When I reached the porch of my house, Edward and I just stared at each other. Neither of us moving and he wasn't breathing. Then he reached out and layed his cool hand on my cheek. His touch sent shivers down my whole body. I reached up and grabbed his hand and held it for a second.
"Bella." Edward breathed out. My heart sped up and butterflies filled my stomach. I hadn't heard him say my name in so long, sure I had dreamed of it, but this was real. Even though it almost seemed like a dream, and that at any moment I would wake up, it was real. I took my keys out of my pocket and unlocked my door. I walked slowly in with Edward following me. I couldn't hold my feeling in any longer and I burst into tears. Tear of both overwhelming joy and deep sadness. Edward ran to my side and wrapped his strong arms around me. I gripped his shirt with my fists and my tears dappened his shirt.
"Shhh....it's alright Bella. Please, don't cry." Edward said as he rubbed circles on my back.
"God, I missed you so much." I said into his shirt, through my sobs.
"I missed you too, more than you could ever imagine." He said still holding me tightly in his arms.
"I'm sorry. I just....I...I" I tried to say something but I couldn't get anything out.
"It's okay love. Just let it out." He said. I cried for a few more moments and then got myself together again. I pried his arms off of me and sat on my couch.
"You don't even understand. Every day without you was pure agony. It felt like, like my heart was being ripped out of my chest and there was nothing I could do about it." I said as I buried my face in my hands. "Nothing I could do to make the pain stop or...or even lessen a little. It was pain I had never experienced in my life. Even when my grandpa died the pain wasn't anywhere near. I can't even explain it in words." I said and looked up and Edward. His eyes looked the saddest I had ever seen them. If vampires could cry I'm sure he would be.
"Bella, I can't even begin to tell you how sorry I am. I'm am so, so sorry you had to go through that. I just thought leaving would be the best for you. That maybe someday you would move on and forget about me. I was hoping that you could live a normal life without me to mess it all up. I just wanted you to live, like any other human, and not have what many people call mythical creatures to screw it up. I hate myself for thinking that." Edward said.
"Edward, how could you even think I would want to live without you? How could you think I could live without you. I know I did for the past three years, and I know you don't want to hear this but, someday I'm sure I would have had enough pain and ended my life." I said.
"Please don't even say that. I don't know how I could think anything I did, but I did. I don't think I'll ever be able to forgive myself." Edward said. "All I know is that I love you and I'm not asking you to forgive me for leaving you. I know that would probably be extremely hard to do." He said.
"Edward, I forgive you. I love you more than almost anything in the world." I said hoping he wouldn't notice the 'anything' part. Allie had taken the love-you-more-than-anything-in-the-world trophy from him. I guess nothing could get past him because I saw the hurt in his eyes.
"Almost anything, I guess I can live with that. After all I don't blame you for not loving me as much anymo-" he started but I cut him off.
"Listen, I forgave you, now I need you too hear me out and possibly forgive me too. I understand if you can't though." I said referring to telling him about Allie. His expression looked confused.
"What?" He asked. I suddenly began to wish I hadn't let Allie spend the night with Charlie. It would have been much easier to just bring her out and say "I have a daughter Edward, here she is". I thought for a second and decided that I would do that.
"Edward could you come with me somewhere? I have something to explain to you and if you see it, it will be easier." I said.
"Ah, that would explain Alice blocking her mind. Sure, let's go." He said. He was walking toward his Volvo but when he saw me heading towards my truck he turned around. We both got into the truck and I started to drive, very slow, down the street to Charlie's. I knew it was going to be a hectic visit and Charlie might flip out on Edward.
"Why aren't you mad at me? How can you still love me just as much as before I left? I don't deserve this, you should be furious at me." He said. I sighed.
"I hope I'll be saying the same thing to you in a couple minutes." I said. He was still confused. We got to Charlie's house and I pulled into the driveway.
"This is going to be fun." Edward said sarcastically. I would've laughed but I was too nervous. We both got out of the car and I saw Charlie peek out the window when we slammed the doors. I took a deep breath and I walked up to the door and Charlie opened it.
"Hello, Charlie." Edward said. Charlie just glared at him.
"Where's Allie?" I asked.
"Asleep." Charlie replied. I nodded and Edward and I walked in.
"Can you wait a second?" I asked Edward. He nodded and sat down on the couch. I motioned for Charlie to come upstairs with me. We walked upstairs and into my old room where Allie was sleeping.
"What in the world is he doing back Bella?" Charlie whisper-screamed.
"It's a really long story. I really don't feel like explaining it to you right now. I have to tell Edward about Allie right now. Can you stay up here for like five seconds until I tell him?" I asked.
"Isabella Marie Swan, you better not forget how he hurt you." Charlie said angrily.
"Dad, please." I begged. He groaned and nodded. Then I walked over to Allie.
She was sleeping so peacefully. Her blond curls were strung everywhere around her face. I walked over to her and gently picked her up. She opened her beautiful blue eyes for a moment and then layed her head on my shoulder and drifted to sleep. It made me mad that she looked so much like her stupid father. She was still the most beautiful thing on the planet though.
I slowly, but surely walked down the steps carrying Allie and hugging her tightly. When I reached the bottom step Edward's head turned immediatley to me. He looked at me and then at Allie. His face was getting more confused by the second.
"Who is that?" Edward asked. I looked down at my feet.
"S-she's my d-daughter." I mumbled, wishing he didn't hear. Curse his vampire hearing! His eyes grew wide and he pinched the bridge of his nose.
"Your daughter?" He asked. I smiled a crooked smile and nodded.
"Are you...mad?" I asked, breaking a long period of silence.
"No, I'm not mad. I have no reason to be mad." Edward said.
"Then what are you thinking?" I asked, sitting down on the couch beside Edward.
"I don't know honestly." He said and let out a big sigh.
"I'm guessing you have a lot of questions." I said and he nodded. "I'll be right back." I said. Then, I walked back upstairs and layed Allie on the bed, and kissed her head.
"Thanks for giving us a minute alone. We're going to leave now. I'll see you tomorrow when I come pick up Allie." I said. Charlie grumbled and mumbled something under his breath. Then, I walked back down stairs.
"You want to go back to my house?" I asked. Edward shook his head and then in a flash he was out the door. I almost thought he left but, I looked outside and he was in the driver's seat of my truck. I walked over and got in the truck and handed him the keys.
"Do you mind me taking you somewhere?" He asked.
"No." I answered. He drove slowly, and I knew it was bugging him, down the streets. When got close to our destination I realised where he was taking me.
"Edward, it's dark and I'll trip over everything just getting there." I said. He was taking me to our meadow.
"You don't have to walk." He said. I rolled my eyes. When we got there, I jumped on his back and he ran through the forest at incredible speed. Then, when we reached the meadow he let me off. I lied down in the grass and looked up at the stars, Edward did the same.
"So ask me your questions." I said. He looked over at me, or atleast I thought he did. It was too dark to tell.
"Alright well first, is she really your daughter?" He asked.
"Yes, Edward. She is." I replied.
"If I ask you anything you don't want to answer you don't have to." He said. I nodded. "OK, how old is she?" He asked.
"Almost two." I replied.
"Who's her father?" He asked.
"His name is Derek Hudson." I replied.
"Are you...." He paused. "Are you still with him?" He choked out.
"No! He left me before Allie was born. It's a long story. To make it short, he only slept with me for a bet." I said. Edward growled.
"So her name's Allie?" He asked. I nodded and smiled. He didn't ask anymore questions. We both were silent, still looking at the stars.
"I love you, Bella." He said. I laughed.
"I don't deserve you." I said. He scoffed.
"My love you've got that backwards. I'm the one who doesn't deserve you." He said.
"Uh...Edward, are you okay with Allie....a-and everything? Or not?" I asked.
"I am absolutely okay with everything. I will always love you, no matter what happens." He said.
"So...are we back to normal now?" I asked.
"Only if you say we are." He replied. I smiled and then rolled over on top of him. I clenched his shirt in my hands and kissed him passionately.
"I love you, Edward." I said.
"I love you too." He said. Everything was back to the way it was supposed to be. Edward loved me and I loved him and he was right here with me. I lied snuggled to his side and looked up at the stars again.
Alright...so yeah, Edward knows. I was deciding between either making him mad about it, or having him be fine with it. I chose for him to be fine with it because I don't think anything could come between Edward and Bella's love. So...now that everything's back to normal I should be able to start writing some better chapters... :D Thank you, thank you, thank you to everyone who reviewed and I also thank the people who just read my story, even if you didn't review. I hope you liked this chapter, and if you didn't I'm sorry :( REVIEW PLEASE!!!!!!