I sat on my couch holding the most precious, wonderful, sleeping one-and-a-half year old in the world. Her name was Allie Renee Swan. My house was pretty small, and empty. It was just a simple little house down the street from Charlie's house. It had two rooms, one for me and one for Allie. There was a kitchen, a living room, and a bathroom. It was the perfect size for two people. As I looked down at my beautiful amazing daughter, I though about my story, about how he left me and how Allie came to be.
(A/N: Ok so there's going to be a few flashbacks here.... of Edward leaving Bella, of Bella's new "love, and different things....so I hope no one gets too confused...and in the one with Edward I am using quotes from New Moon, I DON'T OWN THOSE!!! Stephenie Meyer wrote them :) ...so here we go)
*Begin Flashback, 3 years ago*
"Bella, we're leaving." Edward said. I thought about his words for a second. He just stared at me.
"When you say we-." I whispered. I didn't want to think of the possibilities of his response.
"I mean my family and myself." He said. I argued with him, trying to make him change his mind, or let me go with him. I continued arguing until he spoke his extremely harsh words. "Bella, I don't want you to come with me." He said flatly. I let the words sink in.
"You...don't...want me?" I barely stuttered.
"No." He answered just as flatly. I didn't know he could be so cold. He was supposed to love me, forever and ever. As I realised that it was real, and it all sunk in I began begging him. Begging him not to do it. My words didn't matter. He had already made up his mind. I wasn't good for him, he didn't love me like I loved him anymore. He told me not to do anything stupid. He promised that would be the last time I would ever see him.
"It will be as if I'd never existed." were his exact words. I was completely still, motionless. My heart dropped and It felt as though I no longer had one. It felt like it had broken into a hundred million pieces and it could never be mended. Ever.
"Goodbye, Bella." He said. He was gone. My one true love, my whole life, my whole world, my all in all, automatically gone. In the blink of an eye the whole world crashed down on me. I felt like I had been paralyzed, I couldn't move an inch on my body.
Tears fell from my eyes as I remembered. After three years or total chaos I still loved him, and longed for him. The beautiful baby in my arms twisted and turned, then she fell back to sleep. As I stared at her face I saw so much of her father. The one man, or boy, I hated so very much. That made me think back once again. Think of his face. No not the most wonderful face in the world, the most evil, despicable, and disowning face in the world. Derek Hudson.
Start Flashback, 2 ½ years ago
I was sitting on my bed trying hard to read a book. Everything was difficult for me to do those past few months. Then one day I was at school just trying to tough my way through another day. Then I saw his face. I wasn't attracted to him, of course. How could I have been attracted to anybody then?
"Hey, are you okay?" Derek asked. I was sitting alone once again at lunch. I had cut off most of my social life. I was pretty much by myself, all the time.
"Y-yeah." I stuttered, startled by his words.
"You mind if I sit down?" He asked. I nodded and he sat down. "So why are you by yourself." He asked. I shrugged. "Are you sure you don't mind me sitting here. I'll leave you alone if you want." He said.
"No it's okay." I said. He smiled and his smile was gorgeous but, nothing compared to Edward's.
"So why haven't I seen you around?" He asked. I shrugged once again.
"Hey, I know this is like totally random, and may be too fast for you but, would you consider going out with me sometime?" He asked. His words shocked me but, I had been longing for love for so long, I did the unthinkable.
"Um...sure. Why not?" I said. His face light up and a smile spread across his face again.
"Alright, I'll pick you up at eight tonight, if that's alright with you." He said. I nodded and the bell rang. Then I continued to all my classes and went home. I immediately got read for my date, feeling no pain for the first time in a long time. He picked me up at eight like he said he would. We went out and I had a great time. I pushed the hurt from Edward to the back of my mind for almost a month because of our relationship, until everything came crashing down and I remembered again. All my emotions went into play.
"Bella, please?" He begged as we sat on his bed. If my head was right I would have disagreed but, against my better judgement I agreed to do something that would change my life forever.
"Fine." I gave in. He pulled me on top of him and the rest was a blur... The next thing I knew I was sitting on the toilet seat, positive pregnancy test in my hand. Derek was right beside me.
"What are we going to do?" I asked. He groaned.
"I don't know Bella but, I promise you everything will be okay." He said, (the biggest lie ever) as he leaned down and hugged me. I believe him when he said everything was going to be alright.
She continued to twist and turn in my arms so I decided to put her into her small, toddler bed. Then I went back and sat down on the couch and turned the TV on but, not before I passed and noticed the ultrasound photo that was framed and sitting on the coffee table.
Start Flashback 2 year ago
"Derek she's yours too!" I screamed as I threw my hands up in the air.
"I DON'T WANT HER!" He screamed.
"You should have thought of that before you slept with me!" I exclaimed. He paced back and fourth.
"You can't make me stay with you, Bella." He said. My mouth dropped open.
"Y-you're l-leaving me? N-now?" I stuttered.
"Bella I'm eighteen. I can't be a dad. Besides I don't want to anyway." He said. I tried to slap him but he grabbed my hand before I could.
"Do you think I want to be a mother at eighteen! You did this to me! Now you're not even going to help me?" I screamed.
"No, Bella. Listen I need to tell you the truth. Do you remember the day I came up to you in the cafeteria?" He asked. I nodded furious, trying to calm down because I knew it was bad for the baby.
"Yeah well the reason I did that was because me and my friend made a bet. He bet that I couldn't get you to sleep with me. I never turn down a bet so...that's how we got here." He said. My heart sped up and I felt like I could crush his head.
"You only went out with me for a bet?" I asked through my gritted teeth.
"Yeah, Bella. I don't like you, I never did. It was a bet. Hey, at least I got a hundred bucks out of it." He said. I picked up the flower vase beside me and tossed it at his head. He ducked.
"I am having YOUR baby and all you care about is getting a hundred bucks?" I asked. He nodded with a smirk on his face.
"GET OUT! GET OUT OF MY HOUSE NOW! I NEVER WANT TO SEE YOUR STUPID, LYING, BETTING FACE AGAIN!" I screamed, outraged.
"Fine with me. Good luck with that thing in your stomach." He said as he walked out of my room. I totally forgot Charlie was home so he came running upstairs after Derek left. I was on the ground crying.
"Bella what happened?" He asked. I continued crying but got up and opened the drawer beside my bed and pulled out the ultrasound picture. I shoved it at Charlie.
"Who's baby is this?" Charlie asked. I couldn't speak. "Bella, who's baby is this?" He asked again. His voice firm. I still didn't respond. "ISABELLA MARIE SWAN! Whose baby is this?" He screamed.
"MINE! OKAY IT'S MINE! I'M STUPID AND I'M SORRY!" I screamed. Charlie lied the picture on my desk and hugged me while I cried.
I shook my head at the anger I still felt for Derek. Then my heart ached and I remembered Edward. As I watched TV I though about what he would be doing right now, where he would be, who he would be with. I concentrated on the TV and then I fell asleep on the couch. I dreamed peacefully.....
(A/N: Last Flashback! I promise! AND It's short...really short! :D)
Start Flashback, 1 ½ years ago
I lied in that hospital bed in more pain than I could ever imagine. Renee was by my side and Charlie was in the waiting room. It was December 25th, at 1:04 A.M., when Allie Renee Swan came into this world. I immediatley fell in total and complete love with her.
I woke up the next morning at almost six o'clock. I walked into Allie's room. She was sitting up in her bed. When she said me she smiled and squealed.
"Hey angel, did you sleep good?" I asked. She nodded and rubbed her eyes sleepily. "We get to go see Grandpa today." I said. She squealed and clapped again. I carried her into the kitchen and sat her in her high chair. I scrambled her some eggs, which were her favorite and fed them to her. Afterwards I picked one her very few outfits out and dressed her. Then I got dressed myself. I picked her up and we went out and got in my truck. I buckled her into her carseat and I got into the driver seat. I drove very carefully to Charlie's house.
"There's my Allie Bear!" Charlie said as took Allie from my arms and hugged her tight. He hugged me too. "You should make your momma bring you to see me more often." He said. I laughed and rolled my eyes.
"Charlie, we come every three days." I said.
"That's still not enough is it ducky?" He asked using his nickname for her. When she was a little baby she used to flap her arms and I called her ducky, It just stuck.
"No." She said. He laughed and tickled her belly and she laughed too. I sat down on the couch and watched the cute little moment between Charlie and Allie.
Ok that's the first chapter!!! I hope everyone liked it and I hope it was easy to follow. If anyone wants to ask me an questions feel free to!!! Edward will be coming back in the next few chapters and if anybody wants me to I could put Jacob in the story :) Anyway, thanks for reading, and if possible review please!!!