"What if she was the one?"

Disclaimer:Connor and Murphy are not mine, just Jaden aka Jade.

Chapter one- How it all ended

"You're really going to leave?"

"What do you want me to say Jaden?"

"I don't know Connor, maybe that your not leaving?"

I looked into those eyes and it broke my heart. "I can't do that Jade. I'm tired of being here, looking at the same thing all the time, seeing the same people everyday. I need something different."

Jade looked back at me, confused and hurt. "So does that mean you're tired of me too Connor? You see me everyday, hell you wake up and I'm there you must be tired of me by now!"

"Jade, I didn't mean it like that! I want you to come with us, I told you that we you walked in here!"

"Yeah, and you know that I can't go! My mom is sick Connor! Really sick, she's in the hospital practically every other day! You know I have to stay and take care of her!"

I had honestly for gotten about her mother for a moment. She was battling cancer and appeared to be losing that fight. "Jade-"

"You know what? Forget it Connor, I don't care. Go, leave and go over to America. Have a great life, see you around"

She had blown past me toward the door. "Jade don't leave like this!"

Jade turned around sharply to face me, with fury and sadness in her eyes. "How do you suppose I leave then Connor. Happily and bouncing out, give you a kiss on the cheek, tell you I love, and that I'll see you soon when I come to visit? You know that that's not going to happen especially with how you strung this on me."

"I told you."

"Yeah, when you where packing! I come home early and find you rushing around to packing up your stuff. Where you even going to let me know that you were leaving be for you actually were on a plane? Or were you just going to leave a note saying something like "Went to America with Murphy, love you and sorry I left with out seeing you. Connor."? I mean, you where rushing around grabbing clothes and things you need and if you were rush then that means you were in a hurry to be out of here, trying to leave before I got home went you Connor? I was only home about a half hour early, so you would have been rushing if you didn't want to run into me at all."

We just stared at each other, both knowing that she was right. I was trying to get out of there before she came home. I knew the look I see in her eyes; hurt, sad, confused, betrayed. I didn't think that I could deal with that being the last time I see her. Picturing that face everyday I was gone. I knew it would hurt her, and I didn't want to actually see it.

"Yeah, I thought so."

That's when Murphy came in to the room searching for me. "Connor let's- OH! Jade hey, um, you're home."

"Hi Murphy." I swear at that moment if words could kill I would have buried my brother. It makes sense though, she's smart and probably figured out that it was Murphy's idea to go over to the states. I wouldn't have been the one to suggest it, I really didn't mind Ireland so much. Murphy didn't either, but he just wanted to go somewhere else, get a change of scenery.

Murphy looked at Jade, confused by her sudden hostility toward him, then looked to me to see if I had told her it was all his idea. I shook my head 'no'. "Some, um Jade I-"

"Bye Murphy," Jade brushed past Murphy as she left the room. I followed her, and Murphy followed me after grabbing my packed bag.

"Jade! Come on! Jaden! Please stop!"

I had almost ran straight in to her when she had stopped short. She turned to me, unshed tears in her eyes.

"What?" The venom that had been in her voice when she spoke to Murphy was gone. Now she sounded like a young child who had done something wrong.

"I love you-"

"Yeah right." She tried to walk away, but I caught her wrist and held her in place.

"I swear to you that I do love you Jaden Mae Ashlen. I'm not going because I stopped loving you." I saw Murphy walk past us and load up the car. "I will be back, sooner than you think. Hell we'll probably get

kicked out of the country for getting drunk and in bar fight." I saw a small smile appear on her face and heard a soft laugh escape through her lips. "Ah, see I made you smile."

"Shut up, I'm supposed to be made at you."

"I know, and you should be." I looked over to Murphy, who was waiting in the car, then back into those beautiful green eyes. I leaned down and kissed her softly. "I have to go." she nodded, I turned and walked away. Before I got in the car I turned back to Jade who was about 70 feet away. "I'm sorry Jade, I should have told you sooner."

Then I got in the car and I drove away.

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A/N: So there's the first chapter of my first Boondock Saints fanfic. I hope you like the story and the chapter. I know there not much to review on but feel free.

PS. I saw this movie for the first time a few months ago, awesome movie! I love Connor and Murphy. And hey, a sequel is coming out, I believe they are currently filming.

PPS I recommend all of you go out and rent In Bruges with Collin Ferrall and the one teacher with the muffed up eye in harry potter. It's good.