Title: Crazy Like a Fox

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Series: Private Practice

Rating: PG-13

Code: A/P

Part: 1/1 NEW

Date: December 2008

Summary: Pete reflects on his feelings for a double board certified neonatal surgeon.

Disclaimer: CBS, etc., owns all the Private Practice characters, etc., I am just using the characters for a little fun and relaxation.

Crazy Like a Fox

If I have to hear Addie say 'I'm a double board certified blah blah blah' one more time, I'll just scream.

Ok, maybe not scream, that's something a woman would do, but at least … I don't know…kiss her senseless?

Wait, I've already done that, I'll have to think of something else -- something that will drive her bonkers.

I didn't plan this. I really didn't.

Ok, there was that first time I kissed her – I did plan that. Don't know who was more surprised by her reaction, her or me.

Don't even know if she realized how she shook me up then. I didn't plan on her to get under my skin. I thought at the time I covered myself pretty well, but then again I've had a lot of practice doing that since Anna died.

I made a vow to myself, even before that fateful morning when I woke to find Anna beside me and knowing that my wife would never wake again. I swore I would never let anyone else breach my walls again -- that no one else would ever see the real me. Never know what makes me tick, and most certainly never find out what makes me break.

Anna was a pro at that, she knew what words to twist, what buttons to push to not only get what she wanted but also to get the necessary reaction out of me. How can someone love and hate someone at the same time? But God help me I did. As the years went on the affection became less and the abhorrence increased until it was the only thing left, until our marriage was nothing but a sham. I swore back then I'd never allow myself to feel anything more than lust for another woman, never let them into my inner sanctum, to push them away if they got too close and expected more than I could give.

But damn, damn, damn I've found someone new and she's -- she's 'a double board certified neonatal surgeon.'

And I'm a naturopathic doctor and double licensed herbalist, in the United States and China (you try taking tests in Chinese!). Hmmm, someday I'm going to ask her if she'd like to jump up on my acupuncture table to have hot steamy sex – in Chinese no less! Maybe that would drive her crazy!

fin.