A/N: Well you guys, here it is! The Epilogue to this epic story. I apologize for the wait! I passed 200 reviews for this story!! I can't tell you how happy I was. So, I really hope you guys enjoy this....
They say that time heals all wounds.
And, for the past two years, I've come to heavily rely on that statement.
For two years I have struggled. Struggled to retain all the memories of my past before I was taken away and basically given a brand new identity.
It wasn't easy. In fact, it was horrible in the beginning. The Cullens, though they were only trying to help, ended up driving me insane. I never told them that though. The only person who knew was Jasper. And that's only because he could read my emotions and could tell that I would get upset. But, I never really was mad at them. I was more so mad at myself for not being able to remember the things they were telling me about.
Take one morning about six months after I had been back. At that point, I hadn't remembered anything. We were all sitting around in the living room, listening to some of the random things that Emmett has done over his life.
"Oh God, remember that time I couldn't find Sofia when she was like four months old?" he shook his head. And even though his laughed was infectious, I couldn't laugh along with them.
Sofia. Four months old. Another memory I had no recollection of.
I quickly excused myself from the room. Jasper tried to follow me but I just shook my head, silently telling him that I wanted to be alone. He frowned but gave me my space.
I ended up on the floor, up against the wall of the bathroom, letting me emotions just flow freely. Every time I was around the others, I tried to not let my emotions to get the best of me. I didn't want them to feel bad. Just because I was feeling pathetic didn't mean I needed an entire pity party joining me.
I had been so wrapped up in my emotions that I was vaguely aware of someone coming inside the bathroom and sitting beside me.
You know, hiding your emotions isn't the best thing. I looked over and saw Edward staring at me, a calm expression on his face. I was getting better with the names. I may not remember much else about them but at least I remembered their names. Edward's especially. Being as he was a mind reader and all.
'I don't want you guys feeling sorry for me. It's not fair.'
Don't be ridiculous Nadia, we all love you and just want you to get better.
Get better? He made it sound like I had some kind of disease. I guess in a way, I did. Some awful case of amnesia.
"I just want to remember." I whispered "That's all I want."
"You can't give up Nadia. Things like this take time. You can't expect to remember everything in one day do you?"
"No" I shrugged "But, that is my daughter and husband out there. And I don't remember a single thing about my life with them before I came back. How is that fair to them!" I placed my head in my hands and just started sobbing, every emotion catching up with me.
"Shh, Nadia…" Edward wrapped an arm around my shoulders and brought me closer, letting me rest my head on his shoulder "It's going to be alright." He rubbed my arm gently, trying to soothe me. It wasn't really working.
"How do you know?" I spoke in between my sobs.
"Well, I don't." he confessed. "But, I know that Jasper loves you very much. I know you don't remember and it might be hard to believe but you and I argued a lot about you and Jasper's relationship when you two first got together."
That got my attention.
"Really?" I looked over at him "I always thought you looked like the arrogant type." I laughed a bit, wiping my tears with the back of my hand.
"Yes well, you're still a very stubborn woman." He scoffed. "No matter how long you were gone, it seems as though your personality hasn't changed. Which leads me to believe that all the memories of Jasper and Sofia are still buried somewhere inside of your head and heart. It will just take some time for them to come back to you."
"Thanks Edward. I think I needed to that. I mean, how could those memories just have disappeared? Jasper's told me countless stories about the two of us. Some of them cute…some of them difficult…and even a few sexy moments…"
"Uh, Nadia…no offense, but I don't want to hear that right now. I already hear about it from him through his thoughts. Take last night for example…" he winced a bit and I pushed his shoulder playfully.
"Oh, god." I blushed, remembering just what exactly happened the night before. "Sorry about that. Jasper tells me he still has issues with his self control. I guess that extends to his thoughts as well."
"Yes, apparently it does. But, we've all lived in the same house for decades and I know how he functions. And let me tell you Nadia, after you came into his life, he truly changed into a better person. And when you were gone, it was absolute torture for him even when he was away from us." I cringed when he said that. It hadn't been easy for him to tell me that he had left our daughter behind for five years. He was afraid that I would be upset with him. But, I assured him that he did what he did with Sofia's best intentions in mind. I could never hate him. Ever.
"I know." I gave him a small smile "We've changed each other." And with that, I went back out to where the rest of the family was, putting my mini breakdown behind me.
After that day, I stopped trying to push myself to the limit. I figured that if I was ever going to remember, it would just come to me naturally.
And after I stopped pushing myself, things just seemed to get easier for me and everyone else around me. They were no longer concerned about walking eggshells around me. When they brought up a memory I didn't know about, I would just ask them to tell me more about it instead of just getting upset about it.
Instead, I just focused on the present and watching my children grow up with both their parents. If possible, Sofia was becoming more beautiful with each passing day. I got to be with her to celebrate her ninth and tenth birthday. Although it didn't make up for the ones that I had missed, Sofia didn't seem to mind. She was just happy that I was with her now. And I planned on being there for each and every one of her birthdays for the rest of her life.
And then there was Ethan. My son was so much like his father. They even had the same type of personalities. Hunting was something that was just second nature to him, always going out with the other guys, having a good time. He was technically nine years old now but, he still looked like a seventeen year old. Carlisle says that he will probably stay this way forever. Which, at the moment, is just fine by Ethan.
Just like his father, he knows the effect he can have on young woman and he uses it to his advantage all the time. Jasper thinks it's funny, but I don't. As a mother, it's only natural to be worried about her son getting his heart broken by some girl. On the other hand, Jasper is already terrified of the thought of Sofia dating someone. She's just a little girl but he's already psyching himself out.
But personally, between him and Emmett (I learned early on that Sofia was Emmett's singer, and protector), I don't think anyone will be coming near Sofia anytime soon.
And there is my husband. My wonderful, devoted husband. He has been my rock through everything. As promised, he has not once left my side. Even during the moments when I wanted him nowhere near me. He has never given up on me. Every night before I go to sleep, he tells me about a certain memory or two from the past. It's nice to hear those things right before I fall asleep. Even though some of those memories aren't exactly the best.
One thing is for certain, the bond that two of us have is unlike anything I have ever experienced before. When the two of us are together, it's like nothing else exists in this world. He is literally my other half, the one who completes me.
And oh, god when the two of us are intimate, it is unlike anything I have experienced before. Well, technically I have experienced it before but, being as I don't remember it, it's always like the first time. Every touch, every kiss sends me into overdrive sometimes. He is a man who knows what he wants, how to get it, and always makes sure it's a memorable experience for me. And it makes me love him even more.
And now here we are, two years later and life is perfect. Well, as perfect as my life can get. I still don't remember everything but, little bits and pieces have started coming back to me. Nothing major but I'll take what I can get with immense gratitude.
Today the house is buzzing with a lot of activity. It is a big day after all.
Today Alice and Jonathan are getting married. Shortly after I returned, Alice changed him into a vampire and the two of them have spent the past two years getting his bloodlust under control. He actually didn't have a hard time with it. I think it's because he loves Alice so much and he was willing to do just about anything to make her happy. Those two love one another so much.
The wedding is set for five, just as the sun will be setting, the two of them will be getting married in this beautiful garden here in Paris. It's utterly perfect for the two of them.
"Jasper, if I mess up this dress, Alice is going to kill me." I sighed, leaning back against him after he helped me zip it up.
"But I love it when you wear dresses" his fingertips danced lightly over my shoulders and up and down my arms. "It give me easier access." He whispered in my ear.
"You said the exact same thing after Sofia was born." I shook my head at him and laughed gently. His movements suddenly stopped and he turned me around quickly so I could face him.
"What did you just say?" He looked down at me.
"I said you told me the same thing the day Sofia…." I stopped and gasped, my eyes widening.
"Oh my god." I whispered looking at Jasper. "Oh, God…I remembered something!"
"Do you remember anything else??" He asked, such hope in his eyes. I closed my eyes for a few moments, seeing if anything would come to me.
Suddenly, my mind was filled with all kinds of images.
"When you proposed, you played and sang to me…when we got married, your vows were amazing…the day we found out Sofia was just like me, I practically pounced on you in the living room…." I rambled on for the next few minutes about all kinds of memories. And when I was done, I was out of breath and in tears.
"I remember Jasper…." I sighed, wrapping my arms around him, just having him hold me as tightly as possible. "I remember it all…"
"Oh god angel, you don't know how long I've waited for you to be able to remember everything. I know it's been killing you to not be able to remember everything. But, now I know that you're completely here with us now…forever."
"I love you so much." I cried, pulling away from him so I could see his eyes. And sure enough, they were reflecting the exact same emotions that I was feeling.
He pulled me back to him, letting every single emotion he was feeling flow right between us.
As much as I would've loved to just stay in this moment forever, I knew that Alice would probably come to look for me at any moment.
"We have to go." I sighed against him. His response was to just to pull me closer.
"No we don't." he argued.
"I don't know about you but I personally don't feel like being attacked by the bride to be." I laughed when he quickly pulled away.
"No, I already went through that once. I'm not going through it again." He shook his head.
"Alright, well let's go. Will you check on Ethan, make sure he's doing whatever it is he's supposed to be doing?"
"Yes." He kissed my forehead quickly and we were on our way.
Having remembered nearly everything from my past should've been cause for a momentous celebration but, at the moment, there were much more important things to take care of. It was all about Alice today. It was her day and all the spotlight deserved to be put on her.
Of course, I should've known that wouldn't be the case. The moment I walked into the room, she practically squealed and gave me a tight embrace.
"You remembered Nadia! Oh god this is just perfect!! And on my wedding day no less." She practically bounced with excitement.
"I can't even tell you how excited I am Alice. I feel like I'm at such peace now."
"This is just fantastic. Now come so Rosalie can do your hair." She quickly turned the attention back towards the wedding. As I sat there and Rosalie fixed my hair, I looked over at Alice and the wedding dress she was wearing.
"Alice, I thought you were going to wear something a bit more….extravagant?"
"Oh no!" she sighed "I already did that once. I just wanted simple, cute and lots of lace!" she sighed, twirling around in her dress a few times.
"Then why am I dressed up so much?" I glanced down at the dress that she had picked out for me. It was a fuchsia silk chiffon floor length dress.
"Oh Nadia." Alice waved her hand at me "I couldn't have my maid of honor wearing just anything now could I? You're the only wedding party I have. I had to make sure you looked good." She smiled at me.
I still thought it was a bit weird that she would pick her ex husband and the woman who basically took him away from her to be her maid of honor and best man. But, it was Alice and most of what she did and said didn't really make sense half the time. So, I just had to go with it, trusting whatever she said.
At around four, it was time get going. The wedding wasn't going to be a big affair. It was going to be all of us and a few of Jonathan's family members who had been flown out for the wedding. I wondered if they would be able to tell that their son had been changed. I don't know what he looked like before he was changed so I couldn't tell. The two of them had conveniently decided that it would just be a ceremony before the two of them would leave for their honeymoon.
We took two cars, being as there were twelve of us. As we drove to the wedding venue, I began to wonder. Now that I was starting to remember things, would that mean that we would be leaving the Cullens? Would the four of us go off and just be a family all on our own?
I personally wasn't sure what to think. On the one hand, I would love for all four of us just to start over. But, on the other hand, both Ethan and Sofia loved their family very much and I know that they would miss them tremendously if we were to just pick up and leave. I would have to talk about it with Jasper tonight when we got back home.
If it came down to it, we could always just move to another spot in the city, that way we could still be on our own but still close to one another.
When we reached the gardens, the sun had already begun to set. We had perfect timing.
The ceremony was beautiful. It was simple and short but extremely emotional. Well, for me anyways. I had tears in my eyes as I heard the two of them recite their vows to one another. They were so perfect together. And if anyone deserved happiness, it was Alice. She had given me so much, the least she deserved was someone who would love her forever.
In a way, she had literally given me Jasper without a fight. According to her, she wasn't about to 'mess with the fates.' And now it seemed like things had come full circle. She had gotten her happily ever after.
When it was all said and done, Alice looked like the happiest woman on the planet. She was smiling so much.
I was standing there talking with Alice when I felt Jasper come up and join us.
"I have something to say." He looked at me and I immediately stopped my conversation with Alice as the two of us looked at him.
"Now, I know that today is supposed to be your special day Alice and I in no way want to take away any of your spotlight but, you all are already here and I think right now would be the perfect time."
I looked at him, a bit confused. What was he talking about? A perfect time for....oh! All my thoughts stopped when he came around to stand in front of me and he slowly dropped on one knee.
"Oh, god." I whispered to myself.
"Nadia, I know that we're still technically married but, I would love nothing more than to get married to you again, right now. Here in front of our family. Even though you're starting to remember everything again, I want to create this new memory with you. Marking it as the start of our new lives together, forever." He pulled out a black box and opened it, revealing a orange colored sapphire ring.
I gaped at it for a few moments, just in awe of the beauty of it.
"What do you say angel? Will you marry me again?" I looked and met his gaze. He was pulling in with those amber colored eyes of his. They held such love and devotion.
"Jasper.." I shook my head "I will marry you right now, tomorrow…fifty years from now if it means getting to spend forever with you." I nodded at him, excitement flying off of me as he took the ring out and slipped it on my finger.
He stood, wrapped an arm around me as the two of us looked over at our family. They were all staring back with knowing smiles.
"Did you guys know about this?" I looked at them all.
"Yes!" Alice laughed "It's been the hardest secret I've ever had to keep!" she clapped her hands.
Suddenly, my attire seemed to make sense. Sneaky vampires!
"Come Nadia." Jasper grabbed my hand as we walked over to where Alice had just gotten married not more than twenty minutes ago. She was quite the woman. Letting me get married again on the same day, in the exact same spot that she had.
The ceremony took all but twenty minutes. I had no vows but they weren't really necessary at this point. I just promised Jasper that I would love him forever and be the best wife that I could be. He knew everything else about how I felt. He gave me a short, condensed version of our previous vows, promising to never leave my side and to protect me with everything he had. This time at the end though, he added 'you will always be my beautiful singer who I will personally make sure will not go anywhere for all of eternity.'
I felt him sending me waves of love and desire as he went it to kiss me when it was all said and done. He perhaps overdid it because I was kissing him as though my life depended on it. He wasn't complaining but, I could hear our kids in the background making typical comments about their parents. When I pulled away, I was breathing heavily, the lingering lust still there.
"Ew, mom!" Sofia covered her eyes and Jasper and I just laughed. He kept his arms wrapped around me tightly and just basked in the fact that he and I were officially married again.
"Are you guys going on a honeymoon or something now?" Ethan joked.
"Actually…" Jasper began and I turned to look at him.
"We can't go someplace. Our kids…"
"Nadia." Rosalie came up to me "The kids will be taken care of." She hugged me and then walked away.
"I actually just planned just a day or two…just the two of us. We wouldn't even leave the city. We could just be alone?" he looked at me with hopeful eyes. And I knew exactly what the word 'alone' signified.
And personally, the mere thought of would what happen during those two days made for a nice warm feeling to flow all through my system.
"That settles that." Jasper grabbed me by the hand as we said bye to everyone.
"Behave you two." I kissed Sofia and Ethan.
"Should I say the same to you two?" he laughed and I sent him a 'mom' glare. He frowned and looked over at Emmett who was laughing at that statement. "Sorry mom."
"I love you baby." I hugged him "And stop hanging around with Emmett so much. He's rubbing off on you." I shook my head.
I was led away from the gardens to where there was a car waiting for us.
"You really had all this planned out didn't you?" I asked him once we were in the car, off to who knows where.
"I did." He winked "You're a very hard person to surprise you know." He joked.
"Well, you pulled it off without a hitch. I had no idea whatsoever." I leaned over to kiss him quickly. He placed his hand on the back of my head, keeping me in place as he deepened the kiss.
"I can't wait to have you all to myself….feeling every single part of you." He growled lightly in my ear, causing my breath to hitch.
When we reached our destination, he wasted no time in getting the two of us out of the car and up to the bedroom.
A bedroom that I spent the next forty eight hours in, never coming out of it. But surprisingly, we did more than just reconnecting over and over again. We actually got the chance to talk about some important things. The most important being what we were going to do now that I remembered everything.
We came to conclusion that we would just wait the next six months we were to stay here before the family was set to move again. We would decide then if we would go with them or go someplace else.
"As long as I have you, I'll be happy." Jasper reminded me as we got back to the house two days later.
Once there, we informed every one of our plans and they all accepted the idea. Ethan and Sofia was actually fine with our choice.
"I just want you to be happy mom. I just want to be a family." Ethan told me, giving me a tight hug. "With you, dad and Sofia. That's all we need right?"
"You're right honey. That's all we need." I reassured him.
Later than night, as I got ready for bed, I couldn't help but let the inner peace and excitement just roll off of me in droves.
"You seem so happy Nadia." Jasper noted as I crawled into the bed beside him.
"For the first time in two years Jasper, I feel so…complete" I touched his cheek gently "Everything just seems to have clicked into place for me over these past few days. And I have you to thank for that. You never gave up on me after all this time. You kept me going, kept me strong. And I can't envision living a life other than this one…"
"I can't even tell you how amazing it is to have you completely back with me Nadia. I admit, I had my fears that you may never fully be the person you once were. But, I wouldn't have loved you any less. You're always going to be my Nadia, my singer…my wife who's given me more than I could ever ask for."
"You were always so sure I would come back to you? How?"
"Mind over matter. Remember?" he grabbed me lightly and pulled me closer to him so he could place his hand over my heart "I always knew that all those memories were stored away in here. I just had to keep telling myself that you would come back to me."
"Jasper, you're going to make me cry….again." I laughed, placing my hand over his, holding it tightly against my heart.
"It's okay Nadia if you cry. You look so beautiful when your tears are that of happiness. If you do, know that you're not just doing it for you, but also for me. For every emotion I cannot express, I want you to do it for me." His voice cracked a bit and that was it. I just let the tears fall freely. Never in my life would I have expected Jasper to tell me to cry for him.
"I love you." He wiped some of my tears away, before pulling me tightly against me, letting me rest myself against him so that the tears could subside.
"I love you, too." I whispered to him as I began to drift off to sleep.
And I as I lay there, in his arms, I knew that this is where I belonged. No one could ever make me feel the way Jasper did. He was my everything, my soul mate.
I thought about everything we had been through. And even though we were apart for some time, I wouldn't trade any of it. Because all that mattered now was this moment, and the future.
I had my husband and beautiful children.
For the second time in my life, fate had offered me yet another chance at love. A love with the one person would always be there for me. A love, though never easy or simple, was the type of love that some people only dared to dream of. A type of love that I would never give up.
As I finally succumbed to sleep, I knew that I would wake up tomorrow and every day for the rest of eternity in the same position. With the one man who mattered more to me than anything else.
Mind over matter was all it took. And now, life was perfect.
And perfection, no matter how unconventional it may have been for us to achieve, was all I'd ever need.
I'm so sad to see this story come to an end. I've grown quite attached to it. So, for this FINAL bit of the story, I would love to know what you thought about this, the entire story, favorite parts...anything!
There is a link on the profile so you can see the two dresses, the gorgeous ring and the garden from the wedding.
I've been asked if I will be doing a sequel to this story and the answer is, I don't know. If I do, it won't be anytime soon. I have my other stories and two new ones that I'm working on. But, if anyone wants to give me some suggestions as to what they would like to see in a sequel, leave a review or send me a message.
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