A/N: So this is my first fan fiction in years! So please be kind! I hope you like, reviews are nice. It will mostly be from Bella's POV but I MIGHT switch it up in later chapters.
Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight, I do however have a daughter named Isabella…I didn't name her after the books…much….
Chapter 1 Time to Start Again
As I looked down at the tiny pink bundle in my arms I couldn't stop the tears that rolled down my face. She was so perfect, so small and fragile, but perfect. Her skin was pale like mine, but she was healthy, that was clear. Her cheeks were round and pinch able, her nose was a tiny little button and her little blue eyes were wide and watching me. She looked at me with so much trust and love and innocence, I was over whelmed by the feeling. She was an angle, and angle meant to save me, meant to help me save myself. I knew looking into her face that I could do anything, I would do anything, and it would all be for her. I watched her little pink lips form an o as she yawned her little eyes scrunching shut. With a small sigh she closed her eyes and fell into a peaceful sleep. I smiled and leaned down to kiss the top of her head and gently lay her in the bassinet next to my hospital bed. Lying back against my pillow I closed my eyes.
I was awoken a short time later by a knock at the door.
"Come in" I muttered sitting up assuming it was the nurse coming to check my vitals. I looked up and gasped. "Jake! What are you doing here? I thought you said you wanted nothing to do with this?" I could hear the desperate hope in my voice and cringed internally. Jacob had made it clear from the moment I found out I was pregnant that he didn't want anything to do with me or his child.
My mind raced back to the day I took the test. I looked down at the digital readout still not sure I could believe it. But it was there in bold digital letter, "Pregnant". I sat on my couch staring at the test until I heard the front door open. Jake was home from another late night at work. He walked in and looked at me.
"What's that Bells?" He asked coming over to stand next to me. Wordlessly I handed the test to him. He looked down at it and I watched as his face grew stone cold, his brown eyes went dead and he looked at me. "Is this a joke?" I shook my head still not sure I could trust my voice. He was silent for a moment staring at the test. "Well then we are just going to have to get rid of it." His voice was so cold, so harsh it felt like he had slapped me.
Instantly I flew up, my hands clenching down over my stomach protecting the small life now growing inside me. I stared at him, trying to see if he was serious, it was clear that he was. I shook my head. "No! No Jake I'm not going to do that!" He glared at me.
"Bella I am not bringing a child into this world!" He spoke the words slowly, the way he did when he was angry and not trying to explode.
"I'm NOT giving it up; I'm not having an abortion. That's out of the question!" I could feel angry tears springing into my eyes. I blinked to keep them from slipping over. Jacob looked at me and shook his head.
"You have a choice Bella, me or that thing….that parasite! I will NOT bring a child into this world. You know I don't want kids, not now, not ever! You knew that from the beginning. If you decided to keep this thing, than know I will not have any part in it what so ever." I stared at my feet for a moment before looking up at him, I could feel the tears falling down my face now, but there was no stopping them.
"Then my choice is clear." I said slowly. Jake face softened then, thinking I was going to pick him. "I chose the baby. I'm sorry Jake but I can't and won't get rid of it or give it up." Jake's face hardened again and he grabbed his coat off the chair, turning towards the door. "I'm sorry," I whispered.
"I'll be back in a few days for my stuff. If you change your mind you know how to reach me." The door slammed and he was gone.
He had been back to get his stuff, with his friends. I sat in silence as they took the boxes I put together into Seth's truck. Jacob looked at me once before closing the door behind him. As soon as I heard the truck pull away I cried. I don't think I stopped crying for a few hours.
After it felt like there was nothing left in my body to cry I picked up my cell phone. Alice, my best friend from high school was the only person I had left now; my parents had died in a car crash right after high school and my brother Emmett was traveling in Italy on business. She and her husband Jasper had moved back to the little town we had grown up in, Forks Washington, after they had gotten married two years ago. I had moved to San Francisco after college, where I still lived in a tiny one bedroom apartment, working my butt off as a high school English and History teacher by day and a writer by night. I had friends here, but none like Alice. Although she lived out of state Alice was always there when I needed her, she made frequent trips down to visit me. She was a fashion designer and Jasper was working at a law firm in Port Angeles. They were both doing well for having just started out.
"Bella?" Alice asked, panic in her voice. Alice had always had a sixth sense to know when something was wrong, or was about to happen. "What's wrong?" I could hear the sound of a car engine starting up. It was the unmistakable sound of Alice's Porsche 911 Turbo; I heard her tires spin as she pulled out of wherever she was.
"Alice…" I sobbed. "Jake…he's…I'm…" I couldn't seem to form words. I took a deep breath. "Alice…I'm pregnant."
"I'm on my way." That was all I needed to hear. Alice hung up the phone and later that evening she was on my door step with a few pints of Ben and Jerry's and a number of very large suitcases.
Alice had stayed with me, through it all. All nine long months, she was with me at every doctor's appointment, every ultrasound. She urged me to find out the sex of the baby, and squealed so loud when she saw it was a girl that the technician threatened to throw her out. She and I went on shopping trips that lasted until I couldn't walk anymore from exhaustion and swelling. She had spent hours trying, and eventually succeeding, to convince me to move back to Forks. She had called into the schools and set me up with a job starting in the fall. She took over my students for me when I was too sick to go into work, or too tired. When my April due date drew closer and closer she was helping me to stand and walk, she took me to the pool in my building and sat with me in the water till my swelling went down. She took me to birth classes, where she reminded the teacher, more than once, that we were not a couple. She was walking with me around the block when my water broke. She was there with me through the labor and delivery, holding my hand and whispering calming words of encouragement. She was there in the hospital now, getting something to eat. She had put her marriage and clothing design on hold for nine long months to be with me and if I hadn't had her I wasn't sure I would have made it through.
"Look Bells," Jake's voice was cold and distant. I saw his eyes dart slightly to the sleeping angle in the bassinet next to me. "I…I just came to get you to sign this." He handed me a sheet of paper. I looked down at it.
"What is this?" I asked my mind was still too tired to read, let alone comprehend the legal document I held.
"It's a release of all paternal rights." He sighed. "I need to you fill out the top part and sign next to that x right there." I looked down at the paper again and slowly the words came into focus. He handed me a pen as I pulled the small tray attached to my bed closer to me. With a shaky hand I began to fill in my information as well as the name and birth date and time of my daughter. When I finished I signed my name and looked up at him. "Thanks. I'll send you a copy when I get them finalized." I nodded. "Well…um…I guess that's all. Goodbye Isabella." He turned to leave.
"Jake." I said quietly. He stopped but didn't turn. "I'm moving back home, back to Forks…that's where we will be. If you change your mind," I whispered.
"That's not going to happen Bella. I'm sorry," He reached the door and left the room. I was numb; I sat staring at my hands, waiting for my tears to come again. In the hall I heard hushed voices arguing harshly, but I didn't listen to the words, I just kept waiting for the tears. Alice came into the room a moment later two cups in her hands, and a look to kill on her face. She looked at me and smiled putting the cups down and hugging me tightly.
"It's better this way sweetie." She said. I knew she was right. "You both deserve better than that." I nodded and looked at my sleeping child. "The nurse said you will be out of here tomorrow. I called the movers and they will be backing up your place tonight and moving your stuff into the house in Forks tomorrow. The painters have already comes and gone in the new house, don't worry the colors are great, soft and light just like you like them! Jasper is flying in to drive my car back and the three of us will ride back to Forks in your car. Don't worry, we will take our time and stop whenever you need. Jaz and I will stay with you for the first few days if you would like. Our house is just up the street if you need us for any reason at all!" I smiled at her, she was a true blessing. As usual Alice was right too, I deserved better than him and Evelyn, she deserved better…she deserved the very best.
A/N: Well there is chapter 1…I hope you all like it. I'll try and get chapter two up at some point soon, by this time next week at the latest. Review if you liked it please!