KEEP READING. Sorry, but I'm gonna have to insert some sibliminal messaging in here to keep you going to get to the good, heavy stuff that I want to talk to you guys about. So KEEP READING. Firstly, thank you for actually clicking on this and getting this far to be able to read this message. Secondly, I wanted to give some summer reading suggestions, as well as some television suggestions.
A Thousand Splendid Suns by Khaled Hosseini - I had to read The Kite Runner for junior English, and so over Christmas, I read this book in about a day and a half. So worth it.
Jessica's Guide to Dating on the Dark Side by Beth Fantaskey - Just a fun, quick read.
East of Eden by John Steinbeck - I had to read this for AP English, and it was the best book I read in that class. Plus, I grew up loving the movie and James Dean is pretty yummy, you know?
The Hunger Games by Suzanne Collins - In case you're a little behind like I am, lol.
Water for Elephants by Sara Gruen - I went to her book signing a couple of months ago, and she's a very interesting person, and this is a great read. Read it before you see the movie.
Leave Her to Heaven by Ben Ames Williams - If you don't read this, at least watch the movie. Gene Tierney is sooo psycho that it makes my version of Mike in this story look like a good guy. And Vincent Price is in it for the last half hour, and he's probably the best part of the movie.
Clockwork Angel by Cassandra Clare, not to mention City of Fallen Angels - The first is good... not as good as the Mortal Instruments, but still worth reading. As for the second, I was skeptical about continuing the series, but I read the first 50 pages and decided that it was SO WORTH IT. I'm glad she continued and I'm available to gush about Jace anytime you want. PM me. For real.
As for television:
Guilty Pleasures: The Bachelorette, Pretty Little Liars
For laughs...: The Whitest Kids U Know, Tosh.0, The Big Bang Theory
Can't miss: The Vampire Diaries, Supernatural
If I'm in the room...: The Voice (Team Adam!), Pawn Stars, American Pickers, American Restoration
Just a note on Supernatural: I'm pretty sure that now, it's a full-on obsession. I hated it at first, and then my brother made me rewatch the series two and a half years ago, and it blew my mind, and I now own the first five seasons... don't get me started on season 6.
HERE IT IS. THE MOMENT YOU'VE BEEN WAITING FOR.
I have gotten some requests over the past few months to let you guys in on the situation and how everything has turned out, even two years after I published this. Which blows my mind. A lot. I read this and look back and think about how much I myself have improved as a writer, and more importantly, as a person. I was fifteen when this all started and I thought that I would never get over my crushes and feelings and guess what? I did. My guy and I are still civil, still Facebook friends, but we've both changed and grown so much in different ways that neither of us bares any resemblance at all to the eleven-year-olds we used to be. He's going into the Marines, and I'm not sure what else. I'm going to college to be a pharmacist, I work my part time job at Burger King, and I maintained a (weighted) GPA of 4.1 throughout high school, and graduated with honors. That might sound a little impressive (not to sound stuck up), but trust me, when I look back at the past four years and try to describe my feelings, I can't, because Bella said it better:
"I was a good student, but never the top of the class. Obviously, I could be counted out of anything athletic. Not artistic or musical, no particular talents to brag of. Nobody ever gave away a trophy for reading books. After eighteen years of mediocrity, I was pretty used to being average. I realized now that I'd long ago given up any aspirations of shining at anything. I just did the best with what I had, never quite fitting into my world."
-Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 26, Shiny
I guess I'm just venting because I just graduated, haha. But seriously, this is what I feel like. If there is one thing I've learned during high school it is that life goes on... and I believe Bella said something to that effect at the beginning of New Moon... but I digress. Things change. People change. When you're in high school and you don't have a date, it's the end of the world. When you fail a test, it's the end of the world. When someone doesn't reciprocate feelings, it's the end of the world. This is where Jessica's valedictorian speech from Eclipse comes in. It's okay to make mistakes and be stupid, something I'm still accepting myself. I look back at some of the things I've felt and done and think "What the hell was I thinking?"
But back to this story.
If I have just helped one person... just ONE... then this story has done it's job. I wrote it to get my feelings out and to improve my writing, but as I went on and finished this saga in record time, it became more than just about me. It became about the people I was writing for. I wanted to please you all and hopefully help you all through the same sort of struggles. I know that I'm just a dumb teenaged girl, but I know that nearly EVERYONE has a story similar to mine, and I wanted to illuminate that. You're not alone, and you'll always have a friend in me.