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AN: So as a Thanksgiving treat for you guys I decided to post a new chapter! Yay! But sorry to tell you that it is not the theater chapter yet, but it is the 2nd half to the flashback scene. I also have to tell you that this will be the chapter I will do in Edward's point of view once I decided exactly where I want to add it in. I hope you enjoy. Also just letting you know, this story will be having a lot of cliff hangers because I love keeping you guys on the edge of your seat, so sorry if you hate them.
AN 2: Chapter has now been re-edited thanks to dihenydd!
Chapter 5: I will run and hide till memories fade away (Part 2)
Close my eyes theses voices say
Haunting me, I can't escape
For you, just you
Time will always wait
While I throw away what I can't replace
- Hide by Red
(Flashback 5 years later continued)
It's been a week since everything happened, but it feels like ages. I've been trying to avoid Edward. I really don't want to talk to him, but I can tell he wants to talk to me. To be honest, I want nothing to do with him anymore.
After Tanya spoke to me, I really wanted to talk to him. But after what I saw, the way he was all over her, I couldn't handle Edward saying it to my face. It would hurt too much, more than it already did.
After I ran home and threw up, last week, I fell asleep in the bathroom. Emmett came home and found me there. I saw the fear and concern in his eyes as he discovered me lying on the floor. All I could do was cry. I felt so embarrassed about what I had done, but I couldn't control myself after that. The past week I'd not been able to control myself at all. I was a total mess. Each time I saw Edward, heard about him, or even thought about him I would end up going to the toilet.
At first I played it off as being sick, but Emmett and everyone started to notice that I was avoiding Edward. They knew something was up. I said nothing to them but they ended up avoiding Edward too, knowing he was somehow involved. I didn't think they needed to avoid him, as well. They were his friends too. But I wanted nothing to do with him.
I'm at my locker pulling books out, and am about to walk away, when I hear him.
I freeze and slowly turn to face him, not wanting to look at his intense green eyes. As soon as I see him look at me I turn and speed away. I hear him call after me, but keep moving, until I feel his hand grab my arm and roughly turn me so that I'm facing him.
"Let me go Edward!" I fight against his grasp, but he holds me tightly.
"No Bella, I need to talk to you." He looks me straight in the eyes, and I notice his are filled with anger and worry. I do everything I can to look away and escape his hold. His eyes are burning a hole into mine.
"No, no we don't! I don't want anything to do with you! I never want to talk to you again, so leave me the FUCK alone, will you?!" I have never cursed at him before. This is the harshest thing I've ever said to anyone in my life. I don't know what else to say to him to make him understand how badly he has hurt me.
I feel him loosen his grip and I pull my arm away as fast as I can and run away. Of course I run to the bathroom.
"Bella?" someone calls to me. But I can't stop. Once I start it is impossible to stop.
"Bella I know you're here, I saw you run in." I hear her approach the stall I'm in.
After emptying myself I am so exhausted, from using all my muscles, that all I can do is lay my head on my arm that rests on the toilet. I know it's disgusting but I just can't hold my head up.
"Oh my god, Bella!" Alice runs to me and pulls me into her arms.
"Bella, what's going on? And don't tell me that you're just sick. This is a lot worse than the flu."
I don't respond at first. I don't know what to tell her. I don't know how I'm going to get out of this.
"Alice, I just don't get it. Am I really that ugly? Am I really that repulsive, that my best friend can't stand the sight of me?" I'm rambling, slowly letting my feelings out. But it's not enough.
"No, no, no Bella, of course not! What's happened? Will you please talk to me?" I can tell Alice is really scared. But all I can do is sob.
Slowly, my crying slows down.
"I think we should get you home." Alice helps me to my feet.
"No" I shake my head, "I gotta go to class. I can't let this get to me."
"Are you sure?"
I nod my head at her and wipe my eyes.
"Will you please tell me what's going on?" She pleads with puppy dog eyes.
"I will Alice, just not right now. Okay. I gotta get to class."
I hear Alice softly say okay as I head towards my class.
I enter the classroom, go straight to my seat and stare out of the window. I wipe my eyes on my sleeve and try to forget everything that has been happening.
"BELLA!" oh shit. Why can't he leave me alone!
I turn my head towards the class doorway. Edward stands there looking royally pissed. I am so scared. I have never seen him look like this, and it terrifies me.
I leave my seat, and run away yet again, out the back doors of the classroom. I reach my truck and open the door, thinking I am free and clear. Until someone pushes the door shut almost taking my fingers with it.
I feel my heart thrash in my chest as I look up at Edward.
"Edward, please, just please leave me alone." I beg him, and feel the tears coming, but I'm not going to let them fall in front of Edward.
"No Bella, I want to know. I want to know how you could do something like that!" He yells at me.
What's he talking about? Is this because I told him off? That can't be it. There is no way he could be this angry at me for that. I can understand him being furious, but this is terrifying.
"What are you talking about? What could I do to you to make you so angry at me?"
"Are you going to stand there and act like you don't know what I'm talking about?!"
"Well obviously I am, since I have no fucking clue why the hell you're so angry at me!" I feel my face go bright red with fury. How can he be blaming me for anything? I haven't done a single thing to cause him to yell at me like this.
"God Bella, you are so full of it! I'm done with your shit. I'm done with you. You want nothing to do with me? Well fine because I don't want any god damn thing to do with you! You're nothing to me but a FAT FUCKING WHORE!!" He spits these last three words while shoving his finger in my face. I can't control my tears anymore, and they roll down my face by the gallons.
I don't know when, but evidently at some point in are heated fight, Edward and I had attracted a small portion of the student population. They all watch Edward and me as if we were animals at a zoo. I start to feel as if I'm a live lamb being served to a hungry lion and every single one of these assholes loves it.
Yeah, who would want to miss a poor defenseless animal being ripped apart by a giant beast?
Where's Emmett when I need him?
Edward storms away from me and makes his way towards Tanya where she leans against her blue Mini cooper, a huge, fucking, ass grin on her face.
Some of the eyes of our spectators continue to watch Edward, while others stay on me and my quivering form.
Edward ignores them all and walks right up to Tanya, pushes her against her car, and kisses her fiercely.
I rip my car door open and fumble with my keys trying to put them into the ignition. My brain runs a thousand miles a minute. I need to get home, but it seems as if god's trying to make my life difficult.
I keep dropping my keys on to the floor below my feet and struggle to get them. I can hear the laughter build up outside of my truck as I fight to get the fucking thing started.
I finally stuff my key into the ignition and peal out of the parking lot as fast as possible and try to make my way home. I begin to think that I'm not going to make it with the constant tears in my eyes, blurring my vision. I'm waiting for the moment I run into a gutter and get stuck there or hit another car that will finally end my life.
I see the familiar white house and breathe a slight sigh of relief. I pull into the driveway and feel safe from Edward, at least for the moment.
I exit my truck and slam the door shut. I can't even take one step away from it. My body's so drained and worn out from the constant puking lately and running away from Edward, so I slide down the side of my truck. My ass hits the cold, wet pavement with a thud. I bring my knees to my chest and start crying like never before. My body convulses with sobs raking throughout my body.
There's no way of avoiding Alice and Emmett now. They're going to hear about what happened from the other students, so I'm going to have to tell them exactly what happened between Edward and me.
Edward. I know from this moment on he'll try his hardest to make my life a living hell, but I don't think I'll ever know exactly why.
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oh also as I side note, me and my sis went to go see Twilight again and we stayed during the credits and we found out that Rob's sister, Lizzi did some of the vocals in the movie. I thought that it was pretty interesting. Well anyways...