Alright guys, here you go Part 2. Hope you enjoy! Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight or the characters, but this is my story line. Enjoy!
Alright guys, here you go Part 2. Hope you enjoy!
Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight or the characters, but this is my story line. Enjoy!
Chapter 8 Continued
Such A Dick Part 2
Then I kissed her. She didn't stop me, and when I probably should have stopped myself I couldn't. She tasted so...so amazing. Just about the time I was going to pull away, I felt her fingers run through my hair. Oh my God; she was kissing me back. This only spurred me on even more. I pressed my body into her; I longed to be as close as I possibly could. I brought one hand up to her face and the other I placed on the back of her neck. She parted her mouth slightly, so I parted mine in response and slowly let my tongue brush against her lip; I didn't want to push my luck. She leaned into me and let her tongue graze mine. I took this as a good sign and let my tongue trace the roof of her mouth before exploring her mouth. She moaned, and then I moaned.
As much as I loved how this felt and had been longing for this moment for so long, I needed to know what Bella was thinking. Was this another lost in the moment kiss, or was this something more? I brought my other hand to the side of her face and kissed her a little more gently before pulling away. I looked at Bella hoping to read her face, but her eyes were still closed.
"Bella?" I asked softly.
"Just give me a minute please," she said still not opening her eyes.
I smiled at the idea of making her need a minute to regain her composure. I removed my hands from her face and brought them to her hands which were now resting in her lap and began rubbing circles on her palm with my thumb. I didn't want to rush her, so I waited patiently. It seemed like an eternity before she finally spoke.
"Edward, I'm a little confused."
"About what Bella; my words or my actions," I knew I had some explaining to do.
"Well I'm guessing your kiss was a product of your words, so lets start there. You said you love me?"
"Yes Bella. I'm in love with you and have been since you returned to Forks. Well it wasn't love initially, but it quickly developed into that with the more time I got to spend with you. I love everything about you. I love the way you play with my hair. I love that you're clumsy. I love that you sleep better when I'm with you. I love how you sometimes say my name when you're sleeping. The reason I've been avoiding you for the last few months is because it was becoming so hard for me to be around you and not imagine what it would be like to have more. I want more Bella. I want you. Always and forever," I said honestly. There was no use keeping secrets now, my heart was too far gone.
Tears began to form in her eyes
"Bella, please don't cry."
"They're happy tears Edward. I thought you hated me; that I had done something to push you away. I'm just so happy that you aren't mad at me," she wrapped her arms around me.
"Silly Bella, of course I'm not mad at you, but don't you have anything to say about what I just said. I know you were kissing me back Bella. Please I just need to know," I said.
"I...well...okay first, the kiss...the kiss was amazing, and yes I was kissing you back," I smiled. "I think that there's been a part of me for a while now that has wanted to kiss you and be kissed by you ever since I returned, but not like the ones we had before. Not like the Truth or Dare kiss and not like how I kissed you when I was upset. This kiss was different; it meant more to me. And as for the second part; Edward, I'm not ready to say I love you."
When she said that I looked down. She immediately lifted my chin up.
"But," she continued, "I definitely have feelings for you. I just don't want to rush into saying I love you because when I say it I want to mean it, and I want it to be special. I don't just want to say it cause you did because you deserve better than that. But if you could just give me some time, give us some time, I think I could."
I smiled and wrapped my arms around her and kissed her quickly.
"I guess that means you're okay with that," she said smiling and talking against my lips. She gave me a quick peck. My heart raced. I had waited so long for Bella to kiss me.
"I would wait for you forever," I said.
She laid her head on my shoulder and I wrapped my arms tighter around her.
"So...I guess things are going to be different around here," she said.
"If by different you mean I finally get to kiss you whenever I would like and everyone in my family is going to start carrying on about how they've been waiting for this to happen, then yes things are going to be different."
"Oh yeah, I guess we're going to have to tell people huh?"
"What? You don't want people to know?" I asked a little hurt.
"No it's not that. It's just...I'm never going to hear the end of this from Alice and well...Jessica is going to hate me even more than she already does," Bella said.
I laughed, "Don't worry Bella, I'll protect you."
"Hey, I have a fun idea about how we can tell Alice and the rest of the family about us being together. You game?"
"Sure," Bella was always up for a trick on Alice. She turned away from me on the piano bench and leaned back into my chest. I put my arms around her and filled her in on my plan
When Alice and Jasper got home Bella and I were sitting on opposite couches watching TV.
"Well will you look at this," Jasper said as he stepped into the living room. "About damn time you too sat down and talked." Alice was smiling ear to ear.
"Talk? I wouldn't know what your talking about. I've been sitting here watching TV by myself," Bella said shooting me a look of annoyance.
I folded my arms and shrugged my shoulders.
"Edward, would you just knock it off please," Bella said getting to her feet an walking towards me. Alice's eyes widened, and Jasper looked confused. "If you have a problem with me would you stop being such a pussy and just say it!" She pushed me.
"Bella...I'm warning you, don't push me again!" I said in a threatening voice. Mom and Dad had walked into the room and were ready to step in.
"Edward! You don't talk to a woman that way!" Mom shouted. I couldn't help but smile. We really had them fooled. Only a little while longer.
"No, it's fine Esme. Edward wouldn't dare touch me; he's not that stupid. Cowardly and annoying, but not stupid," Bella said folding her arms across her chest.
"Bella," I said warning her.
"I'm sick of you treating me like I don't exist," she shouted and pushed me again. Okay, now for the real show.
"Damn it Bella!" I yelled and ran at her pushing her onto the couch.
"Edward!" Mom, Dad, Alice, and Jasper all said at once.
"Jasper! Do something!" Alice pleaded.
"Bella, don't you ever push me again!" I yelled pinning her shoulders down on the couch. And before Jasper could pull me off of Bella I smiled and leaned down and kissed her passionately. Bella wrapped her arms around my waist.
"What the hell!" Alice yelled.
"Oh my," Mom said.
"About damn time!" Jasper cheered.
*Cough,* Dad cleared his throat.
I pulled away and then gave Bella another quick peck before lifting her up and setting her on my lap.
"Alice!" Mom said.
Bella and I sat there smiling while everyone stared at us with mouths wide open. That was fun. We proceeded to explain to them what had happened, and that we were going to try things out in a relationship. Everyone was happy for us. Alice was jumping up and down, and my mom looked like she had tears in her eyes; she's always thought of Bella as part of the family anyway. Alice immediately made me call Emmett, who was of course excited. He reminded me repeatedly of how he had suggested I talk with Bella months and months ago. Rose was happy too, and for her that was enough.
Things felt right. Perfect. For the first time in a long time I felt good about everything. I finally had Bella, and I would do whatever it took to make sure she was happy. I looked over at her; she was talking with Alice. She was smiling like I hadn't seen her smile in a while. She looked up and caught me looking at her and blushed; I love it when she did that.
Finally it was time for Bella to leave; after saying good night to my family I walked her to her truck. I opened the door for her and she got in. I put my hands on the roof of her truck, leaned in and kissed her.
"I've waited so long to be able to do that," I said. "You don't know how happy you've made me. I love you Isabella Swan."
She smiled, "So what should I say for now, 'um..thanks,'" she said jokingly, but I knew she really did wonder. "I don't want to hurt your feelings by not saying it, but like I said earlier..."
I put my finger to her lips, "Shh...all you have to do is give me a kiss. I love you." She smiled and gave me a kiss. "Works for me," I said. For now.
"Well I better get going. You know...Charlie's on the night shift this weekend; you could come over later if you wanted."
"Why Isabella, are you asking me to sleep with you?" I said teasing her.
"Haha...very funny," she said pushing my shoulder.
"I'll be there in a about an hour. Bye love," I said giving her a kiss.
"Bye," she said before shutting her door. I watched her drive away before heading back into the house.
Everyone was still waiting for me when I got inside; waiting to ask me questions I assumed.
"Wow, it's late," I said faking a yawn and stretching. "I think I'm gonna go to bed."
I cut Alice off. "Good night everyone," I said while walking up the stairs.
Once in my room I literally jumped onto my bed. It was like Christmas when your five and you had just gotten the best present ever. I felt that I would have a smile permanently plastered to my face, but I didn't care. The glory of first love, I guess. As I lay there thinking about the events of the evening, it finally dawned on me that I was going to stay the night with Bella. If it had been any other day before today, I wouldn't have thought anything of it, but today was different. Today something had happened between us that catapulted us out of the friend zone and into the unfamiliar zone. What would tonight be like? I of course had no sexual expectations; I had more respect for Bella than that, but what I felt in my heart and thought in my head might not be working in harmony tonight. What if my body reacted to her the way it had in the past and she was repulsed? Oh god. Maybe I could...no that would be way to uncomfortable. I guess I would just have to keep my mind on all things not Bella...I'm not sure if that was even possible.
I hung around for another forty-five minutes or so before I decided to leave. It had been a long time since I had to sneak out of my window, but I had become a pro at scaling trees. I popped my car into neutral and pushed it down the drive-way a little bit so my family wouldn't hear me if they were still awake. I must have driven 100 miles an hour because it felt like I was at Bella's house in minutes. I parked my car the next street over, so Charlie wouldn't see it when he got home and headed to her house. I found the door unlocked, so I walked on in. I could hear music playing from Bella's room, so I decided to not announce my entrance in hopes of surprising her.
Her door was cracked open, so I peaked inside. She was standing in front of her dresser in a sports bra and panties looking through a drawer. God, she was so sexy; my body started to betray me. Right, Mrs. Cope, Charlie, Alice and Jasper...okay better. She finally picked out a tank and shorts and put them on. I waited for a few minutes before knocking so as not to seem a perv.
"Come on in Edward."
"Hey back," she said. I wanted to jump her right now. Jesus Edward, don't you have any control.
"So I was thinking we could watch a movie," Bella said laying down on her bed.
"Anything you want," I said walking over to her.
"Anything?" she asked sitting up and grabbing my shirt with both hands. She pulled me down to her.
"An...ahem...anything," I said quite flustered.
She giggled and let go of my shirt, " Okay, then I pick...The Notebook."
I couldn't quite place what that movie was about, but I had a feeling I wouldn't be able to pay attention to it anyway, so I just nodded and took a seat next to her.
"Great!" she said getting up and running to her TV. She returned quickly and laid down pulling me down with her. She lifted my arm and slid over it, snuggled into my chest, and wrapped her arm around my waist. Good lord, this woman was going to be the death of me. Her hair smelt like flowers. I kissed the top of her head and took a deep breath.
Once the movie began, I remembered what it was about, but had never seen the whole thing. Things were going well until the part when the girl started playing the piano and the guy started kissing her. My mind began to imagine it being Bella and I. I definitely had a fantasy involving my piano, and this movie was making it hard not to play it out in my head. I shifted to try to make myself a little more comfortable. When they started undressing Bella wiggled in my arms, and I swear I felt her body temperature rise. I guess this was getting to her as well.
She began to rub circles on my stomach and I reciprocated by rubbing circles on her back. I rolled over onto my side so that I was facing her. I began placing a trail of kisses all over her face. I kissed her eyelids, her cheekbones, her nose, and finally her lips. I then left little kisses across her neck up to her ear; when I reached her earlobe, I stuck out my tongue and flicked it lightly. Bella inhaled deeply. I made my way back up to her lips and traced it with my tongue before finally kissing her passionately. This kiss was more intense, fueled with lust and desire; our tongues fought for dominance, a battle I would willingly enter into blindly. I moved my hand from her back and let it run down her arm until I reached her stomach. I grabbed her hip and pulled her closer to me. Her fingers were tangled in my hair. I rolled her onto her back and carefully positioned myself above her. I pulled away to look at her.
"You are so beautiful," I whispered.
She blushed, "Thank you."
I continued with my assult this time kissing her neck with more determination. Her hands were on my hips now. "Edward," she whispered into my ear.
Oh that was too much. I needed to stop this before I overstepped my bounds. I pulled away and looked into her eyes.
"Bella, I think I need to stop. I'm sorry," I said rolling off of her. This was such not a guy thing to do, but I didn't want to rush things with Bella. I wanted to wait until she was ready and until she had said she loved me.
She furrowed her brows, "Uhh...okay. Did I do something wrong?"
"No no Bella, nothing like that. I just didn't know how much longer I would be able to control myself, and I don't want to rush things between us."
"Oh okay, well I'm glad you said something cause I was kinda thinking the same thing, but wasn't sure how to tell you. I was going to stop you soon, but I had always heard how tough it was on guys to get...well you know and then be stopped. I wanted to be gentle about it."
I laughed, "Well thank you. Bella, you can always be honest with me."
She snuggled back up against me and we went back to watching the movie. Before it was even over, she had fallen asleep. I brushed the hair out of her face and kissed her forehead.
"I love you Bella, good night," I whispered in her ear.
We prepared ourselves for school and the comments of our peers on the drive there Monday morning. "I'm really kind of anxious to see how Jessica reacts. She's gonna be pissed. Maybe when I see her I should grab your butt or something," Bella said laughing.
As I pulled into the parking lot, I could see a group of our classmates standing outside the doors to the school. I pullled in to a space next to Jasper's car; Alice and he were leaning on it talking. I hopped out and walked quickly over to Bella's side to open the door for her. She smiled and stepped out, "Ever the gentleman," she said as I grabbed her bag and flung it over my shoulder. We walked over to Jasper and Alice and talked to a while before the first bell rang.
"Come on Edward, we can walk to English together," Jessica shouted and waved.
Bella rolled her eyes. "Come on babe, we don't want to be late," I said flashing her a smile.
"Okay lets get this over with," she said and started for the doors. I grabbed her hand. Jessica's brows furrowed. Angela's face lit up. Newton looked like he was going to was going to tackle me. I gave them a smile and then put my arm around her shoulder.
"WHAT THE FU.." Jessica yelled while walking through the doors.
"I guess she doesn't want to walk with you after all," Bella smiled and kissed my cheek. I thought Mike was going to explode.
We spent most of the day fielding questions from our friends and receiving dirty looks from Jessica and Mike.
The rest of the month went by in a blur. Things were going extremely well. Bella and I spent almost every free moment together. The sexual tension was becoming insane. I still didn't want to go much further until she had told me she loved me, but my body often didn't want to listen to me. I was taking many cold showers. Despite that, things were good. In fact I was having so much fun that before I knew it was the night before graduation. I spent a lot of time trying to not think about me leaving the day after graduation, but me not dealing with it hadn't kept time from moving on. Mom was great and had packed most of my things allowing me to spend time with Bella. We had decided, that we would just call, email and chat all the time. Visits would be a little more difficult but we would work it out. I had to work it out, I needed Bella.
"I can't believe we graduate tomorrow. This year has gone by so fast. Do you have everything packed up?" Bella asked quietly. Neither one of us wanted to talk about me leaving.
"Um...yeah for the most part. I'll finish everything up later tonight. Don't worry Bella; we'll go to our graduation parties tomorrow night and then I'll have my going away party the next afternoon, but my last evening here is all yours," I said before kissing her.
"Good. I better go so you can get some stuff done, I'll see you tomorrow?"
"Of course, where else would I be but with you. I love you." She smiled and kissed me per our agreement. "Night babe," I said.
"Good night," she whispered in my ear, got up and left.
I got up and began looking through books and music on my shelf to decide what was coming with me. I picked up a Dubussy CD and was reminded of Bella. I grabbed a picture of us off of my desk and sat down on my bed. I smiled, and then I sighed. I can't believe I only had two more days with my Bella.
Okay guys next chapter is the final one before they head to college. Should the college years be in Bella's perspective, so we could see where she's coming from when she wrote the letter, or Edwards POV? Anyways...I hope you guys enjoyed, and as always thank you so much for reading and reviewing. Any suggestions give me holla, any comments would be appreciated. I look forward to what you guys thought!