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Summary: Takes place after Olivia goes undercover at Sealview. Spoilers will appear.
Olivia turned over in her bed and stared blankly at the red lights of her alarm clock. The digital screen read that the time was five thirty six am and Olivia hadn't spelt a wink.
Trying once more to get comfortable, Olivia closed her eyes in attempts to get some sleep. Within seconds her eyes were opened once more.
Olivia sat up and looked out the window by her bed. It was still dark outside but it didn't matter because she couldn't sleep. In fact she hadn't been able to sleep much at all in the past few days.
She couldn't figure out why she was having such a hard time. He hadn't raped her, she was one of the lucky ones, but every time she closed her eyes she saw his face, she felt his breath on her neck, she could smell him, she could taste him and she could feel him. And it scared her.
Olivia sighed and climbed out of bed. She decided she would give up on trying to sleep and get ready for her day.
"Hey Liv!" Elliot dropped his car keys in the top drawer or his desk. "Didn't you go home last night?" he commented
Olivia lifted her head and faked a smile "Good morning to you to El."
She sipped her coffee "I did." She replied
"And you didn't find it necessary to get any sleep?"
Liv nodded "I tried." She sighed "But I just…" she trailed off not wanting to talk about the reason she was having trouble closing her eyes. "I…" she stammered suddenly feeling nauseous "I don't feel so well." She got up and headed for the restrooms.
Elliot's eyes followed his partner until she was out of sight and then he headed for his captain's office. He knocked lightly and walked in.
"Elliot." Don looked up from a stack of papers on his desk.
"Something's up with Olivia." Elliot sat down. "I need to know what happened."
"What happened when?"
"Sealview, I know something happened, my partner hasn't been herself since she came out of the hell hole."
"Have you…" Cragen began "Asking her?"
"I'm not asking her, I'm asking you." Elliot shouted "She's my partner; I have a right to know what went down!"
"You might want to change the tone of your voice." Cragen snapped back at Elliot's outburst. "You're crossing the line."
Elliot inhaled "She's not herself, and I am worried about her. You put her in that place, you let her go in there, and the Olivia I know didn't come out!"
"Hold on a second!" Cragen stood up from his desk "I was against it from the moment she suggested it. So maybe you should talk to her." He added "I don't know everything that goes on in my detectives lives. I like it that way, and I am sure everyone else out there likes it that way also. If something had happened it would have been in her report, it would have been in Fin's report. "
"Well did you ask Fin?" Elliot stood from the seat he was in and hollered out the door for Fin.
"Captain?" Fin entered the office, but before Cragen could speak Elliot was on him.
"What the hell happened in Sealview?"
Fin looked over at Cragen and then back at Elliot "What are you talking about?"
"To Liv, something happened while you two were in there; you can't tell me you haven't noticed. I just want to know why suddenly my partner can't contain her emotions and why she has been able to sleep in almost two weeks, she can't focus. And if she can't focus on her job she's putting the people around her at risk!"
Cragen sighed "Fin? You want to shed some light on the subject?"
Fin shook his head; he wasn't going to tell anyone what happened. If Olivia wanted anyone to know she would be the one to do so.
"I don't know what to tell you Cap." Fin responded
"So you're telling me that you or Olivia didn't omit anything from the case notes you filed?"
"That's what I'm telling you." Fin looked over at Elliot "Well should we get Olivia in here?"
"Just forget it." Elliot sighed; he left Cragen's office no closer to answer then when he had entered.
By the time he had made it back to his desk Olivia was back in her seat, looking worse then before.
"Are you okay?" Elliot squatted next to her chair
Olivia nodded "yeah" she lied, her eyes welling with tears "I'll be fine. I just need to eat something."
"Liv," Elliot lowered his voice "Talk to me."
Olivia sighed "No. I'm fine, it's nothing and if it was, now is not the time El," she replied not wanting to look him in the eye.
"Look at me." He pleaded "This isn't you, you haven't been yourself since..." he trailed off
"Listen up!" Cragen entered the squad room, "We've got a situation at the Jensen St Homeless shelter. Our twenty year old victim claims she stayed at the shelter last night and was assaulted by a member of the staff. She has barricaded herself in the ladies restroom and is refusing to come out."
Elliot who was now standing looked down at Olivia "You sure you're up for this?"
Olivia nodded and shrugged his off "El, I said I was fine"
Elliot didn't respond as Olivia threw on her jacket and headed for the exit "You coming?" she turned to Elliot.
Elliot looked over at Cragen as he grabbed his jacket. "Yeah" he replied to Olivia and followed behind her.