And I'd give up forever to touch you,
Cause I know that you feel the same now.
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be,
And I don't want to go home right now.
And all I can taste is this moment,
And all I can breathe is your life,
And sooner or later it's over,
I just don't want to miss you tonight.
And I don't want the world to see me,
Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.


Imagine waking up one day, and there was an angel sleeping next to you? What would be your reaction? Mine would be to fuck it. I know that sounds wrong, but the angel I'm talking about is Matt. He's so beautiful and perfect.

I woke up, seeing just red hair in my face. Then the rest of Matt was under a blanket, cuddling me. I stroked his hair, I knew he was awake already.

"Morning', Mello…" Matt said softly.

"Hey, Matt… what time is it?" I yawned, and then kissed the top of his gorgeous head.

"Around eleven, but it's Saturday," He snuggled closer to me, both his arms were around my waist. I slipped under the covers with him, and was met by his gorgeous green eyes. His lips pressed against my neck, and he started leaving little butterfly kisses down my jaw line. His lips brushed mine, and I flushed red.

I grabbed his chin, forcing his head up so he was looking me in the eye. I kissed him, my tongue sliding across his lips. Matt was pretty cocky, but I could really make him melt. He immediately opened his mouth, and we proceeded in shoving our tongues down each other's throats. I felt his hands run down my back until they rested on my ass. He squeezed my ass, causing me to jump at the touch. I was only in a t-shirt and briefs…

I felt his hands go under my underwear, so his hands were literally on my ass. I blushed deeply, but c'mon… I knew I liked it. And so did Matt, cuz he squeezed my ass again. I gasped, and I could tell he was smirking while we kissed because of my reaction. I tried moving his hands to my dick, but he immediately pulled them away. Fuck you, Matt! For leading me on like that… God dammit I thought he was going to touch me. But I guess not. Thanks a bunch, asshole.

I pulled away from the kiss, scowling.

"What the fuck was that?" I snarled.

"What was what, sweetypie?" Matt smirked. I swear, one day, his cockiness was gonna come back and bite him in the butt.

"Leading me on like that, dammit!" I rolled my eyes, sighing. "I thought you were gonna touch me!"

"It's fun teasing you," He patted the top of my head. "But no. Maybe when we're a little older…"

"How old?" I raised my eyebrows. How long did I have to wait to have that perfect, perfect ass?

"Maybe when we're at least fifteen." He said, leaving a chaste kiss on my lips.

"Fifteen? Well," He smirked. "That's about one more year for me, about two for you." I smiled.

"Oh, shuttup." He rolled his eyes. "When I'm at least fifteen."

"I swear, I'm gonna rape you one day." I joked, and I saw his cheeks turn a light pink.

"A-aren't you Christian?" He stuttered, a cocky smirk growing on his face.

"Yeah, so?" Where exactly was he going with this…?

"Isn't one of God's rules 'don't commit adultery with those you are not married to'?" He smirked, running his tongue along his top lip.

"Doesn't mean I'm gonna follow it. Nobody does." I rolled my eyes. "If I go to hell for fucking you before we get married, so be it."

"Still. You won't be fucking me for a while, Mello." He sighed.

"Whatever dick-head." I smiled, pulling him into another romantic kiss.


Have you ever felt like your world was falling apart? Like your heart was being ripped out of your chest, and you were drowning under the water of life? I was feeling like that right now as Roger told Near and I that L was dead.

How could this happen?! He was L! The best detective in the world! He was like God! I felt tears prick my eyes. He was working on the Kira case. I knew this was going to happen, I had just been denying it to myself this whole time. But so soon?

"We-can't-work-together!" I spat through my teeth. "Near and I don't get along. The new L shouldn't be anything like me, who only lets my emotions get in my way. Near can have it. I'm leaving."

And with that I left the room.

I ran all the way to mine and Matt's room, fighting back tears that weren't there. I slammed into the room, and Matt looked up at me from his game.

"Mello, what's-" He started.

"Shuttup, Matt." I growled, pulling out my duffle bag. I started throwing my stuff in it, clothes, money, shoes…

I noticed a few tears fell from my eyes onto my duffle, and I ignored them, putting on my jacket. I swung my duffle over my shoulder, stomping out of my room. I could hear Matt's footsteps; he was following me. Why wouldn't he just stay in our- … HIS room?

I burst through the door of Wammy's and look- perfect, it's raining. Ironyyy!

"Mello!" I heard him shout. I didn't stop.

Right before I got through the gate, I felt him grab my arm and jerk me around. He had me pinned against the gate, and I spike was digging into my back but I ignored it. What amazed my is that even though it was raining like hell, I could tell Matt was crying.

"You promised."

"I'm breaking it," I hissed through my teeth.

Matt bit his lip. "… Do you love me?"

The question through me completely off-guard, and I blushed slightly. I never really said it to him, did I?

"Yeah, I love you." I saw more tears form in Matt's eyes.

"I-I love you too!" He hugged my close, and kissed me romantically.

"Matt," I started. "When we meet again in the future… make sure you're not with anyone, okay?"

"How can I be with anyone? You're the one that I want." He said.

"I know, but…" I blushed. "I know this sounds weird but… when we see each other again in the future… I'm gonna marry you."

Again, I saw more tears spill from his eyes. "Really?"

"Really. I swear." I kissed him again, and his grip on me loosened. I walked out the gate, and I looked back.

This is probably the last time I'll see my beautiful Matt. Crying, alone, and heartbroken in the rain.


And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming,
Or the moment of the truth in your lies.
When everything feels like the movies,
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive.

And I don't want the world to see me,
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.


Iris – Goo Goo Dolls

The End.

What did you think? This is my first completed fanfic, and worry not because… THERE'S GOING TO BE A SEQUEL TO THIS STORY! Yay! The sequel will be when they're in the future, and it'll MOST LIKELY be called 'Until the Day I Die'.

I wanted to thank all my readers who stuck through with me throughout this story! I love you guys, and please check back for the sequel if you want more. By the way, the sequel will be in Matt's point of view.