'Breathing, just concentrate on breathing'.
Bella's hand clutched the gears of her motorcycle as she sped down the dirt road towards La Push. Her heart thumped heavily against her chest as she jetted through the line that separated the beaches of La Push from Forks. Her chest heaved, as more oxygen filled up her lungs. She just recently got the hang of riding her motorcycle without causing self injury. Though a few more lessons might be a good idea. Her brown iris's locked on her target and she immediately pulled on the brake. Bella's red motorcycle skidded to a halt under a tree. Dust floated around her body as she pulled off her helmet and shook out her long chocolate brown curls. She stared out at the forest beyond the Black's house. Slowly she leaned her bike against the tree and set the helmet on the seat. Bella began to walk towards the forest, her fingers running mindlessly through her thick waves of hair. The only sound that could be heard was the crickets chirping in the bushes and the swaying of the trees. It was almost eerie, but she was rather used to the abnormal now. Eventually Bella reached the beginning of the woods. She rested her hand on a nearby tree and sighed. Her eyes tried to focus on the dark, but she couldn't see far. Thank god for the moonlight. Squinting helped her see more clearly in the dark, but not by much, and soon she began seeing things move in the shadows.
"Hello?" She whispered as she entered the forest. The brunette took a couple steps forward, but with no site of any life form she continued to wonder into the unknown. Soon darkness completely engulfed the young women and she had to feel her way around the forest. She tried to look for the moon between the trees, but it was no use. A nervous feeling crept into the pit of her stomach and she started to get flustered. All the shadows started to turn fuzzy which helped out her site, but also terrified her to no end.
This was definitely a mistake. I need to get out of here. Bella started to run as fast as her legs could carry her. But of course her being as klutzy as she is, she kept stumbling on roots and fallen branches. She ran and ran until she couldn't ignore the sharp pain in her side. Falling against a tree, she cried out in soreness and aggravation. She couldn't believe that she came all the way out here. She sat against a tree and closed her tired eyes. Her legs were throbbing and she could feel herself falling in and out of sleep. As hard as she tried she just couldn't stay awake. Tilting her head to the side, Bella situated herself in a comfortable position and just breathed. A loud growl echoed through the forest and caused the brunette to jump. Her heart banged against her ribcage and she pulled her legs up to her body. Shadows danced in front of her and yet she couldn't quite place what was what.
"Bella?" A deep husky voiced asked. She immediately looked up and found herself face to face with Jacob Black. Startled, Bella jumped to her feet despite her tiredness. "Jake! What are you doing here?" Slowly Jacob immerged from the shadows with no shirt on. She rolled her eyes and crossed her arms over her chest and he just merely shrugged.
"Patrolling the forest….we've smelled some bloodsuckers out here lately…" Bella again rolled her eyes at that comment. "And besides I live a few miles that way." He said as he pointed to the side of them. "What about you Bells? What are you doing out in the middle of the forest?" She also shrugged and leaned her back against the hard oak of the tree.
"I just….needed to get away." Jacob nodded and stared down longingly at her. He stretched his muscles and took a seat on the ground.
"Okay Bells. Now tell me why you're really out here." She scoffed at that and also took a seat.
"I told you. I needed to get away."
"And away from what exactly?"
"Life…everything. I don't know."
"So you come to a forest by me to 'get away'….."
"There not by you." She said with a little too much of disdain in her voice. Jacob got the hint by Bella's use of 'there' and then a thought suddenly came to him.
"There worried about you ya'know."
"How can you tell?" She asked while playing with a blade of grass. Her eyes wondered over to Jacobs and soon she found herself lost in his intent gaze. It gave her a warm feeling in the pit of her stomach. Comfort? No. It was something beyond that.
"Why else would they break the treaty? They came here to look for you Bella." She pressed her hands to her cheeks and looked down. More then ever was she determined to not feel guilty. She was 18 now…they couldn't protect her like this. It was inhumane.
"I can't deal with them right now. I need some space. It hurts to know that there always watching me. I can never be free. Free to even visit you Jake." Jacob looked up and a sigh escaped his lips.
"I can't believe I'm about to defend those filthy bloodsuckers, but they only do this because they care about you. To them you're so fragile and it'd be easy for someone to break you." Jacob stood up and brushed some dirt off of his pants. He watched intently as Bella's expression turned to an angry one.
"I wouldn't be so fragile if they just changed me!" Bella screamed in frustration. Jacob leaned down and helped her off of the ground.
"Is that what you really want Bells? To turn into one of them?" He asked in an unusual soft tone of voice for him. Bella looked up at him and let out a shaky breath.
"I-I don't know. I'm really confused. I thought I did, and then I just…..I…I don't know." Bella shamefully looked down at the ground, her face becoming hot with guilt and confusion. But what happened next caught her completely off guard. A pair of warm lips was now resting against hers and she felt her whole body start to melt. She pulled back and immediately recoiled from the kiss with a slap to Jacob's face.
"OW!" Bella gasped and cradled her hand against her chest. Jacob laughed and shook his head.
"That's the second time you hit me and ended up hurting yourself. When will you learn?" He grinned at her and she rolled her eyes.
"I just told you I'm confused as hell and then you go and kiss me. What were you thinking?!" Jacob shrugged his shoulder, his grin never leaving his face. It contrasted beautifully though with his russet skin.
"I was just thinking how stunning you are when you're confused….." Bella let out a breath of air and shook her head.
"I can't do this right now Jake. I'm with Edward for god sake! I'm sorry but we can never be. It's not probable anymore. Edward and I are meant to be. You're going to have to live with it." An angry feeling passed through Jacob's body when she mentioned his name. A low grow emitted from the back of his throat and his back started to shake violently. Bella's hands started to shake too….but from fear not anger.
"Jacob please don't do this right now. Please? I'm sorry." Her cries were no use for the anger that swelled within the young werewolf. Thinking quickly, she leaned forward and wrapped her arms around his neck. Her body was now shaking too, but she refused to let go of him.
"You can fight this Jake. Please." She pleaded
"Get off me Bella. I don't want to hurt you." Another growl insisted its way out of his mouth and before Bella even though about what she was doing she leaned up and smashed her lips to his. Her arms tightened its grip on his neck as she continued to kiss him. Jacob opened her mouth with his and gave there kiss a little bit more heat. There tongues battled for dominance and before she knew it, Jacob had her pinned against a tree. He moved his lips to her jaw line and then to her neck, marking her as his. Bella let out a small moan and tilted her head back.
"J-Jake please…s-stop." Her voice was shaking from his insanely hot touches. Damn him. Jacob slowly obeyed by pulling back a little and moving his lips to her ear.
"Now after a kiss like that how can you deny that there is something between us? Don't fight it Bells. We belong." Her eyes rolled back a little and her breathing was rough and ragged.
"Maybe we should go back now. Charlie will wonder where I am." Jacob sighed and pulled her into his arms. They made there way through the thick brush of trees, and before Bella even knew it, they were back near Jacob's house. He set her down gently on her feet and sighed.
"Alright….well I'll see you later then." Bella said before turning around. Jacob was determined now though to keep her with him. So he reached over and pulled her close so that there lips were only inches apart. The brunette could feel his warm breath on her face and it made her want him all the more. Maybe she needed him more then she though.
"Please." He whispered before closing the gap between them. Again there lips found each other in an unbreakable lip lock. Bella wrapped her arms around his neck and again and Jacob lifted her off her feet for a better angle. He started to walk them towards his house, there kiss never breaking. There tongues again wrapped around one another in the most passionate way. Bella started to run her fingers through his hair, tugging on it now in then. That made Jacob growl into her mouth. It really excited her to feel his animalistic ways though. It was dangerous and reckless, but she loved it. Eventually the two made it into the house and into his bedroom. Jacob threw her on his messy bed and climbed on top of her body, his hot chest melting away all thoughts of stopping. Jacob moved his hips in between her legs and she took the hint to wrap her legs around his narrow waist. Her hands moved down from his hair to his back, his body just burning her hands and the rest of her exposed skin. But she loved it. Jacob moved his lips down to her collarbone and started to suck and nip at the sensitive skin. Bella opened her mouth to protest, but was immediately succumbed by the pleasurable sensations.
"J-Jacob." Bella whimpered as he brought his head back up to kiss her fully on the lips. He smirked at the mentioning of his own name. It sounded so sexy coming from her mouth. Leaning down, he pressed a soft kiss to her lips and lied down beside her. Bella unhooked her legs from around his waist and just rested her head on his chest. She now concentrated on his breathing, watching the rise and fall of his chest. It soothed her. Jacob looked down at the beautiful girl on top of him and smiled.
"You do realize I'm never letting you go right?" He asked while playing with one of her curls. Bella nodded her head absentmindedly. Right now she had an inner battle going on. The realization of her love for Jacob made everything so confusing. He was perfect and she didn't have to change a thing for him. Jacob loved her for the way she is. Clumsy and flawed. But that made her more appealing to him. And she comforted him in every way. Made him human despite the fact that he is far from it.
"Jake?" She asked while perking her head up.
"I think…..I might be making the wrong choice with Edward." That coming from her made his heart stop beating for only an instant. He looked down at her and pulled her up for a long kiss. When his hot lips pulled away from hers, she was left with a smile that could melt even the strongest of men.
"Thank god you came to your senses…." Bella rolled her eyes and hit him in the chest.
"I still care for him you ass. But I don't think I really….love him like I thought I did." Jacob just nodded his head and pulled her back into his chest.
"Worry about this in the morning. Just sleep now." Bella nodded and closed her eyes. Again she concentrated on his breathing to make her tired. Eventually sleep enveloped both Bella and Jacob. Bella was happy that she was with him. Someone who could actually dream with her.
A/N: I haven't written a fanfic in a really long time and this is my first Twilight fic ever. Be nice please! I could make another chapter, but I'm not sure. Tell me what you think.