sake. I couldn't move, I couldn't breath, I couldn't think. The words filtered slowly.
Pregnant? How? That was not possible. Not at all possible.
My eyes went out of focus as my mind put all the attention on that single word. Pregnant.
It could have been seconds, it could have been hours. I had no idea. But, after a while I felt warmth against me, forcing me back. The crying had stopped I noticed. Bella probably went to sooth Elizabeth back to sleep before coming to me again. "That's not-"
"I took five tests, Edward. They're all positive." She whispered. "Alice is going to get Carlisle at the hospital so he can double check."
I touched her stomach, feeling the tale-tell hardness underneath my fingertips. My hand instantly fell to my side and my eyes went out of focus again, my mind going completely blank.
This was never even a consideration. I didn't even know it was a possibility. If I had, I would have- Honestly, I don't know what I would have done. I wasn't sure what I thought about this.
I felt the heat against my face this time. I realized slowly that it was one of Bella's hand and her lips against my cheeks. Her soft lips were pulled up into a smile. "Edward, I'm going to have your baby!"
So, which epilogue is more of a tease, this one or the original? I know I know, I hear screaming for a sequel all around. All I will say is we'll see. BUT I do suggest that you put me on author alerts because I have a ton more stories coming soon!
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