It's been months since he left, I lost track in the darkness that is my mind. I had spent most of it in bed, hiding from the pain, I loved him, I gave him my heart and he took it dragging along behind him. I was at school now; it kept my mind somewhat numb when I was here. My friends tried to help me, but they couldn't, and gave up. My dad wants me to go to therapy, but what could I possibly tell them "I'm depressed, because the love of my life left me. You want to know why? Because he's a vampire and is too good for me." I couldn't say that, and what good is it if I can't tell the truth. I liked to think of my life as a deep, dark dream now. That soon I would wake up in Edward's arms, just like I used to. I made my way to the Biology room, that was always the hardest, that was like where Edward and I met. I took a deep breath and walked in. Mike and Angela were smiling and talking, then when they saw me they quickly stopped, I had that effect on people now. I sat down. The teacher walked in then.
"Good afternoon class. We have a new student joining us today," I looked up standing at the front of the class was a tan boy, he was tall, he had brown hair, he was pretty muscular, and he was blushing bright red. He looked familiar "Nick why don't you introduce yourself?" He said, Nick looked around, clearly embarrassed.
"Ummm… Well I'm Nick Bardges…I'm from Phoenix, Arizona." He was from Phoenix too, huh? Wait a second Nick Bardges, I knew him. He was the only crush I ever had, other than… I shivered. Of course I could only think of Edward right now.
"Very good, why don't you sit right over there next to Miss. Swan."He looked around at the sound of my name, obviously recognizing it. When he saw me he smiled a crooked smile that used to leave me breathless, but now only made me want to cry. He came over and sat next to me. People were confused at how he knew me, and then just kind of shrugged it off, after all I was the only one sitting alone.
"Hey" He said. Friendly, and happy as ever.
"Hello" I said my voice barely audible.
"Didn't you used to live in Phoenix?" He asked. I nodded, he smiled.
"Bella." I corrected just like the first day of school
"I see, when did you move here?" All of the questions were reminding me of Edward, just like everything else did.
"You don't talk much do you?" I shook my head no, hoping to give him the hint that he won't get much out of me. "I remember that about you." He remembered me? Should I be happy? No, I would never be happy. He was quiet during the remainder of class. After it was over, though, he kept on talking,
"What class do you have next?"
"Gym." I answered
"Me too. Can you help me get there?" I nodded, and walked, he followed. "So you've changed a lot… I mean you were…" I stared at him, he was blushing, what did he mean? "Yeah, so where do we go?"
"Right up here on the left." He smiled
"Ah-ha I knew I could get a full sentence out of you." Then the impossible truly happened, I actually smiled, I gasped. What was going on? Was I actually getting better? Jeez Bella you smiled, now you think you're on the road to recovery. Hmmm was I really crazy enough to hear voices, I guess so. Nick smiled too.
"Well… I guess I'd better go… to uh gym." He blushed, and then walked away. What was going on?
As I walked into gym, Nick saw me and smiled, I blushed. Mike was staring at me as usual, he still hadn't gotten over me, when he saw me blush he looked at Nick, then at me, then back at me. He was frowning. I tried to ignore him, and walked toward Nick.
"Hey." He said when I got there. "That you're boyfriend?" I looked around involuntarily, even though I knew he couldn't possibly be back. "Him." He said tilting his chin in Mike's direction. I shook my head.
"He wishes, why do you ask?" He seemed to like that I was talking fully.
"'Cuz he's coming over here and he doesn't look too happy." I rolled my eyes for Nick's benefit.
"Hey Bella." Mike said, still with some sympathy.
"Hi Mike." I said actually quite loud, everyone within a 100 foot radius stopped what they were doing. I hadn't spoken since…
"You're… umm, who's your friend?" He asked looking at Nick, and he didn't look pleased.
"Nick Bardges, you are?"
"Mike Newton. So how do you know Bella?"
"We used to go to the same school in Phoenix." I answered. Mike looked on me, he opened his mouth to say something when the teacher came in and began to tell us about the next form of torture we would be attempting.
As I came out of the changing room Nick was standing in the hallway waiting for me, just like Edward used too, I shivered away the pain.
"Hey" I said, we began to walk out to the parking lot.
"That your car?" He said asked looking at my truck. I nodded. "It's nice, it's you."
"How could you know that?" I asked
"That it's me, you've only known me for 2 hours, and you still barely know me." Like that right there I had just said more than I had in months put together.
"I don't know. It just feels like, you." I just left it alone, I knew he would never get me like… god, why did everything lead right back to him, everything."
"Are you okay?" He looked at me, I nodded "You keep getting this look on your face, like you were just stabbed in the stomach." I was about to answer, but being me I tripped over my own feet. Just before I hit the ground though I felt hands around my mid-section. Nick brought me back to my feet.
"Thanks." I breathed looking into his eyes
"No problem." He said, though he didn't let go of my mid-section, strangely enough I didn't mind. Why did that make me feel awful? I cleared my throat.
"Oh sorry." He said
"It's fine." I said "I gotta go. Bye." I ran off to my truck. When I got inside I sat back in my seat. Did I like Nick? If I did, was that a good thing? If it was why did I feel so terrible? I shook my head and drove away. Feeling just as dark and awful as ever.