A/N: So last night's ep was freakin' awesome! I loved the fight between the brothers and couldn't get it, especially Sam's rant, out of my head. This is what comes of it. Sam's POV and his actions are in regular font, his emotions are italics. Enjoy...
A Whole New Level of Freak
"Stop the car." I can't breathe.
"Stop the car, or I will." So help me god if you don't, I'll do something we're both gonna regret.
I feel him hit the brakes and turn the wheel to the left, pulling off onto the shoulder at a wide spot. Thank God. I'm throwing the door open-gotta get out- and out before the car stops rolling. I slam the door so hard I think it's gonna hit the ground after it hits its frame. I glare when I catch his dirty look. Can't help it. I so wanna rearrange his face right now. I won't touch him though, no, if I touched him right now…
"You wanna know why I've been lying to you Dean?" I shoot my arms out from my sides, pushing the world away as it closes in on me from all sides, tying to suffocate me. Glaring at him over the roof of the car, I answer my own question. "Because of crap like this."
He looks at me confused. He's confused. "Like what?" My fist itches.
"The way you talk to me. The way you look at me like I'm a freak!" I move, I have to move or I'm gonna explode. I walk around the car and feel my feet sink into the dirt shoulder of the road. Feel like I'm sinkin'. Or drownin'. I swing around to face him and the look on his face… don't you do that Dean. "Or even worse, like I'm an idiot. Like I don't know the difference between right and wrong!" Don't look at me like that. I can't take that look. That doubt. You taught me that, the difference. That was the first thing I learned from you. The most important thing ya taught me. He ducks his head and my heart breaks. "What?"
"Do you know the difference Sam? Oh, I mean, you been kinda strollin' a dark road lately.
You went there. You actually went there. Why Dean? I explode; die inside and all goes silent for a split second as my ashes float to the ground. "You have no idea what I'm goin' through. None."
"Then enlighten me!"
"I've got demon blood in me Dean! This disease pumping through my veins and I can't ever rip it out or scrub it clean!" It's killin' me. Knowin' part of me isn't normal, never will be. The worst part though? Knowin' you've lost faith in me, knowin' there's this… canyon… between us and no bridge. "I'm a whole new level of freak!" I don't know what the hell is happening to me… I just know I need my brother to understand. Please, Dean. Please understand. "And I'm just tryin' to take this… this curse, and make somethin' good out of it." Please just let me do this. I have to do this. "Because I have to."
Please, please, just… dude, just be my brother. I need my brother.
"Let's just go talk to the guy."
A/N: I know it's short, but hey, hopefully you liked the fight too and this works for ya. Please review.