It feels strange to post fanfiction after such a long break. Very short, and feels weirdly unfinished, even though I have nothing more to say. But it's PeinKonan because I felt like it - the only reason I ever have for writing about those two.

Disclaimer: Naruto, Pein and Konan do not belong to me...although frankly, if you read this anywhere but here, it'd be difficult to tell that it even had anything to do with Naruto.


Non-Existent Answer

by LutraShinobi

Is it love?

He says no. He says no because there is no attraction. He looks at her all the time, knows her from head to foot, and he would know her just as well if she was twisted and crippled and wrinkled. Ugly is the same as beautiful with her and with him. He says no because love is so broad and so vague that it doesn't mean anything. If nobody knows what it is, if nobody understands it, it cannot exist. Knowing is everything, and understanding is the rest. Love, for them, is nothing in between.

Is it love?

He says maybe. He says maybe because he knows that he doesn't know everything, and so perhaps if he says no he's wrong and it's really yes. He says maybe because she is always the one who reminds him that he doesn't know everything, and she is the one who makes that okay. He says maybe because he is weak, and after long days of commands that can't be retracted, that are concrete and constant, he wavers and says maybe. He says maybe because people listen less to a maybe, and that means he will not have to explain himself. Maybe is the easy path, so maybe it's wrong. Because love is not easy. Is it? He says maybe to that too.

Is it love?

He says yes. He says yes because it is all that fits - because no is nothing, and maybe is not enough. Yes is too much, but more is less with him and her. He says yes because he knows she won't take it the wrong way. He says yes because he has grown up with her, had her at his side all this time, and he can still look at her the same way now. It's either absence of love or love; they've passed medium by now. He is into extremes. He says yes because there are more answers to that question than just three, millions more, but because he doesn't want to think further than this one. It cuts too deep.

Is it love?

He says nothing, but he thinks, and she listens.


A/N: Lately I've been listening to a lot of music by Joe Hisaishi (he writes the music for the studio Ghibli anime movies, I'm sure you've heard of them - Princess Mononoke, Spirited Away, My Neighbor Totoro, etc.). It gives me chills...so beautiful, makes me feel real movement inside. Maybe this weird little entry is somewhat inspired by some of those melancholy melodies. I love those movies so much.