Author's Notes: For those of you who are wondering, "I will be revenged, quote he" is a line that Jo says in the beginning of the Little Women movie version (and yes, no shame, I love Wynona Ryder) the day that Christian Bale—uhh, I mean, Teddy officially becomes a part of the March family when he joins their little newspaper group.
I thought it was a fitting moment, since it is right after one of his lines ("What is it that those girls do over there?") and right before his introduction as a permanent fixture in Jo's life.
Also, Christian Bale is pretty.
i will be revenged, quoth he
I am in the garden, accepting your proposal. We are leaning against the fence and you are kissing me and I am leaning into you, saying yes. I am brushing my mouth along your palm and your jaw and your neck, curling into your chest and fisting my hands in your shirt and we are both laughing, laughing, laughing.
(I am not going to New York. I am not meeting Mr. Henry Bauher. I will not have to say goodbye to anybody ever again.)
"Jo," you are whispering, holding me close, and I close my eyes and want to love you so badly, close my eyes and want to feet my heart hammer against my chest, close my eyes and will myself to smile. This is everything that I have ever wanted, because it has to be, because I cannot let you go.
(Oh, Teddy, Teddy, if I am unfair it is only because I cannot bear to say goodbye, I cannot bear to lose anyone else.)
I am in the garden and I am saying yes, and I am staying home with you (so of course I cannot go to Europe, Amy, Amy, darling, go make something of yourself) and this way it will all be different. We will be married and Beth will not get sick and you will not hate me (please, don't ever hate me, Teddy) and Marmee will never have to cry again and it will all be perfect (it has to be.)
In truth I am bent over a letter, the ink dripping onto the paper, calling myself both faithful and yours (oh, can't you see how this is a lie?) I am begging you to come home, because if only I can bring everyone back together perhaps I can will the world right again, perhaps I can write it all as it is supposed to be and by pure desire alone I will put things back where they belong. If only you will come. If only you will come, because you will always love me (you said, you promised).
Oh, Teddy, Teddy, dear, come home. Come home and I will take you back to the garden and the fence and this time when you say I love you I will say (nonononono) it back.