It was a total disaster.
I pulled back- gasping. "I..uh…" I began oh so coherently, but then I jumped up, almost knocking Fang over.
I was running to the other side of the dock to take off when someone-Fang- grabbed my ankle, causing me to fall on my stomach on the dock.
Fang jumped onto me, pinning me down. He held my arms down with his hands and was sitting on top of me.
"STOP. RUNNING. AWAY. FROM. ME", he yelled at me. Oh, great, he was mad.
I could've wrestled Fang off of me, but what good would that do? I didn't want to get in a fight with Fang, I just wanted this all to end.
"JUST TALK TO ME!!!"
My eyes were starting to water. He couldn't honestly expect me to tell him how I felt about him. I, Maximum Ride, didn't even know that.
"Oh you have got to be kidding me, Max", he said. I could tell he was exasperated. "Why are you crying?"
I guess I had no choice but to tell him what was going on inside my head. So I kneed him off of me. I needed to have room in case I decided to run again. It was obvious he was about to hold me down again. He wouldn't rest until he got his answers.
"WAIT." I held up my hands in surrender. "Okay. Okay. I'm staying. No need to get physical, here. I'll stay."
"Good", he said.
"Look, I don't know what you want me to say." I was being tortured here!!!
"Tell me why."
"WHY? Why were you jealous of Lissa? Why was I jealous of Sam? Why did you kiss me on the beach? Why?"
I was silent. I had nothing to say. Oh, who was I kidding? I had plenty of things to say.
"How am I supposed to answer that? I am a teenage girl. An Avian hybrid teenage girl who is severely confused at the moment."
"Why are you confused?"
"I don't know how I feel, Fang! One day I have a wonderful flock who I love and the next I am kissing one of those wonderful flock members on a beach. And not just any flock member! My best friend. I have no idea why I did it. But then I start to feel other things for my best friend. I have never been in this kind of situation! Battling erasers is easier. And it's not like you feel the same about me or anything…"
"What would those feelings be towards me?"
I sighed and buried my head in my knees. "I think I might….love….you…."
Fang was silent. I was silent. I was going to hurl.
I quickly added "I know you don't…..love me…. back or anything. That's alright. I will deal with it, just like everything else. Now I am going to walk, not run, away. Just a heads up. This night never happened. I get it." I started to walk away when something caught my wrist. Fang. Again.
"Max… I… love you….too." he said.
"Please, Fang." I said softly. "Don't lie. It's okay. No biggie." My voice broke on biggie.
He pulled me down to sit crisscross in front of him.
"Max. Do you want to know what I want from you?"
"NO", he all but shouted. "Definitely not" he said softer. We were silent, again, for a long moment.
"Why did you run from me in the cave?" he asked.
"I was…scared. Confused. Frightened. Shocked. What did you expect me to do?"
"So it wasn't because you don't like me?"
I laughed shakily. "Nope."
"How do you feel about me, Fang? Honestly, no lies."
"…..I love you….more than a sister…more than a friend. We should've come to our senses a long time ago. It would've saves us all this awkwardness."
"What is supposed to happen now, Fang?"
"I guess we will see….together?"
"Okay. Well I'm kind of tired." I got up to do an up and away. I looked down at Fang, who looked confused… and hurt?
"Hey" I said, holding my arms out for a hug.
He got up and hesitantly walked close up to me and wrapped his arms around me. It felt nice. I looked up into his eyes. He looked happy. We both leaned into each other and kissed. I wanted to. He wanted to. Nothing seemed confusing anymore. He wrapped his arms around my waste and kissed me deeper. My hands were on his chest. Then he pulled away and said:
"I love you."
"Then I love you…too?...UGH! This is so strange."
"Yeah I guess so. But it can only get better. I'm sure we were meant to be together all this time."
"What happened to you? You are always so unemotional."
"Oh, don't worry. Once we get back to that hotel, I will go back into "dark" mode."
"Great." Then I pulled away and said, "Shall we?"
We ran off into the night and flew back to the hotel together. When we reached our separate hotel rooms, we stared at each other for a moment. He had a strange look on his face.
"What's wro-", I started just as he kissed me.
When we broke apart, I said, "None of 'this' in front of the kids."
He simply nodded and gave me a quick kiss. "Took us long enough", he whispered to me before walking away.
I smiled to myself and walked back into my room thinking: 'This might actually work.'