Ok, so yeah….I'm in the doghouse! Lol! Sorry! I've been busy and lazy. I know you don't want to hear it so I'll just get to the point. I can't promise to update often, but I will do my best. Thank you to the people who have still been reading and busting my chops to review! Hahaha! It helped!
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Without further adieu, here's chapter 11!!
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I was just about to get into my car, when I heard Alice yell after me. "Bella! Don't leave! We just haven't met anyone like you before. You are truly a marvel. Please just help us understand and then we'll help you. We can't help you when we don't know what's going on."
I turned around to see looks of sincerity across their faces, well of course except for Rosalie. I slowly started to walk back to the Cullens and stopped when I was about five feet away from each of them.
I looked at each of the Cullens, eye to eye, and asked, "What do you want to know?"
After a few hours of questioning and testing me, I was faced with a question of my own. Where was I going to stay? My home, my place of safety had been taken away from me. It was tainted by those vampires that took away my parent's lives, and mine in turn. I already fled from Phoenix, was I willing to flee Forks too, especially now that I had others who understood what I was going through.
I shifted uncomfortably in my seat, out of habit. Jasper, noticing my distress, asked, "What's troubling you, Bella?"
Just like that, all the eyes were on me once again. "I… Um… I just don't know where to go. I fled Phoenix because of my mom, but I can't flee Forks because I have you guys now. I can't go home though. I can't stand to live in the place where my father was just killed, where all his blood was drained from his body, where he took his last breath, when it should have been me and not him. I just- I just can't take this again. I just lost my mom, and now I have to deal with my dad's death too? How am I supposed to handle this?!"
I felt a hand on my shoulder and looked up to see Esme. She crouched down to my level, grabbed my hand and said, "Bella, honey, it'll be all right. You can stay here as long as you like. We have an extra room that we can make into a bedroom for you. We won't make you go back to a place that would haunt you."
A tear rolled down my cheek as a small, almost undecipherable, smile brushed across my lips. "Esme, as much as I would appreciate that, I couldn't possibly accept. It wouldn't feel right of me to put all of you in even more danger. I wouldn't be able to live with myself if anything were to happen to any of you."
Carlisle stood up and walked over to me and crouched down right beside Esme. "Bella, we already told you we're not letting you do this alone. For as long as you want, you have a place here."
They both, then, wrapped their arms around me and gave me a hug. It was a hug of pure comfort and love that it could have made a dead man's cold heart beat again.
I pulled away from the hug after a moment passed and whispered my acceptance of their offer.
About an hour later and we were en route to my old house. I knew that my dad wasn't going to be there to greet me anymore. He wasn't going to be sleeping across the hall from me, he wasn't going to watch any more games, wasn't going to eat any more meals that I prepare for him, wasn't even going to breathe. Those thoughts choked me as we approached the driveway.
The cars slowed to a stop and we all climbed out of them. I led the group up to the house and onto the porch. I reached into my pocket and grabbed the key. As I put the key into the slot, I froze. He wasn't there. He wouldn't ever be there again. My hand remained on the doorknob with the key unturned. I couldn't force myself to turn the key, so I just stood there, frozen.
After a short while, when the Cullens realized I wasn't going to be doing anything, I felt a hand cover mine. I looked up into the eyes of Edward, my Edward. He was all that I had now, really, all that I had to look forward to.
He guided my hand to unlock the door. The key turned and with a click, announced to us that it was unlocked and ready to be opened. We opened the door and stepped over the threshold. The scent of bleach was evident in the air as we got farther into the house I once called a home. I walked up the stairs by myself, but felt the others following behind.
I gathered what I wanted into suitcases and boxes I had. My pictures, my books, my music, my clothes, basically everything with sentimental and practical purposes, were all packed. The boys all brought everything I packed downstairs and into the cars.
I walked across the hall and into my father's room for the final time. I turned on the light and looked around. Nothing changed in here, even though it seemed impossible as my whole life had changed. I walked in and let my hand ghost over all the bureaus, the walls, the pictures, just trying to put everything to memory.
After an unknown amount of time, Edward appeared in the doorway. "Bella, it's time to go now."
I rose from the bed and walked over to him. I held out my hand for him to take and he instantly did so. On our way out of the room, I paused and turned around for one last time to remember my father's room. About a minute later, I turned back to Edward and we left the room.
When we got downstairs, I noticed the others were waiting in the cars. I knew they did this so that I could say goodbye in peace and was extremely grateful for that.
I looked around, just as I had in my father's room and just tried to remember the good memories. Each memory played in my mind like a movie as I made my way to the door.
Once in the doorway, I moved to turn off the lights and then proceeded to shut the door. And that was it. I closed the door to my passed, all the while opening another to my future. My future with Edward and the rest of the Cullens. I was moving on.
Well, there you have it! Chapter 11 of Defrost. I know it took over a year to do but I needed to get motivated again. And to be honest, I forgot pretty much everything I wrote before and had to skim the earlier chapters. Tell me if I did something wrong!!
And thank you so much for being patient and sticking with me!!!