Disclaimer: I do not own any of these characters, just the events. This is rated M for adult situations and language,
"Not now, Alice," Bella warned as she walked into the large apartment she now called home
"Not now, Alice," Bella warned as she walked into the large apartment she now called home. Alice was sitting on the couch in the living room watching TV. She gave Bella a skeptical look as she saw her walk in the door.
"I didn't say a word," Alice raised her hands in defense. Bella walked upstairs and into her bedroom to take a shower and figure out what she was going to do. She walked into the bathroom and started the bath water. She undressed looking at herself in the mirror. She examined her face in the mirror. Her face looked thin and tired. Her eyes puffy and red. She hadn't slept that much in four weeks. And, she knew the reason. He was next to her. His arms were around her. She missed waking up to see his unruly hair and those emerald eyes that she thought could see into her soul. She missed him. She wanted him. She needed him.
"Is he worth it?" Bella thought to herself. She turned around and entered the shower. She let the hot water rain down on her. She wanted to trust him. She wanted to act like nothing ever happened. She wanted to spend the rest of her life with him. But, was risking her heart worth having all of those things? She didn't know.
"I can't believe this is finally happening!" Bella chimed as she stood in front of the mirror as her mom, Alice, and Rosalie pulled the wedding dress down over Bella's head.
"Edward is such a lucky guy," Rosalie smiled. Rosalie was Edward and Alice's sister-in-law, and soon to be Bella's sister-in-law as well. "Bella, you look gorgeous!"
"You think he'll like it?" Bella asked admiring the beautiful figure looking back at her. She was wearing a white crinkle chiffon A-line gown with a beaded embroidered empire waist with a sweep train.
"Bella, he won't know what hit him," Bella's mother, Renee, said smiling. Bella smiled back. She had been waiting for this day since she was five years old. She had always been skeptical about marriage, seeing as how her parents were no longer married and her mother jumped from one relationship to another. But, it was different with her and Edward. She knew he was the one the moment she saw him.
"Hello?" Alice said answering her cellphone. "Wait! Where are you? Don't move, I'll be right there." Alice had a calm smile on her face, but Bella knew something was wrong. She could see it in Alice's eyes.
"Alice, what's wrong?" Bella asked hoping Edward was alright.
"Nothing, I've got to take care of something, I'll be right back. I promise," Alice hurried leaving the room quickly before an explanation was required.
"What the hell are you doing?" Alice yelled as she came upon a silver Volvo.
"I can't do this," Edward said running his hand through his hair. He was sitting in the driver's seat of his car. He was panicking and he didn't know what to do. Bella would know what to do, know how to calm him down. But, he knew that if he told her he was freaking out she would start freaking out, and she didn't need to be.
"Are you kidding me? She's in there, grinning from ear to ear, ready to spend the rest of her life with you, and you're out here about to drive away from her!" Alice growled. "Do you understand what you are saying? What will happen if you follow through with this?" Alice sat there for a moment hoping that what she had just said sunk in. Then she realized what this was all about. "You do realize that you're doing the same thing…?"
"Alice, don't you dare," Edward warned. Edward had blocked the memory from his mind. After he met Bella he had forgotten about it completely. He didn't think he would be able to breathe again, but when he saw Bella for the first time he felt alive. It was like he had been reborn.
"Edward, do you remember how she made you feel? Do you remember how horrible you felt?" Alice remembered. It took him a year and a half to smile again and get that sparkle back in his eyes. "Do you want to put Bella through that?"
"Alice, she doesn't know what happened. I haven't been honest with her. When I forgot about it, I promised myself I would never bring it up ever again. I've been lying to her this whole time, and if I tell her now she would leave me anyway," Edward said looking straight ahead.
"Edward, what Jessica did to you was not your fault. Bella would understand if you just tell her. She loves you Edward, and it happened six and a half years ago!" Alice reminded him.
"Alice, I just can't do this. I can't start a life with Bella knowing I've been lying to her for five years." Edward said putting his car into drive. "Tell her I'm sorry and that I love her." And with that he drove away.
Alice wanted to run away. She didn't want to have to go back inside and tell her best friend that he brother wasn't coming. That the man of her dreams left her on her wedding day. She didn't want to be the person to tell her. But, as her best friend, as her maid of honor, as Edward's sister, she knew she had to.
"Alice, what's wrong? Is Edward OK?" Bella asked. Alice felt like she had a knife in her hand and was about to plunge it into Bella's heart.
"He left," Alice whimpered not able to make eye contact with anyone in the room.
"What do you mean he left? He's coming back right?" Bella questioned. Edward wouldn't stand her up. He would leave her on their wedding day. He told her he would always be there for her. Alice couldn't bring herself to say anymore, so she just shook her head.
Bella stood there as her hands started to shake. Alice's words plunged into her heart like a knife. "Get me out of this," Bella whispered. "Get me out of this dress!" she yelled shaking. She was gasping for air as the dress suffocated her. Rosalie and Renee quickly unzipped the back, pulled down the straps, and pushed it down to the floor as fast as they could. Leaving Bella in only her white strapless bra and panties. She didn't know rather she should cry or laugh, or freak out. So she just stood there in a trance unable to hear anything. Renee wrapped her arms around her daughter's shaking body to comfort her. No one said a word, because no one knew what to say.
"Alice, take her to your place. I'll take care of things here," Renee said as she handed Alice the sweats Bella wore to the church. Alice nodded as Renee walked out the door. Alice dressed Bella, whose eyes were glazed over.
"I'll go get your car," Rosalie said finding Alice's car keys and rushing out the door.
"Bella, I did everything I could," Alice finally said. Bella didn't hear her. The only words she heard were, "He left".
"Bella, are you alright?" Alice asked as Bella finally came back downstairs.
"I don't know," Bella sighed crawling onto the couch laying her head on Alice's lap. Alice ran her hands through Bella's hair as they watched TV.
"I think I did something bad," Alice confessed. Bella looked up at her confused. Just then there was a knock on the door. "I'm sorry." Bella got up slowly knowing what Alice had done and went to open the door. Edward stood there in jeans, a white t-shirt, and brown flip-flops. His hair flailing in every direction, Bella was in excruciating pain trying to keep herself from pulling him into the apartment and making love to him right there on the living room floor.
"I've got some errands to run," Alice said getting up quickly grabbing her purse and heading out the door before Bella could say anything.
"Bella, please talk to me," Edward begged. Bella folded her arms around her body not sure how she was going to handle this. A part of her wanted to kick him in the nuts and tell him to never leave her ever again. The other part wanted to jump into his arms and wrap her legs around him and never let go. "Do you not love me anymore?" Bella didn't answer. She was trying to get the thoughts of last night out of her head so she could think clearly.
"Bella, please answer me!" Edward begged as he kneeled down wrapping his arms around her thighs. He pressed his cheek against her left quad. "Do you not love me anymore?" Edward had called his sister, Alice, to make sure that Bella would be there. He hated to put Alice in such a horrible position. Trying to mend the broken heart of her best friend, but also having to deal with an asshat of a brother whose heart was also broken, even if it was of his own accord. A single tear rolled down Bella's cheek.
"Do you honestly believe that I don't love you anymore?" Bella asked frustrated with the way Edward was acting. And frustrated with herself at the thoughts that were filling her head. She looked down at him.
"Well, how can I not? You won't talk to me. You barely look at me. You push me away every time I try to get close to you," Edward said anger building up inside him. He has never been angry with her, but she was being irrational.
"Well you're touching me now!" Bella rattled off.
"You know what I mean," Edward sighed as he stood up now that he had her talking.
"What do you want from me, Edward?" Bella cried. The last time they had seen each other they let their emotions take over and made love like it was the first time. It was all Bella thought about since she got home. But, she wasn't sure if she would be able to give Edward another chance. He would have to regain her trust.
"I want you to tell me the truth! Do you still love me?" Bella could hear the pain and agony in Edward voice. She couldn't hold back the tears any longer.
"I haven't stopped thinking about you once in the last four weeks! I wear your black AC/DC shirt to bed every night because it still smells like you! That picture of you giving me a piggy-back ride two years ago is in the drawer of my night stand and I look at it every night before I lay down! I cry myself to sleep hoping that this has all been a dream! I yearn for your touch, your lips, your body against mine!" Bella cried collapsing to the floor. "How could you think that I don't love you anymore? I don't think I'll ever stop loving you." She covered her face with her shaking hands.
"Bella," Edward's heart sank as he ran to her limp body, scooping it up in his arms.
"How could you do that to me?" Bella cried against his chest finding it hard to breathe.
"Bella, take a deep breath," Edward said calmly stroking her hair. Bella took a couple deep breaths and soon started to calm down. "I'm sorry, I just needed to hear you say it. I've been so lost without, Bella. I can't eat, I can't sleep. This is the first time I've left the house in four weeks."
"Now you know how I feel," Bella whimpered. Edward kissed the top of hear head still stroking her hair. "Edward, I've always loved you. I will always love you," she finally answered. "How do I know the next time you get scared you won't turn and run out on me again? How do I know that if I tell you our family is going to get one person bigger you won't leave the state in horror? How do I…" Bella was silenced by Edward's lips on hers. There was nothing he could say that would assure her that he was NEVER going to leave her again, so he thought that he might be able to show her.
"No!" Bella said pushing him away from her tears still streaming down her face. "You can't just kiss me and make this all go away." Edward understood that. He knew that it would take more than that to prove to her that she was all he'd ever need. If it was space or time that she needed he would give that to her. But, he knew that he could not live without her. The past four weeks had been unbearable for him and he knew that they were even more unbearable for her. It killed him to see her in pain and to know that he was the reason for the pain. But, he still needed to tell her the truth. She needed to know everything, the reason why he left her.
"I'm sorry. I know that it won't fix things. I just need you to know that I will do anything to make you trust me again," Edward said holding her hands in his. "I don't ever mean to hurt you intentionally. You're my best friend, Bella. And I love you with every inch of my being." Edward paused for a moment to gather his thought. He looked down at their hands as he traced circles with his thumb on the back of her hand. "These hands were meant to hold your hands," He said tightening his grip. "These lips…" He paused and placed a soft kiss against her lips. "Were meant to kiss your lips." He then dropped her hands from his and wrapped his strong arms around her small frame. "These arms were meant to wrap around your body." He felt Bella's body relax against his own. He placed one finger underneath her chin to bring her eyes up to his. "This heart…" he said taking her hand and placing it on his chest where his heart was beating. "This heart, beats for only you.
A/N: Thanks for the feedback on Last Goodbye. I really appreciated it! I love hearing what you guys think. I've decided to make the sequel into a longer story as requested. So, please keep the feedback coming, it really helps me with my motivation on the story!!
Also, Bella's wedding dress is in my profile.