This is a story about Renesme and how she fell in love with the wrong person. First Chapters...
It was a rainy night when Seth Clearwater called Jacob. He, Bella, Edward and I were in the living room of our white little cottage chatting just to pass time. Jacob was worried. Sue Clearwater, Seth's mother, was in Seattle, interned in some hospital. She was dying, we all knew it. What worried him was that she specifically wanted to talk to him that night. She had a feeling she was going to die. Edward thought it was dangerous for us to leave, given the weather and other ideas in his head, but Bella came with us just for him to be calm. I had to be there for Jacob. It was a three hour drive until Seattle, but we were afraid she might die in the mean time so we ran.
Seth was waiting for us on the hallway; nervously pacing from left to right.
"Jacob, thank you for coming," he said ignoring me and Bella.
"Hello, Seth," Bella said. For some reason she had always liked him.
"Hi," Seth turned his attention to us.
Sue was in a much better state than I expected. I was expecting to see her barely breathing and connected to at least five monitors. Instead she was sitting on the bed smoothing the edges of the blue sheet covering her.
"Ah, Jacob, you came," she peacefully said. "And you brought your friends," she looked at us. "Splendid."
"Hello to you too, Sue," Jacob said.
"You are probably wondering why I called for you. Well, as you know I'm not going to live any longer so-"
"Don't say that," Jake interrupted her.
"Well thank you, dear. But it's impolite to interrupted someone, especially if that person is dying," she smiled. "I have called you here not for me, but for my daughter."
"Leah," I heard Jacob breathe. I could feel the nostalgia in his voice. It did not bother me. He told me that they used to be close. I didn't know much about her, just that she left something like twenty years ago.
"Yes, Leah. As you know she left twenty three years ago for California and never returned. I occasionally visited her. What I need to tell you all is that she was pregnant."
"What?" Seth reacted. "How could you not tell me, mom?"
My Jacob had the same reaction. It was funny. I was not that affected and neither was Bella. I could see her studying the blue tiles on the floor. Good for her. Jacob had told me about her doubts of fertility. Maybe she imprinted.
"Because then Jacob would have found out," Sue peacefully said.
"Find out what?" my mother asked, her voice was even.
"That he is the father," Sue smiled to Bella.
She didn't seem as shocked as I was, more like expecting it, since she returned to her study.
"What?!" Both Jacob and Seth reacted. "What are you saying there?"
"How could you keep that away from me?" Seth asked, his question directed to both Sue and Jacob.
I had a lot of questions, but I knew better than to interrupt the old lady. First of all I did have some respect.
"Shut up," I said and followed Sue with my eyes.
"Don't pretend that you don't know how, Jacob," Sue said. "Although Leah would have wanted you not to remember. That was the exact reason why she left. She could not bring up a child in a twisted little place like La Push or Forks. And she didn't want to…change our lives; your life."
"Nessie, I'm so sorry," Jacob looked at me. I could not look at him.
"You should have thought about it before you- Gah!" Bella was very angry.
"You knew?" I asked her.
"Not of the child," she said. "But Edward saw…things in his mind," she harshly looked at Jacob.
"I didn't know! It was a long time ago. You were only a child, Nessie! It was the only time and-"Jacob started excusing himself.
I blocked away all his words. How could this be happening? "And what do you want me to do?!" I spat.
"Please, just understand," he tried coming up to me, but I maintained a distance.
"Well, actually," Sue cleared her voice. "It is not about either of you. It's about Leah. After my funeral she needs to come back. I'm not sure she can manage on her own. Seth, you are allowed to call her."
Seth left the room.
"The child is a twenty three year old perfectly healthy shapeshifter. He could phase ever since he was five and stopped changing since he turned sixteen when he looked like he was twenty five or something," she smiled.
"So it survived?" Jacob asked.
"Don't be an idiot!" I heard Bella. "It's a he, not an it. He is a…" she looked for her words. "Person, just like all of us."
"It sure did. Jacob, if you could look after them in you spare time…" Sue trailed off.
He looked at me. I wasn't about to let him say no.
"Of course I will."
"I've called Leah," Seth came back in the room. "She is very upset, but is getting on the next plane to Seattle."
"Wonderful," Sue coughed. "Now, if you'll excuse me, I'd like to have a word with my son?" she looked at the three of us.
"Sure," I was the first one to speak. "We'll be at the cafeteria."
I was the first one to get out of the room. Not necessarily because of what Sue Clearwater had just said, but I felt something; a smell. It was the smell of death. I propped my hand against the wall and looked down at my feet. It felt sick.
"Are you okay?" Bella came next to me and placed a hand on my bag rubbing circles around it.
"Yes, I'm fine. Did you feel it too?" I asked her.
She nodded. It must have been worse for her since she was a full vampire, or so to say.
"I need some coffee," I said.
"Are you sure, Renesme?" she asked me.
I looked over her shoulder. Jacob was there with an anxious look on his face. Given the situation I did not pity him.
"I'm sure," I answered.
We all silently walked to the cafeteria. It was almost empty except for a bunch on interns. I sank in my seat as I waited for Jacob to bring us some coffee. I took the cup and breathed in the refreshing scent. I held it in my hand for a moment. It was so warm. Jacob was pleadingly staring at me from across the table. I rolled my eyes. I needed to talk to him. I wanted to talk to him, but not with Bella there. It was just something private. She sensed it, I think.
"I'm going to call Edward," she got up and left us.
"What have you done, Jacob?" I asked him.
"I'm so sorry," he almost cried. "I love you, Nessie. I swear I do. I loved you then, it's just that-"
"Jacob," I placed the coffee mug on the table. "How should I put it," I clicked my tongue. "I do not doubt your love, but how could you let her go?"
He gave me a strange look. "What do you mean?"
"I mean Leah. It's not about me and it's not about you. It's about Leah and your…son," I said. "How could you let her go just like that, without checking if she was pregnant?"
"I…well we did talk…after it. And she explicitly said she wanted to hear nothing from me and that she will go away. She said she didn't want a complicated life."
A horrible thought passed my mind. "You don't think that she knew she was pregnant before she left?"
"Leah?" he had an outraged expression. "She would have never done this to me. No. She didn't know," he said. "Or…" he looked me in the eye. He nodded.
I shook my head, my auburn hair dangling in all possible directions.
"Hey," his hand outstretched across the table; palm opened.
I gave him my hand. His thumb brushed over my knuckles. I smiled at him.
"Nessie, my Nessie," he had that idiotic look again, but it didn't bother me that much.
His finger on the golden engagement ring he gave me and suddenly it felt more heavy than usual. I bit my lower lip; my brows furrowing for a moment. I felt the need to pull away my hand, but he didn't let me. Gently, he kissed it, and then we both rose over the table and kissed.
"I love you," he sweetly said.
I smiled. I mean I could have told him that I loved him, but I wasn't that good at it. It probably would have sounded as if I was hardly spitting it out, with the excitement and all.
I felt calmer. I was going to be there for Jacob and his child and well also Leah. What worried me more was that I wasn't jealous at all.
"Sue…" we heard Bella's voice. "She passed away," she finished. "I…I spoke with Edward. He wants us home now," she narrowed her eyes at Jacob.
"Seth needs me. I can't leave with you." We both got up. "You take care of her?"
"I always do," Bella was unnecessarily overprotective. I'm afraid of Edward's reaction.
"Okay, then. Let's go," I pulled my raincoat on me.
Bella went ahead. It gave me time to give Jacob a quick kiss before leaving with her.
Outside the rain stopped.
"Want to go eat somewhere?" Bella asked me when we were in front of the hospital.
"Nah..." I said looking up at the cloudy sky. "I would like to get home and sleep."
"Okay," she nodded and we speeded back home.
Dad opened the door before we even got there. He was angry. I could see flames of fire in his honey golden eyes.
"How could he-"he wanted to start yelling, but something in Bella's look stopped him.
He probably realized that I didn't need that now. Bella could fill him in on my decision or he could read it in my mind. I couldn't careless, which is why he probably snarled.
"I'm going to bed now," I said and went upstairs to my room.
I hopped onto to the bed. I had a strange feeling; I guess you could call it heat. The moon was high on the sky and it pierced through the windows reflecting on the white wall. I kept thinking about Jacob's child. And then it hit. He wasn't exactly a child. I mean he was twenty and I'm sure he looked like an adult ever since he was sixteen. Oh dear, this is going to be far more complicated than I had imagined.