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Chapter six: First

It must have been luck and misfortune mixed together when I felt a sticky pale hand grab my shoulder. I knew who it was without even looking. "Hello, B." I said, trying to keep the tone as casual as possible. "…Near?" He asked, in a quiet voice. This was rather unusual so I spun around quickly to see what was up with him. He had a wistful look in his eyes. "I saw the whole thing." He starts, not making eye-contact with me or removing his hand from my shoulder. "… I'm sorry." He apologizes. He knew I was upset even before I did… sometimes I wonder how I could be so blind. I stayed silent, maybe afraid to speak. He continued talking. "I… It takes a lot to be brave and come clean like they did. It takes even more to stay committed. But… the people who get left behind… I always think they are the strongest of the ordeal." He says, not bothering to hide the fact he was referring to me. I found myself not pulling away from a comforting hug, not loving or lustful, just… nice. "B… does it hurt?" I heard myself ask; not knowing it was me even speaking until later. He didn't respond and I looked up to see his shoulders trembling, bangs hiding the brilliant red eyes that the tears on his cheeks were dripping from. "J-just remember we're similar, N." he whispered in a shaky voice, pulling away and walking to the air vent before stopping in front of it. "If you don't want to…" he says, almost reassuringly. I shook my head. "I…" "feel obligated. I know." He says comfortingly, offering me a hand. As we crawled through the vents, I earned a new respect for B that day. Maybe not enough to want to call him friend but… close. "B?" I found myself asking. He turned to look at me. "About that repayment…" he turned around and hugged me. "You already took care of it…" he says, a melancholy smile on his face, before continuing onward. And to this day, I never know what he meant.

We arrived at my destination and he stopped, moving aside so that I may slide past him to get a better view. I saw Matt lying on Mello's bed, with the other on top of him. They were both engaged in a very long kiss. No clothing had been removed yet, but they were getting close. I could hear sloppy wet noises, most likely lip against lip, tongue on tongue; soft moans that were meant to be murmured words of love were incomprehensible. After all, they all sounded like mmm's, some simply more drawn out then others. Did it really matter though; they all meant the same thing: I LOVE YOU. After a half a minute more of limited groping and rubbing, kissing and holding, the kiss broke. Mello sat up slowly, still looking at Matt, and tentatively (yet still eager and quickly) began to pull the bottom of Matt's shirt up, seeming to admire every inch of the other. Matt blushed and looked to the side. Mello smiled and chuckled a bit, kissing Matt's stomach tenderly, making the other blush harder and screw his eyes shut. He seemed to lose his earlier patience when he suddenly yanked the shirt off over his love's head, tossing it across the room. He kissed softly up Matt's chest, probably every inch from the kissing noises I heard. He stopped at the other's flat breast and kissed where I would imagine the nipple would be, then took it in his mouth for a few minutes, eventually switching to give the other one some attention. The whole time Matt was moaning and holding Mello tightly, huge blush across his face. After a few minutes Mello stopped the treatment to remove his own shirt, allowing Matt to return the favor of kissing across his chest.

After a few more minutes of the soft kissing noises Mello pushed Matt back down so he was lying under him again. Mello stayed still for several moments until he moved to kiss Matt more tenderly than earlier before making his next move. He gingerly reached out his hand and cupped Matt's most private area; palm on the younger's member and two fingers pressing against his entrance through the jeans. Matt's breath hitched a bit in surprise, his head thrown back and eyes fluttering, cheeks even more flushed then earlier. I couldn't help but gasp from the sight. It was breath taking. Unfortunately, my view was obscured once again by Mello leaning in to steal another kiss. I looked down a bit to see Mello's other hand unzipping Matt's jeans then using one of the belt buckles to loop his finger in and inch the pants down the other's thighs. He somehow managed to pull the underwear down simultaneously, causing Matt to gasp into the kiss at the sudden cold air. He squealed into the kiss when Mello's other hand resumed the same position on his area as earlier, for now there was no barrier in between skin on skin. Matt's legs jerked up and open a bit, to this day I'm not sure if it was in surprise or pleasure, but I believe it may have been both. He once tried to tell me how wonderful it felt- no. That is a story for another entry. Carrying on, Mello soon broke the kiss and moved his face down to Matt's newly touched cock, seeming to admire it almost lovingly for a moment before putting his mouth on over it, tonguing at his sack in the process. Matt half screamed and twined his hands in Mello's hair, and the blonde stayed like that for a few minutes. "G-uh… u-uh Mihael!" Matt cried out at being touched. Mello kept it in his mouth for a few moments and then pulled back off of him, Matt still panting. I concluded that Mello must have been licking him because I never cheeks move like they would when he was sucking, which I only witnessed twice. I believe licking was his preferred method of oral "love."

Mello kissed Matt again softly before growing more urgent. He broke the kiss to put three fingers in Matt's mouth, moving them gently while Matt sucked in them. He pulled them out about a minute later, sopping wet and glistening. He kissed Matt again, and the other didn't seem to notice his legs being angled a bit wider. (Ironically, this gave me a good view of Mello's next move.) Suddenly Mello pushed a finger against Matt's entrance and before the other could say anything mello pushed it into the puckered hole, violating him as he wriggled it a bit before adding second finger quickly after. Though I noticed Matt's slit seemed to suck the finger(s) in he jerked from the kiss (Seemingly accidental, but it was hard to tell) and he screamed. "AAAAUUHH! MIHAEL!" Mello kissed him to hush what sounded like a choked sob. I mentally thanked god the walls were thick and our wing was far away from other dorms, but mostly administrators. Then I wasn't sure whether I was supposed to be upset at mello more for harming Matt or for taking him- stop. I am straying off topic. I will be continuing onward now. "Shhhh… Mail, it's okay. I'm just doing this because I love you and I really want you to be mine." He cooed comfortingly, kissing off either sweat or a tear from Matt's cheek. (I could not tell which because he was too far away; I believe it was a tear though because he seemed to be in pain.) Matt nodded and whimpered "I-I l-love you, Mihaeeeel."

Mello kissed him softly and started fingering him, softly prodding the fingers around for the first few minutes then beginning to push in and out. (he seemed to need more effort when he started, Matt may have tensed up a bit) Then he began to scissor the digits, continuing to move in and out, stretching Matt at different widths; close to knuckles being the smallest and the tips of the fingers being the widest, though all must have felt huge to Matt's inexperienced body. Finally, after a while, Matt's moans faded to a different tone, and now he looked to be enjoying it. He was panting in addition to moaning, a trail of saliva now from the side of his mouth. Mello pushed a third digit in, seemingly just out of desire, then pulled all three out. He finally removed his own pants and boxers, revealing himself to Matt. Matt blushed more and his eyes became half lidded as he looked at Mello's erection. He may have even drooled a bit more, all I really know is the event so far had been the most erotic scene I had ever lain eyes on and- I apologize for straying off topic. I cannot erase seeing as I only have a pen, so I will just continue now. The next thing I saw was Mello pressing himself against Matt's lips, softly murmuring something to the effect of "Put me in your mouth, like my good little boy, Mail." (I apologize if I missed a few words but would either of us know?) Matt took the whole thing in quickly, seeming to prefer the method of licking to sucking as well. Mello moaned and put one of his hands on Matt's head to steady himself. "n-mhhhhh… Mail…" he moaned. Matt continued to suck until Mello pulled himself out of the other's mouth. Matt's eyes widened visibly when he realized just how big Mello really was and how much he had just taken into his mouth. He seemed to fall back a little more when he realized where Mello planned on sticking it next.

Mello repositioned himself, getting off of Matt's chest and getting back in between Matt's legs. He twined one of his hands with Matt's, allowing the other to wrap his arm around Mello's shoulders. Matt seemed to know what was coming, yet he did nothing to prevent it. My hypothesis to this was he both enjoyed his earlier penetration and maybe wanted something bigger, or he just really loved Mello. (Enough to go through some pain to give him what he wanted, might I add.) Now that I write this on paper I suppose it could have been both… Ah well, continuing. Mello used his free hand to guide himself into Matt's entrance once more, Matt still seeming to suck it in even as he screamed. Mello kissed him to hush him, his eyes fluttering shut from being half lidded ad he pushed fully into his love, inexperience rendering him incapable of going slower due to the intense pleasure. Matt's head rolled back in the kiss and he may have even sobbed a bit. When Mello pulled apart from the kiss he was all the way in. Matt was still shaking and clinging onto Mello tightly, squirming a bit while trying to get used to the feeling. "Mail, I love you." Mello cooed, kissing his cheek in an attempt to comfort him. "I-I love yo-u too- Mih-ael." Matt panted as Mello kissed his cheek. "You did great sweetheart, I'm all the way in now." Mello soothed as Matt continued to pant. 'Shhh… I'll give you a few minutes, you just say when, Okay?" Mello offered. Matt nodded and leaned up to kiss Mello again.

The two continued kissing for about three minutes; their eyes altering in between half lidded flutters to see how the other was feeling and completely closed when they were particularly enjoying something. After those few minutes Matt murmured "Mm-Mihael, I- I think I'm ready." Mello smiled at him tenderly and asked "Are you sure Mail?" Matt nodded. "Y-yeah, I'm ready." Mello kissed him tenderly on the lips once more and then pulled out maybe half way before pushing back in. He moaned loudly being engulfed by the tightness once more before bucking his hips up against Matt again. Mello did this a few times until he bucked particularly hard electing a possibly pleasured scream from Matt. "M-Mihael, p-please d-do that again…" He begged. Mello seemed confused. Both seemed to be having their first encounter, making it a bit hard to communicate. Never-the-less, Mello tried his best to repeat his last action, receiving the same scream. "OOOH YES MIHAEL!" Matt cried out. Mello smiled and kissed him, continuing his actions, both now lost in ecstasy. (They didn't even notice beyond slurping away jam from the vent; he was right next to me and even I couldn't hear him.)

I am not sure how much time elapsed between the time Mello found what pleased both he and Matt until the time it ended, I just know it was a good amount of time. That being said, I shall skip to the end, seeing as the parts in between were all very similar to what was described earlier. Anyway, Mello released with a moan of "A-ah, Mail!" filling Matt to the brim before his cum overflowed and spilled out of him. Feeling this, Matt screamed only seconds later "OH MIHAEL!" at the top of his lungs before spilling all over Mello and himself. Mello smiled and simply lay on Matt, burying his head in the crook of Matt's shoulder for a moment before sighing and pulling out. He held the other close and whispered in a barely audible voice "Mail, I love you." Matt murmured a sleepy yet affectionate reply of "I love you too Mihael." Mello moved Matt so that the younger was sitting in his lap and wrapped his arm around his shoulders, re intertwining their hands. Matt leaned up for one last tender kiss for the evening before snuggling up to Mello's chest and falling asleep seconds later. Mello smiled and stroked Matt's hair softly.

At that I decided all was done, Beyond and I began to crawl back through the vents, but right as I turned around I heard a sleepy mumble of an unmistakable word "Voyeur." That sealed my need to get out first. Had he heard me? Did he see me? Oh god that would be horrible. I quickly crawled through the vents and then sprinted back to my room as fast as my un-athletic body could carry me. I wasn't really a pervert. I was just first to see them, I was curious, yes, it was the first time I had ever seen something of the like. Yes, that was it. It was an observation, and nothing more. I could feel myself grinning but I didn't know why. I did know there may be very many more observations to come. There would be observations, because I am not a voyeur. No, I am not a voyeur. I'm just never far away from these events, yet never quite involved. I'm just… first.