Chapter 12: Where Does That Leave Us

Disclaimer: I never have and never will own Twilight or its characters

Bella POV

Edward had called me that night after we saw each other. We talked on the phone for hours, just like we used to do when we were kids.

He asked me out to dinner on Friday night and of course I accepted. That was followed by another date which was shortly followed by another.

He introduced me to his new friends; the ones that helped him find me. I couldn't stop thanking them for bringing Edward back to me, but they just said they were happy to see us happy.

Edward and I had yet to discuss the things that had driven us apart all those years ago. I knew the topic was bound to come up soon, and I was dreading it.

Edward and I had another date tonight. We normally only went out on the weekend since I had to get up early for school. One those nights Edward usually came over to my apartment and we would just sit around and relax.

I didn't know what would be going tonight; Edward had kept it a secret. When I had reminded him I hated secrets he just laughed at me and said "something's never change."

I stood in front of my closet trying to decide what to wear. Edward said we weren't going anywhere fancy, but I still wanted to look nice for him. I decided on a royal blue sweater and black slacks. The two went well together and I wasn't over or under dressed. I didn't bother with jewelry; the only thing I ever wore was the promise ring Edward gave to me on our last Christmas together.

I looked over at my clock and decided to head out. I was supposed to meet Edward at his house. We actually didn't live far from one another making it easier for us to visit.

I parked m car in his drive and headed to the front door. We normally didn't spend much time at his place, I'm not sure why though. Edward was already at the door and had it open before I could even knock.

"Hello love." He said giving me a light kiss on the lips.

"Hello." I said back and allowed him to take my coat. "So what is this surprise you have for me?"

"We are eating dinner here tonight. I figured since you are always cooking for me it's time I returned the favor."

"You know you don't have to do that. I love cooking for you. It's nice to cook for more than one person."

"I know, but I want to"

Edward led me into the kitchen and poured me a glass of wine while he continued to cook. We talked about how our week went. I was busy grading papers while he was trying to write for his next album.

Edward ordered me into the dining room where the table was set and candles were lit all around. He carried in our dinner - baked ziti, and served it onto our plates.

From my seat at the table I had a perfect view of Edward's piano, and kept looking at it throughout our meal.

"Will you play for me?" I asked when we were finished.

"Of course." Edward smiled at me.

He offered me his hand and led me over to his piano. He pulled out the bench for me and we sat down next to each other. He began to play Lullaby.

It had been too long since I had last heard him play. My friends had begged me to come with them to see him in concert, but I always decided not to. It was would be too hard to see him without being able to talk to him after the show. Slowly Lullaby turned into my lullaby before that turned into our son's song.

"Are you okay?" Edward asked and stopped playing.

He cupped my face in his hand whipping away the tears that I didn't realized were falling.

"I miss him." I sobbed leaning into his touch.

"I know." He sighed.

"Do you think about him?"

"Every day. When I wake up in the morning and before I go to sleep at night."

"I do too. I wonder if he is happy and healthy. Do you think we did the right thing by giving him up?" I asked looking up into Edward's eyes.

"At the time I think it was, but now I'm not too sure." He explained with a sigh.

"What do you think would have happened if we had kept him?"

"I really don't know. We would probably still be in Forks."

"You would have never become famous."

"I might have. For all we know there could have been a Lifetime movie made about our little family."

This got a laugh from me.

"I think we could have done it. Raise our son and still make it in the real world. We would have been happy, just the three of us." I explained with a sigh

"We wouldn't have had these past five years apart." Edward said to me.

"Yea, being away from you was one of the hardest things, especially since I knew you were out there. Your face and music was pretty much everywhere I went. And you have made it quit hard to teach high school girls."

Now I got a laugh out of Edward.

"Well, we never have to worry about being apart again do we?" He asked me.

Edward leaned forward and pressed his lips to mine. Since meeting each other again we had been careful with our kisses. They were always light and normally not on the lips. But right now this is what I needed, what we needed.

Carefully Edward picked me up and carried me over to the couch laying me down carefully and his body covering mine. We slowly started to take off each other's clothes re-learning the different parts of our bodies and what places were the best to touch to get the reaction we wanted from one another.

"Hang on a sec." Edward said giving me a quick kiss on the lips then running off. He came back with a condom in his hand.

"So you want to be safe now." I joked

"Yeah well.... we.... well, always have to be protected." he said sounding a little nervous.

"You were going to say mistake, weren't you?" I asked. Edward just looked down. "It's okay. I guess in most people's eyes they would see our son as a mistake. But I think he was meant to happen."

"Couldn't agree with you more." Edward leaned back down over me.

I took the condom from his hand and pulled it out from the wrapped. Slowly I rolled it over his enlarged member and watched his reaction to me touching him.

It didn't take long for us to remember how well we fit together. We both let out loud moans when Edward entered me. It felt so good to have him inside of me, I felt complete once again.

Edward started a slow pace letting me adjust to his size and feel our every movement. With my encouragement his pace started to get faster and my own hips started moving on their own accord to meet his. Together we came, screaming out each other's names, just like we used to do.

Once we both came down from our high Edward slowly pulled out of me and laid down next to me on the couch. He pulled the throw over our bodies and pulled me in close.

"You know I haven' been with anyone since you." I told Edward once we were settled.

"Really?" he asked sounding surprised.

"Yea I did date here and there, but I never felt that right spark to go all the way."

"Even with Mike Newton."

"OH shut up." I laughed and playfully hit him on the chest. "What about you? And don't get all modest on me. I read the tabloids and all those online sites."

"Well a majority of those things are false. I guess you are aware of my big thing with Tanya Denali." I nodded my head yes. "I never took it seriously, but of course she did. I felt so bad for her that I took her to bed. It was nowhere near as good as what we just did."

"We do have something special going on, don't we?" I asked giving him a smile.

"That we do." He answered.

Edward kissed the top of my head and tightened his grasp on me. I snuggled closer to his body and placed my head on his chest. I was about to fall asleep when I hear Edward's voice.

"What did you say?" I mumbled.

"I asked if you would like to find him."

"Find who?" I asked my brain was a little muddled from almost falling asleep.

"Our son." Edward answered, now that woke me up.

"Could we really do that?" I asked sitting up to look Edward in the eyes.

"I don't see why we can't try. We can ask Esme, Carlisle, Rosalie, and Emmett to help, too. But Bella I have to warn you, there is a good chance we don't find him. Social services are good at keeping closed adoptions a secret."

"I know, but trying is better than nothing right?"

"Right. First thing in the morning I'll call Carlisle up and see if he can find out anything at the hospital."

"First thing in the morning." I yawned.

I let me head fall back onto Edward's chest. In the comfort of his arms it didn't take me long to fall asleep.

A/N: End of chapter 12! I need to thank my amazing beta, luv2beloved, for reading this over for me. She does a great job!

Sorry it took so long to update. It was finals at school and pretty much paper, after paper, after paper, and then after all that was finished I had to pack. So I really didn't have much time to sit down and type any of my chapters up. But I am on summer break now so hopefully I can get my chapters up faster...well except for the next one. Its that time again, chapter 13. So while it may take awhile to get the chapter you will get two of them in a row!

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