~Two Weeks Later~
Hinata was walking down the streets of Konoha she had a meeting at the Hokage's office. The past two weeks were very weird for Hinata. She had stopped reading her diaries and was throwing herself into training to spend less time with Sasuke. She had told him she was out of shape and needed to get back into training. And he didn't think twice about it because it wasn't a total lie. The lie came when she'd get home and went straight to bed. She'd tell him she'd be exhausted or sick. She was just so confused she didn't need Sasuke saying or doing anything that made her anymore confused. But Sasuke was getting suspicious and she knew she couldn't keep this up much longer.
As she continued to walk she remember how a couple of months ago she walked down these same streets to see the Hokage. But that time was when she was lied to and told Sasuke had a memory problem. As she walked up the steps to the office she wondered what the Hokage could possibly want to talk about with her today. Tsunade's door was opened and Hinata saw her sitting behind her desk writing something. Hinata slowly knocked on the door to get her attention, "Hello?"
Tsunade looked up, "Hinata good you're here take a seat." Hinata quickly did as she was told. "So how have things been with Sasuke?"
Hinata twiddled her fingers like she did when she was younger, "Um….good….yeah good."
Tsunade sighed, "What's wrong?"
"It's just that…It's just that I'm so confused. I mean Sasuke has been very sweet telling me all the things I don't remember. But that's the problem I don't remember and I don't think I ever will." She looked up to see Tsunade looking at her sadly. "But you didn't call me in here to hear my sob story."
She cleared her throat, "Um yes well I have noticed you have been training a lot lately and I think you maybe ready to get back to work. I'm thinking of sending you on missions again nothing too strenuous." The idea of being away from Sasuke both intrigued and made her sad. The confusion made her head hurt she started to rub her head. "Hinata are you ok?"
She took a deep breath and stopped rubbing, "Yeah I've just been getting these really bad headaches recently."
"Have you seen a doctor? You look like you're in a lot of pain. I'll take a look at you if you want."
Hinata shook her head and stood up, "No I'm fine but I should get going if we are done here."
Tsuande didn't quite believe her but decided to let her leave anyway, "Ok just think about what I said it's your decision."
"Thank you."She bowed and turned to leave.
Tsuande shouted out before she could leave, "Hinata you need to decide what is more important your memories or Sasuke."
Hinata didn't' turn around she knew Tsuande was right but she just wanted to get out of there. She took a detour through the park. She climbed up into the braches of a tree and sat down to think for awhile. She pulled out her diary from the pouch. She started from where she left off.
I don't know how long I can be around Sasuke anymore. Having sex with him was the worst thing I could have ever done. It's all I think about I can't help it. I want to stop I really do. I just….can't…..being around him is unbearable. Maybe I should just give up and just be with him. He wants to be with me I mean he has stuck around this long…..but what if date and it goes bad? I can't lose Sasuke I just can't. But what should I do?
I've got a solution to my problem. I've got a date! Not with Sasuke thought with Kenji the cute guy that works at the tea shop. It's tomorrow Valentine's Day he is taking me out to dinner. I haven't told Sasuke yet….I'll tell him after the date. I hope this date goes well maybe I'll end up with a boyfriend and everything will go back to normal between me and Sasuke.
Well yesterday was Valentine's Day and I have a boyfriend. And it's not Kenji its Sasuke. I bet you're not surprised. He was going to leave me it made me realize that I wanted to be with him. He just left, he spent the night and no we didn't do anything but lay in my bed and talk. Just talk……and kiss a lot. He is such a good kisser. Waking up this morning still with his arms wrapped around me felt just so right. That's the only way I can explain it. He just left and I already miss him is that weird?
I know you are probable wondering where I have been. I have written in awhile. But Sasuke has kept me pretty busy these days when I'm not working I'm with him. We aren't always alone though we hang out with our friends, go out to dinner, train, pretty much anything we can do together we do it. No words can describe how happy I am right now. I can't stop smiling he just makes everything so much better by just being there. Is this love? Is this how love is supposed to feel? Am I in love with Sasuke Uchiha? If I am I hope that I don't just blurt it out.
Hinata noticed that there was also a time lapse between these entrees. She thought she must have been busy with Sasuke.
Well I did it. I just blurted it out today. We were just sitting in his room and I was helping him pack he was leaving for a mission. And all he said was "Hand me that." And what did I say I said "I love you!"Can you believe that? I don't think I've ever been so red in my life. I just sat there praying he would say anything. But he just stared at me which made me even more nervous. I quickly packed the rest of his things and started pushing him towards the door. I just said, "Well you don't want to be late you should get going?"I got him out the door before he stopped letting her push him. He still looked a bit shocked, "Did you say you loved me?" I tried to play it off like he was hearing things but he wasn't buying it. I just gave up and admitted it, "Yes I love you but you don't have to say it back." His response was just "Ok." He slung his bag over the shoulder and we walked quietly to the gates of Konoha. I was so upset he just said 'Ok." Like I was asking him if he wanted to go to lunch or to watch a movie. He noticed I was upset and once we got there he wrapped me in his arms and whispered in my ear, "See I knew you'd be mad if I didn't say it." He was testing me can you believe that? I told him that I didn't want to say it if he didn't mean it. He gave me one very long good bye kiss and just before he left he whispered in my ear, "Love you too." Can you believe that he loves me! I can't wait till he gets back because he is the man I love you know.
She put the book back in her pouch and rested her head against the tree, "So I was really in love with Sasuke. I mean why wouldn't I he is and incredible guy. I wish I could remember for him, I know he says that he doesn't care but I know he does. And I know he thinks I'm going to leave him again especially with the way I've been acting lately. I've been avoiding him I am just so confused. I wish there was something I could do to make him believe I am going to stay with him." She jumped down from the tree and went back home to Sasuke.
He was working out in the gym when she got there he immediately stopped when she walked in. "How was your meeting?"
She leaned against the door frame, "Good she said I am able to start going on missions again."
He could tell something was wrong, "Is there something you want to tell me you've been acting really strange every since we had sex."
"I've just had a lot on my mind. Can we talk there is something I need to talk to you about."
"Ok." He pointed to a towel next to Hinata, "Hand me that."
And just like the first time Hinata blurted out, "I love you….again."