So gretlcascade asked me to reply to the reviews in the beginning of the chapter like I used to. And I can never so no to a fan, so here are a few from the many amazing reviews that I thought other people would like to read the response to. Thanks for the reviews as always. (if you don't want to read the replies skip to the *****)

gretlcascade: Ugh! I love this story so much, it's disgusting! :) Thanks for being so loyal to the story and The Hosts actual characters. I've read fanfictions where the author completely changes the characters/plot and it ends up being a mess. So, anyway, I just wanted to say some things:
1) you have a great voice in your stories. whenever i read, i can tell its your story
2) This is just my personal opinion, but it seems kind of out of the blue how mel is so distraught about not being able to see Maudy, maybe wanda could ask her whats wrong and mel could tell her she remembers her mother talking/visting her? Idk...
3) I miss your messages with the readers! It made us want to review more! I know you have a life and are super busy, but it would make my day if you could do the message thing in the author's notes again... :) happy new year!

Haha when I first read the first line of your review I read it wrong as " ugh this story is disgusting" yeah I know that's what I get for skim reading on my phone. But then when I reread it, it made me smile like a fool.1) Yay! I have voice…that's the best compliment any writer can receive. 2)*smiles sheepishly* well those are really good observations/opinions…and I would love to clarify them. But read this chapter first and if it's still not clarified why she is so distraught ask me why again and I'll be more than happy to answer :)3) well I'm glad you loved them as much as I loved writing them. Actually, It helps me write the chapter better when I reply to reviews before I write them because then I keep my readers in mind while I write. So here's the deal: when I'm having trouble writing a chapter(which is often) I'll write a few replies in my chapters. But I can't promise that I'll do it for every chapter. Sound fair?HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU TOO. And thank you so much for reviewing!

ladaane: I just started reading your story so I have no reason to say you suck! I think your writing's really awesome you've done such a great job of keeping everyone in character! Update ASAP but don't worry if you don't cuz we all know you have a life outside of fanfiction. Please please please send me a teaser!

:) Well I hope I don't give you a reason in the future to say I suck…because I'm sure as you'll find out that I do take forever to update. Thank you for the compliment…i try my best to keep everyone in character so its good to know that I have yet to screw them up. Thank you for the reassurance…its just I've seen some of my favorite authors on fanfic get bashed and lose readers because life gets in their way and they cant find the time to update. In my opinion I think I have the best readers because you guys are freakishly understanding! I hope you got the teaser and it was satisfying enough (even though it was kind of late) Thanks again ;)

AleeLikesIceCream:New reader! I fell in love with your fanfic :D ^^
please dont take so and please more Ian and Wanda , I just cant stand them not being together. They are just so cute *-*

YAY I love getting new readers! I hope I didn't take too long. Ian and Wanda will be back no worries, just remember this is mainly their story so if I don't mention them that much in a chapter that just means that in the next chapter or so there will be a lot of Ian and wanda :) Thanks for the review!

A/N: just for timeline sake…only two days have passed since mel found out about maudy.

Chapter 18


I lost track of time. It still felt like just minutes ago Uncle Jeb had showed me the picture of Muady and I, which was now worn and wrinkled by my hold on it. I still couldn't wrap my head around the fact that Maudy was my godmother and I had no way of ever getting to know her before it was too late.

She was the last person left on this earth that could ever take my mother's place, and it hurt to know that she would never have a chance to. I closed my eyes tightly, trying to hold back the tears that were threatening to spill.

I had been falling in and out of sleep, with the hope that this foreign feeling of helplessness would be gone when I would wake up.

But every time I would jolt awake from my sleep, I'd realize I was still alone in my room grasping the picture of my godmother.

The screeching noise of the jade screen, blocking the entrance to Jared and my room, interrupted my morbid thoughts.

I didn't bother sitting up from my bed to see who it was, Jared is the only one that's been in here since I basically isolated myself.

I felt the mattress sink near my feet.



"Mel, what do you plan to do?" She asked.

Her question threw me off guard. I was getting ready to receive more comforting words and reassurances that it was best for Maudy if she stayed out of the caves. All empty words that I was sick of hearing.

"I think we should have a raid soon." I said simply.

"Hmm, I think you're right. The storage room is running out of cheetos and I don't know how I'll be able to survive without them." She exclaimed lightly.

My mouth twitched upwards. She really was the sister I never had.

"Well, I've got some things to discuss with the boys then. I'll be back when the plans complete. Do you want anything to eat Mel?" She stated. Her question at the end was only a question out of politeness.

She would bring me something even if I said no.

And I would end up eating it; because Wanda had a plan. She was going to take over being me while I moped in my misery.


We needed a raid for cheetos and Maudy. Two raids in one night.

One was a mere excuse to get the boys out of our way and the second to receive, at the very least, some closure.

I was so lost in my thoughts, it took a minute to register that someone was holding my shoulders and restraining me from walking.

Then those hands gripped my waist and pulled me back to a familiar chest.

"Hey sweetheart," Ian whispered. "I haven't seen you all day."

I turned around and wrapped my arms around his neck. In the past few weeks I've grown a couple inches. Now when I hug him, my head rests snuggly at the crook of his neck and he can easily rest his chin on top of my head.

"I've been busy." I said nonchalantly, pecking him lightly on the lips.

"With what?" he asked curiously, arching one eyebrow.

"Scrapbooks and heart to heart conversations." I shrugged.

He just looked at me quizzically.

I giggled. "I'll explain later in bed. Since that is all we ever do."

"What's that supposed to mean?" He asked incredulously.

"It means nothing." I respond, attempting to avoid this conversation.

"Bullshit." He snaps back. "What do we always do?"

"We always do nothing but talk." I replied dejectedly.

So much for avoiding the topic.

"And what's wrong with talking?" He challenged.

"Absolutely nothing, everyone does it." I respond hoping he'd catch the double meaning without me spelling it out for him.

"So what's your point?" He asks, starting to sound exasperated.

I sigh, and try to think of a way I can say it without being to forward.

"WANDA!" Jared's voice echoes from behind Ian.

Ian is still looking at me expectantly, and I probably look relieved when Jared bounds up to us.

"There you are. Did you talk to Mel or something? "He asks trying to catch his breath.

"Yeah I did. I mean that's what friends do right?" I reply, trying to give Ian one last hint.

I glance over to see his eyes light up with understanding. Thank god. For someone so smart he could be so slow at times.

"Well you must have said something right because she's eating and she's actually giving me substantial answers." He exclaimed, sounding like a little kid who just won tickets to Disney World.

"And what exactly did she say?" Ian spoke for the first time.

"She wants cheetos." He responded, amusement coloring his tone.

"Um, I think I ate the last bag." I respond sheepishly.

Yes it was on purpose and I ate the last four bags, but it was all part of the plan.

"That's okay. I guess we'll just go on a raid and stock up again." He stated, messing up my hair in a playful way.

"Okay. Let's go find Jeb." I said, trying to control my excitement on how well everything was falling into place.

Jared nodded his head in agreement and started down the hallway towards the garden.

I started following him, but didn't get far before Ian grabbed my hand to stop me.

"Jeb can wait, we need to talk." Ian said seriously.

I sighed knowing it was useless to argue with him.

"Ian, Wanda stop making out and come on." Jared yelled from down the hall.

I was getting Jared a present; the guy had a knack for interrupting at the right time.

Ian groaned.

He pulled me close, and pecked my lips.

"You're not just a friend." He breathed against my lips. Then he let go of my hand and made his way towards Jared.

I shivered as I watched him walk away.

Who knew humans got goose bumps even when they're not feeling cold.

A/N: Please forgive me…and try not to hate me too much. I know it has been ages since you've heard from me and now that I finally update it's a small chapter. My only excuse is summed up in one word: LIFE. It's the one thing that comes between me and my writing. I won't bore you with the details, but sadly I'm a 21 year old that surprisingly gets little free time and when I do I'm in no mood to write.

I will update, but I can't make any promises. I wish I could be more dedicated like some authors, but honestly I just don't have the time anymore. It's between writing for fun, and studying for my career.

I hope you'll forgive me and stick with this story until the end. Whenever that may be.

I love you all for loving this story. I never thought I'd get almost half a 1000 reviews.