Jake pressed his warm cheek against the top of my hair.
If I turned my face to the side---if I pressed my lips against his bare shoulder . . . I knew without any doubt what would follow. It would be very easy. There would be no need for explanations tonight.
But could I do it? Could I betray my absent heart to save my pathetic life?
Butterflies assaulted my stomach as I thought about turning my head.
I thought about Jake, and how much I needed him. I knew if… he was still here, he would want me to be happy.
So, slowly, I turned my head into his chest, pressing my lips into his shoulder.
I kissed his shoulder for a second, before pulling back. I looked into his dark eyes, which were filled with pure shock and happiness. He slowly dropped his head, where his lips were only inches from mine, "Bella?"
I leaned my head up, pressing my lips against his, he kissed me back, soft at first, but more passionate after a second.
Jacob stopped me, "Wait, we can't do this here. Can we go inside?"
I nodded, "Charlie wont be home for awhile, we can go to my room."
Jacob picked me up and carried me into the house and into my room, he shut my door and layed me on my bed. He kissed down my neck to the top of my shirt; he slowly lifted the bottom, waiting for my permission to continue. I smiled down at him, nodding my head. He smiled back and lifted my shirt all the way off. He kissed down my bra to the top of my pants, and back up.
Jake looked into my eyes, "Umm Bella… what am I… I mean I don't know what… to do…"
I smiled softly down at him, he was a virgin too, and he didn't know what he was supposed to do next.
"Do whatever you want. Just go with your instincts."
bit his lip, "Okay…"
I kissed him softly, "Jacob relax," I guided his hand to my breast, "Touch me wherever you want, I'm yours." I was surprised by my own confidence, I didn't know what to do either.
He pressed his hand over my breast, squeezing lightly. I moaned. He smiled and moved his mouth down to suck on my other breast through my bra. I moaned again, "Jake…"
I rubbed my hands down his chest, stopping when I reached the top of his sweatpants. He shook his head, and muttered "You first…"
He unbuttoned my jeans and slid them off my legs; then he threw them on the floor. He kissed at the top of my underwear, and then slid his big warm hand across my um… sensitive area, causing me to blush a dark scarlet red.
He rubbed his fingers across my aching core, I was already so wet. He seemed to like that he made me that way. I moaned, "Please Jacob, do something, anything."
He chuckled and slid my underwear down; throwing them on the floor as well. Jacob moved his hand near my wetness but he looked up at me again, "Bella, where am I… exactly?"
I smiled at him and put the tips of his fingers against my opening.
"Right there baby." And he slid one finger into me causing me to moan and thrust my hips into his hand. He laughed and slid another finger in me, stopping at two. I whimpered when he took his hand away, causing him to smile.
"Did I do it right?" He asked nervously.
I groaned, "Up until you took your hand away, you were doing perfect!"
He blushed and I put my hands on the top of his sweats, and slowly pulled them down. While I did that he unbuckled my bra, and put it with my other clothes. He sucked on my nipples, causing me to stop pulling down on his pants and groan.
I tried again, tugging on his pants. Finally, he helped me to get them off. They joined the pile of clothes on the floor.
I blushed when I saw him; he was pretty big. I hoped he would fit.
I slowly reached my hand down and started massaging his shaft. He groaned. I ran my fingers over his already wet tip, causing him to shudder. "Oh Bella…" He moaned. I wanted him in me, not just wanted, but needed.
"Oh no…" Jacob groaned.
"What?" I asked, confused.
He closed his eyes, "Condoms… I didn't think… I didn't plan… Charlie would kill me if you got pregnant."
"It's okay… I take birth control pills. Renee made me start 2 years ago. I never thought I'd have to worry about it, but now I'm glad she got me some."
Jake sighed, "Okay good." I kissed him, swallowing off any other words he might have said.
I guided him to my entrance and smiled. His tip grazed my wetness, causing me to whimper. "Please Jake…"
"Bella I don't want to hurt you… it's going to hurt and I don't want you in pain…"
I rolled my eyes, "It'll be worth it, just go slow."
Jacob bit his lip but slowly thrust into me, it didn't hurt too much, but it was a good pain. We both moaned in pleasure. He kept a good pace, thrusting against me.
Before I could climax, I put me hands on his hips to still him. "Can we change positions, I wanna be on top." I blushed, a dark crimson red.
"Please do." Jacob smiled, flipping us over so that I was straddling his waist.
I slowly lowered myself onto him, and then pulled back out. I repeated the motion until I felt my climax growing dangerously close. I guess Jacob's was too, because he switched positions and thrust into me a few more times.
"Oh Bella." Jake moaned.
Just before he reached his climax, I pulled away from him. He groaned, "Bella… not funny…"
I laughed and let him thrust into me a few more times before he came into me; I reached my own climax at the same time.
Jacob collapsed next to me, both of us panting. He pulled out as he softened.
"Wow that was…" He began.
"Amazing." I finished.
He kissed me again, and bit his lip. "Do you think we could maybe do this again?"
I kissed him again, "Absolutely baby… now lets get some rest…" I yawned. Sex sure does make you tired.
"Yes lets! I love you so much Bella." Jacob sighed.
"I love you too Jacob." And we slowly fell into a deep sleep.