A/N: Just to let you know I started writing this before Breaking Dawn came out which is why Renesme doesnt exist and such.


Chapter 1:: [[Bella's POV]]

It finally happened. I'm a vampire, I'm married to Edward, I have everything I thought I wanted….so why aren't I happy?

"Hello my love" Edward said, walking into our room and leaning down to kiss me. And I was glad for the billionth time that he still could not read my thoughts.

"How was hunting with your brothers?" I asked him, making sure to keep my tone light and upbeat so he couldn't detect my unhappiness.

"It was good. You and Alice should have come along." He replied.

"Maybe next time" I said.

"Bella, is something wrong?" He asked. Darn I still haven't gotten any better at lying.

"No, of course not, what could possibly be wrong?" I said. He wasn't convinced.

"Bella honey what is it?" He persisted.

"Nothing Edward everything is fine I swear." I said hoping to sound firm.

"Bella love you are still the worst liar I've ever met. Tell me what's wrong honey" He said.

"I don't know what it is. I'm just not as happy as I thought I would be.." I finished, lamely.

"You still miss him don't you?" Edward asked, his body tensing.

"Miss who?" I mumbled.

"Bella, you know who" He said.

"I have no idea what you're talking about Edward."

"You're not really going to make me say it, are you?"

I looked at him, confused.

"Jacob Black" He said, firmly.

"W-w-who?" I asked,

"Bella you know who. I don't know why your making me do this. I know how much it hurts you for me to say his name. I know you miss him. But I had no choice I had to kill him or they would have killed you." He said, his thoughts far away.

"I know that." I said quietly.

"Bella honey I'm sorry" He said pulling me into his arms and holding me tightly but I didn't want him to comfort me. I didn't want to be anywhere near him. I just wanted to be alone.

"I need to be alone, Edward" I said coolly, pushing away from him and walking out into the forest.