Author's Notes and Responses to Reviews (cuz it's for general consumption)

As an author, you measure your success by how many hit counts your stories get, how many people read your work, and how many people review it. Sometimes that's all you get.

Sometimes you get nominated at a fansite for a writing award or your story gets spotlighted, which in turn attracts even more readers. Because that's what it always comes down to. Getting folks to read your story.

The current recognition sites are...

http://www (dot) thecatt (dot) net
http://theindietwificawards (dot) com
http://fictionators (dot) blogspot (dot) com
http://www (dot) twilightawards (dot) this-paradise (dot) com

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Chapter 1

"I love that each family member has a different handshakes" from TwilightSherry

I don't know where the Rolle-Greetings came from, I really don't. I just know he greeted Carlisle first and he was feeling sad. Then he greeted Esme, and she's so regal and dignified and reminds him of his own mother, so she was treated with something sweeter... and it all escalated from there because he's known the family for so long now (maybe not really WELL, but he's been a constant visitor) that he has a unique relationship with each of them. So each of them are treated differently.

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Chapter 1

"Where did you get the name Rolle?" from TwilightSherry

Rolle is short for Rolland. I wanted him to have an old name, but different and something that could sound modern. You never learn his full name in this story, but he has one.

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Chapter 1

"A vampire assassin?" from TwilightSherry

As for the assassin bit... I always knew he was one; a reluctant one, perhaps, but definitely an assassin. I can't say why I knew that, but I did. The real trick was coming up with something plausible that would explain why it would unnerve vampires. That comes in later chapters. And your question "A hired assassin…for humans? For vampires? or both….to kill humans? To kill vampires?" is pretty much what Bella, herself, asks later, too. LOL

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Chapter 1

"Edward gave out physically at seeing Rolle's mind at what I can only think was whatever happened to make him feel this amount of painy" from TwilightSherry

My point, however, was that I wanted Edward to see what it would be like to lose Bella without losing her, so Antithesis was going to be a "don't be like me" story. Edward saw everything in crystal iMax clarity as if he were right there with Rolle, watching his true love die, barely even able to touch her... just desperately grasping the ends of her fingertips and seeing the light in her eyes simply disappear behind her tear-stained and bloodied face. The shock of it, and the reality of it, was rather like a baseball bat slamming down onto his head. So "Edward gave out physically." He literally crumples to the floor. He didn't need to have Jasper's gift of feeling that pain himself. He could well imagine it.

I'd love to do JsPOV of those few minutes. Maybe I will. Hmmm...

But this is a Bella and Edward story, not a Rolle story. More things will come out about him, but all from BPOV so she has to be around him to get that information. Conveniently, since Rolle came to visit Edward, and Edward is always with Bella, it works to my advantage, and yours!

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Chapter 2

"I'm totally a Rolle fan. Who plays him in your movie?" by LolaShoes

Funny you should ask that. It's Sting, actually! Well, a very young version of Sting, and even more oddly, a very specific picture I have of Sting.

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Chapter 2

"I'm dying to see Rolle's reaction when he finds out that Edward leaves Bella [in New Moon]" from TwilightSherry

Rolle is not told that Edward left Bella. If he found out, he'd kick Edward's butt! So I'm employing creative license to ensure Rolle never finds out. Now that Bella and Edward are married, though, Rolle would probably just chew him out for leaving her, and glower. A lot.

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Chapter 2

"About the vampire who changed Rolle ... was that purely because of his capability as a human to murder would only be stronger as a vampire, or because turning him into a vampire while he was in this state of mind would keep him in this state of mind?" from TwilightSherry

Yes to both, and more. Marcus changed Rolle because he was a natural Tracker as a human -- a trait that would only blossom as a vampire. The fact that Rolle had a sadistic streak for vendetta (a very Italian trait) only made him even more desirable. When Rolle said he murdered the man again and again and again, what he was glossing over was that he basically mutilated the dead body because he couldn't stop himself from killing that man even after he was dead. Marcus liked that about him. He liked Rolle's focused brutality. Marcus simply could not take into account Rolle's intense guilt for committing murder.

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Chapter 2

"Were they [the Cullens] stunned only because of the comment he made about her Bella's smell? Or was it because he was so close to her? Or was it because he had just rearranged the furniture??" from TwilightSherry

All of the above. Rolle didn't think before he acted, and suddenly Bella was in his arms! The Tracker! The Killer! And she smelled good to him!

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Chapter 4

"Why didn't Rolle didn't keep his promise to help protect Bella?" from Jen2112

Oh, he does keep his promise. That's coming! Think of it like this... You don't use a bomb to settle a disagreement. You have to use the right tool for the job. The things Bella has had to go through were not big enough to play the trump card.

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Chapter 7

"The one thing that I could critique was the sudden shift to after Breaking Dawn" from aragornnme

So I started writing this before I got through all four books, which is why there is a time jump from Twilight (the first 3 chapters) and BD (the rest of my story) because, frankly, Rolle would have kicked the crap out of Edward for leaving Bella like he did in NM. I even have their argument in my head when Rolle tracks him down to confront him. It's pretty vicious. But then I read the next three books so quickly, and I really hate messing with canon, that I decided to play the "vampire time-warp" card. Rolle went away, time passed and whups, it's years later!

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Chapter 12

"I dunno if I agree with making Bella the catalyst, she already feels guilty over the Volturi after the 'Nessie visit'" from Noble Korhedron

I'm slightly AU on Renessme. She's not included here because I didn't think I could do her justice since we learned so little about her in BD. Yes, I should have said the Volturi visit, but not because of Renessme. They were going to come regardless, to make sure Edward and Alice followed through on their promise that Bella would be changed. They still came to Forks like in BD, but without such a spectacle over it.

I did, however, write a scene where Rolle shows up with Bella still pregnant, and dying. Maybe I'll bonus-chapter it for you at the end of "Antithesis". I am planning on posting the songs Rolle played for the Cullens that night in Forks. Just the RL songs and artists, as well as the lyrics to the one song that is Rolle inside and out.

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Chapter 13

"I guess Aro has to stay far far from Edward, Bella and Alice, lest he discover the secret" by aciepey

That's a good observation and I have thought about that... But whether I follow SM's canon or the AU by LolaShoes, I think Bella's gift has them covered. Because everybody would really NEED Aro to not find out the truth.

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Chapter 13

"I would love an out-take of Rolle as he starts being the tracker for the Guard." by Aggie94

Wow! That's incredibly flattering. I'm totally stunned by how many people have called themselves 'Rolle Fans' but really, this story has always been about Edward and Bella. I'm not sure what the story would look like without them. I'll ponder it. One of the bonus chapters, though, will be Gillian, the accident and the night Marcus finds Rolle.

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Private Message

"Why did you pick this as a title for a story?" by caww

The story title is defined by the meaning of the word itself: a person or thing that is the direct opposite of someone or something else. Rolle's story is the direct opposite of Edward's. That's about it. I wanted to be able to explore the loss of a true-love, without putting Edward through it. I wanted the story to be about Edward and Bella, and the importance of keeping and protecting something that is true and good.