Epilogue: One More Day
When we got home Esme and Alice were sitting on the front porch waiting for us. No sooner did Edward stop the car and Alice had come running over and hugged me. She begins to sob which in turn makes me begin to cry. "I'll be there everyday! I promise!" sobs Alice into my chest.
"Thank you, Alice, I appreciate it," I whisper. Then Esme was there and Alice lets me go so Esme could hug me.
"It's for the best, dear, but I'll come visit you often," says Esme. Then Edward walks over and wraps his arm around my waist.
"Let's go inside, it's going to rain soon," says Edward. I nod and go with Edward inside. When we get inside Angela, Mike, Eric, Ben, and Tyler were standing in the living room looking sad, especially Angela.
Angela runs over and hugs me. "Oh, Bella, it's not fair!" says Angela her voice cracking.
"I'll be okay if you promise to come see me," I say.
"I promise," says Angela looking in my eyes. And then the guys were hugging me too.
"I'll come see you too Bella," says Mike with a grin. Tyler, Eric, and Ben nod their heads in agreement, but Tyler and Eric were also shooting daggers at Mike. Ben only had eyes for Angela though.
"Bella, you have another visitor," says Esme. It sounded like she was by the front door and when I turned around Jacob was standing next to her with Billy. Suddenly the full extent of what was going on came crashing down and I couldn't hold back the hysteria.
I fell to my knees with a choking sob and covered my face with my hands. I couldn't do this! I couldn't let Edward put me back in that sanitarium again! Didn't he understand how I felt about the whole thing? I felt like he was giving up on me and abandoning me. Letting Carlisle try to fix me since he felt that he couldn't.
"Bella?" asks Edward.
"Why are you doing this to me, Edward?" I sob looking into Edward's eyes. Edward was kneeling on the floor next to me with his hand on my back between my shoulder blades.
"Doing what, Love?" asks Edward.
"Sending me away! What did I do that was so bad?" I ask as I choked back another sob.
"It's not like that, Love, not at all," whispers Edward obviously surprised that I could some to such a conclusion.
"Is it because I stopped you from having sex with me? We can try again, Edward, I promise I won't stop this time," I beg. Edward wraps his arms around me and holds me tightly.
"No, no Bella, I can't believe you would think something like that. We never have to have sex as long as you feel better. I love you, Bella, and I'm hoping that by putting you back in the sanitarium with Carlisle's care you'll get better," says Edward before kissing my temple.
I flinch away from him, I couldn't do this. I had to get away. There was no way I was going to go back to that place! Then I could smell Jacob's familiar scent and feel his warmth as he touched my back. "Bella, honey, why don't you get up?" asks Jacob. I shake my head and sob again.
"Perhaps, this was a bad idea," suggests Esme.
"I agree," says Edward apologetically. I heard feet shuffling as the room began to clear. Suddenly Edward was picking me up off of the floor. "You need to go too Jacob."
"Why can't I stay?" asks Jacob.
"I need to speak with Bella alone, and I can't do that with you here," insists Edward.
Jacob grumbles unintelligibly but he was soon gone as well. Edward carries me to his room and lays me on the bed before lying with me and wrapping his arms around me. He softly kisses my neck and jaw before reaching my cheek. "I love You Bella, do you realize that? I would give anything to see you truly happy," murmurs Edward.
"If u want me truly happy you won't take me there tomorrow," I whisper brokenly. Edward sighs heavily and holds me tighter.
"I'm afraid that it doesn't work that way, love," whispers Edward brokenly. Suddenly I felt wetness on my neck and could feel Edward begin to shake as sobs went through him. I realized that Edward was crying and it made me cry more.
We spent a long time just lying together on the bed and crying, not saying anything. There were no words for how I was feeling and I didn't really know why Edward was crying, but I had a feeling it was for me, but I wasn't sure why it was for me. Soon I was calmed down enough and I rolled over to face Edward. He was silently crying, but he was also calming down.
"Why are you crying?" I whisper as I wipe away his tears. Edward gently grabs my hand and holds it to his face.
"I can't stand to see you so upset love," whispers Edward. He wipes my tears away, but more kept coming. "I watch you everyday, and I look into your eyes and I see shadows. I see darkness in your eyes that doesn't belong there, and all I want to do is be the light that gets rid of them."
"I need to deal with it on my own Edward," I whisper.
"Everyone needs help sometimes," insists Edward.
"Yes, and you've helped me more than you could possibly imagine, but now I need to do the rest on my own," I whisper before kissing Edward softly. Edward kisses me back without hesitation. "I love you Edward."
"I love you too," he whispers.
"Then make love to me," I whisper.
And we did, and it was perfect.
Then we went to sleep, but I woke up a couple pf hours later. When I did I glanced at the clock and saw that it was 1:00 in the morning. Edward was in a deep sleep. I was suddenly overwhelmed with the need to leave. I didn't want to go to Carlisle in a few hours, I knew he wouldn't be able to help me. So with my mind made up I walk over to the dresser and pull some clothes out of it and find my duffle bag.
Once my bag was packed I walk over to Edward's pants and grab his wallet. I hoped he wouldn't mind if I took some money, but I needed it. I open his wallet and grab all of his money leaving his credit card. I knew if I took his credit card I could be traced. I count his money and was surprised by how much he had. It would get me on a bus and out of here as well as a place to stay so I would be okay until I could find a job.
I take one last look at Edward who was asleep with a small smile on his face. I wanted to turn back right then, but that wasn't possible. I turn away and leave the room. I sneak through the house and walk out the front door into the cold and rainy night. I wasn't sure if I would be back to Forks ever again. All I knew was that I would miss everyone.
I walk out to my truck and consider whether or not to take it with me. It was a loud truck. I decided I didn't want to take the chance so I just started walking down the long drive and away from the Cullens' home.
When I woke up I felt a sense of satisfaction. Bella had finally allowed me to make love to her and I had been more than I could ever hope for. I had been adamant at first, but I would do anything for Bella. I took things slow and gave her time to push me away if she got nervous, but she never stopped me. We fit together perfectly and when we both climaxed at the same time it was like the icing on the cake. Afterwards we had drifted off to sleep.
I glance at the clock and notice that it was 7:00 A.M. I didn't have to be up for half an hour, but I wanted to watch Bella sleep. When I looked over to where she had been asleep I was shocked to find that she wasn't there. Then I notice that the dresser was open and some of Bella's clothes were strewn around it on the floor. I didn't want to believe what my mind was trying to tell me. Then I noticed my wallet sitting on the table by the alarm clock and all of my cash was gone from it. Bella was definitely gone and she had taken almost six hundred dollars with her.
Then it seemed to hit me. Bella was GONE!
A/N: Thanks for reading and reviewing and totally loving Insanity! Everyone seemed to really want Bella to run away for some reason, so here you all go! I got a ton of reviews! Oh and I am the Co-Author of a story called shadows and I'm working on it with HeartBreaker1830 so check it out and send us lots of reviews! I'll start the Sequel soon so try to be patient okay? I have a lot of stories going at once. Sayonara! =]