Chapter one

I looked around my black and purple room, I did not want to go to school, what kid does, but of course that doesn't change a thing. School is school and I am the unfortunate student, just my luck. I'm dreading science class I think the teacher has it out for me, he's always watching me to see if I'm going to do something wrong so he can give me detention, but that would just make my parents happy. Ugh I hate this family. Before walking down stairs I went to the mirror and tried to fix my hair, it never wants to agree with me, stubborn hair. I curled the ends of my long brown hair and put eyeliner around my eyes; I grabbed my book bag and walked down the stairs the kitchen.

I walked in and saw my mom half awake at the counter and Charlie's eyes glued to the TV, he never really cared about me. I quietly picked up a granola bar and tried to leave without being noticed when my dad called me. I reluctantly turned around and asked,


"You're making dinner tonight and babysitting Alex" he said

"Dad I'm suppose to go to the mall with Alice and Rose" I yelled, I told him this yesterday.

"Are you complaining?!" Charlie yelled

"No sorry sir" I whispered, last time I went against him, it wasn't good.

"Go" he commanded. I felt anger explode within me, but I was scared by him and he knew it, you could see the joy in his eyes when he punished you. I turned from him and when out to my motorcycle, which I call baby. Baby was sitting next to the curb, everyone loved baby.

I don't hate my parents; I just hate what they've done. My baby brother calls me mommy because I'm the closest thing he has to a mother, my mom doesn't even notice him. I have to be his mother and it puts pressure on me that a normal kid shouldn't have to go through, but I have no right to judge them because I'm not perfect either.

I pulled up to the school and jumped off baby. Every morning I have to prepare myself for the immense boredom I have to face that day. School's right for some people, but for me it's a living hell. I pulled my coat tighter around me and walked into the building. Everyone knows everyone here because this town is so small, eventually kids want a scenery change so they run away, this town is known for its runaways. I've wanted to runaway since I was five but the only thing stopping me is Alex, I will never leave him alone in that house like I was, I can still remember the fear, the pain and above all the loneliness. My parents were never there for me and they never will be. The warm air brushed against my face as I walked in the doors, I headed for my locker, and all I have to do now is wait ten seconds before I get attacked by Alice.

I started to put my books away when I felt someone behind me; I assumed it was Alice so I started to talk.

"So about our conversation last night, I still don't know what I should do. Should I tell him or should I let him figure it out on his own?" I turned around and found that Alice wasn't behind me, but Jasper. "Jasper why didn't you tell me it was you!" I shouted

"Woo chill, so what did you need to tell me?" he asked, he must have noticed my confused look because he continued, "What you were saying when you thought I was Alice. Did you finally realize you're in love with me?" he joked

"Yes Jasper I finally realized that this passion I feel is love!" I joked, ever since we took a compatibility test and it said we were soul mates we've joked about our love, even though we don't like each other.

"Oh no don't tell anyone"


"Oh god" I was freaking out; Alice was walking towards me with a book in her hands, my book.

"What the hell is this? You think I'm a violent, human eating pixie!" She yelled, I glared at Jasper, he had no right to show her our note, I'm going to kill him, if I make it out alive. I haven't seen her, this pissed since I put glue on her seat and blamed it on Emmett. He screamed like a girl and ran around the school. I smiled at the memory but it instantly vanished when I remembered what was happening.

"Alice it was a joke" I couldn't tell her the truth, her violence would come out more.

"A JOKE! You think this is funny! It really hurt me" Ah my bi polar friend. Tears started to form, but quickly vanished, she would never cry in front of her "love" Jasper, even though he's too stupid to figure it out.

"Sorry Alice, I would never want to hurt you, your one of my best friends, speaking of which, where the hell is Rose, she's suppose to be here by now." I told them, she was never here on time, it drove me crazy.

"Relax Bells she'll be here. So were still on for tonight right?" Jasper asked us, it's our tradition to go to the mall every Friday.

"Oh right I forgot, I'm watching Alexander tonight" I would never leave him alone with them again, well at least if I can help it.

"Just bring him with us; he does everything you say anyway. He should be okay." Rose said walking up behind Jasper.

"I thought you were going to skip again" I said

"I would never want to miss an exciting day at school" she joked, she hated school more than me, but for reasons.

"Don't worry we just have to have Lauren walk in wearing one of her miniskirts and were good" I said

"Or we could do what we did last time" Jasper suggested, I cursed him in my mind for even think of the idea.

Flash back

"Bells please he's so perverted, I can't go into his class. Please can you do this for me" Rose pleaded using the full force of her eyes.

"Fine but only once" I told her. I walked into the bathroom were Alice was waiting with a bag of clothes for me. She handed me the bag and shoved me into the vacant stall. I locked the door and pulled out the extremely short mini skirt, ugh I do anything for my friends. I slipped the miniskirt on and put on a blouse that way a little bit to revealing, she so owes me for this. All I have to do is act like Lauren and he would leave Rose alone, but that meant that he would never leave me alone, ugh why did this school have to have a perverted teacher. I put my clothes in the bag and walked out of the stall.

"I look like a slut" I complained

"But a hot slut, now move it Rose is counting on you" Alice said while pushing me out the door.

End of Flash back

I shuttered at the memory, it was disgusting.

"No way, never again" I would never do that again.

"I understand if I were you I wouldn't either." Rose said

"I really hate you now"

"Why?" she asked

"You should know, you did it on purpose. Just give me the clothes" I hated doing this, it felt gross. I slipped in the bathroom and changed, this is the last time I'm ever doing this. I pulled the silk shirt over my head and pulled the mini skirt up, this should be interesting.

I walked out of the bathroom and went into Chris's Science class. Mr. Banner was sitting at his desk; all I had to do was distract him so Chris could get in unnoticed. I walked up to him and cleared my throat.

"Hello Mr. Banner I had a question on the project" I placed the paper on his desk and leaned over it, I could feel his stare on me, I was ready to barf. I cleared my throat again trying to get his attention.

"What exactly am I suppose to do?" I asked. I heard the door squeak open and a chair slide back. Mr. Banner started to explain but I didn't listen, I had already finished the project a week ago.

"Is there anything else you need me for?" he asked, okay I was really going to barf now.

"No I'm good thank you" I turned around and walked out of his class room. That wasn't as bad as last time, but at least I would never have to do it again. I could feel him staring down my shirt, nasty. I walked into the bathroom and changed back into my dark wash skinny jeans and my black linkin park shirt. This was one hell of a day, and it only just began. The bell rang as I walked out of the bathroom, of course I was going to be late, but Ms. Raven never minded I'm her favorite student. I could feel every one staring at me, but I couldn't tell why, it was really starting to bother me. I walked into Ms. Raven's class and suddenly the talking stopped and all eyes shifted to me, I walked to the back of the room and sat in the only empty seat next to Jessica.

"Wow you're so strong; I bet you could lift me" Jessica said to Emmett. He rolled his eyes and turned away, she didn't get that she was just rejected so she kept talking.

"So what can you lift, like two hundred pounds, 'cause that's like so cool." She was starting to bother me so I decided to save Emmett.

"Jessica you might want to run I hear the mental ward is looking for you" I told her, she shifted in her seat, sticking her butt towards Emmett.

"Like what are you, like talking about. Why would the mental ward be, like looking for me" She asked

"Oh do you need so ice 'cause you just got burned" Emmett said, he was laughing so hard he was clutching the table.

"Ugh whatever" she huffed and turned back to the board. I smiled at him and faced the front of the room where Ms. Raven started to teach.

I zoned out twenty minutes into class, English is the easiest subject for me. A piece of paper folded into a square landed next to my hand on my desk, I picked it up and saw in large print it said Bella, I unfolded it and started to read.

Bella, do you want to go out with me this Friday?


I looked at Eric, he was gazing intensely at the board like it was going to disappear any second, I laughed at took out my pen.


I would love to, but I'm going to the mall with Rose, Alice, Jasper and Emmett, you could come too if you want.


I passed the note to Emmett and pointed into the direction of Eric, he nodded and tossed it at Eric's head, but because of the stare down he was having with the board the paper hit him in the head. Eric shook his head and looked around to see what hit him; he noticed the paper and lifted it to his desk. He carefully unfolded it and read it; I could see his smile slowly drift into a frown when he reached the bottom. I didn't know what to say, I didn't like him, but I didn't want to hurt him so I said I was out with friends, he'd understand. I turned back to the window and stared at a bird landing in the brook, its life is so easy, and it never has to worry about anything. I pulled my cell phone out of my purse and checked the time; class was going to end in one minute. I couldn't wait to go home and take my brother out of the house; he's too young to go to school. He's only two so he stays with my parents.

My parents are home because they don't work, they get money from my mom's mom, my grandma is the best person in the world, and she tried to take me out of the house but lost. Two girls in front of me started whispering, but all I could make out was my name.

The bell rang, I stood up and put my books in my bag and walked out of class. I didn't want to be late to my next class, science, with the perverted Mr. Banner. This couldn't be good, after the stunt this morning I'm sure to get special treatment, ugh I hate this school. I went to my locker and switched my books and walked to science. I opened the door and felt Mr. Banner stare drift towards me and never leave, it made me feel like I'm being stalked. I moved to my seat at the back and waited for my partner to arrive.

I pulled out my notebook and started to draw aimlessly, when I heard the chair next to me squeak. I looked up and was met with a pair of deep green eyes; I loved his eyes, not only because of the rich color but because of the depth behind them. Edward's bronze hair was hanging in his face from running, he grabbed his books and smiled at me, I smiled back and faced the teacher, who of course was staring at me. I ducked my head and cover my face with my hand, I couldn't stand him and his creepy eyes, he's so perverted and he's OLD, it's wrong to be perverted and old.

A piece of paper was shoved in front of me, I unfolded it and read.

Why does Mr. Banner keep staring at you?

I looked up and like always he was staring at me. I took the pen out of Edward's hand and wrote my reply.

I don't know what you're talking about

That was the safest route; I pushed the paper back to him and felt my phone vibrate. I took it out and read the text from Emmett.

Love birds in the house right Bella

I quickly typed my reply.


U and Edward I'm sitting right behind you, he typed, shit he saw me stare at Edward.

Ur lying, you really r bad at that even on paper

Shut up I wrote, I would never tell him about that.

R the rumors true

What rumors?

U know the one I heard from Lauren and Jessica Oh god, this is not good.

I looked at him and noticed that he was looking at me, what could they say about me, well actually I could think of a lot of things they could say. I shook my head and looked away from his sad face. This wasn't good, what does he think of me now, wait why do I care? My brain hurts from this, school is suppose to be easy not so confusing. I felt my phone vibrate again; I pulled it out and noticed I had a text from Andrea. I hate her, but her information is always true so I might as well answer it.

Bella did you hear about Edward

No should I have


Oh and it's Isabella

Whatever, do u want to hear?


He used Jessica


U know, don't play dumb

Fine but I don't believe it

Of course you don't, that's why you keep sneaking peeks at him

Just shut up

I closed my phone, was she right, did he use Jessica? I couldn't look at him, I was afraid she was telling the truth. She always tells me the truth when it comes to gossip. I looked up at the board and took detailed notes.

The class ended quickly after that, I was relieved. I believed Andrea, why shouldn't I she has no reason to lie to me. I walked to my locker and waited for my friends to show up. I didn't want to think about Edward any more, but as soon as I thought that, Edward stepped in front of me.

"Bella I was wondering if you wanted to sit with me at lunch?" he asked, now he has to ask me, why not before I heard the information.

"Um can't" I told him and turned away. He put his hand on my shoulder and stopped me.

"Are you okay, did I do something to offend you?" he asked, just looking into his hurt green eyes was making me break, but I didn't want to be used.

"You should know" I told him then walked away, I wasn't going to be like Jessica. He stared after me, like a lost puppy almost. It made my heart ache, but I couldn't take away that look because I caused it.