The pain is excruciating. It's been 50 years since I left. Fifty years since I had seen the reason for my existence. And yet, I still have eternity to be reminded of my stupid promise…
—She nodded her beautiful head; tears flowed fast, staining her angel's face. I spoke the words I knew I'd regret forever.
"And I'll make a promise in return. I promise this will be the last time you'll see me. I won't come back—"
*End of Flashback*
"Ungh!" I groaned and threw my upper torso over the edge of my couch.
I wanted to hear her. I want to hold her. I want to see her. I want to smell her wonderful scent. I want everything she is—
But she's gone. She's gone and she won't come back.
"I know!" My sweet, beautiful Bella disappeared a few months after my wretched mistake. And I couldn't even look for her without risking her normal life. But how I wish she was safe!
Since we left Forks, a dark cloud of despair has fallen over my family. Carlisle never smiles, Esme has lost another child, Alice isn't jumping off the walls or dragging us shopping every other day, Emmett doesn't crack his stupid jokes, and Jasper is pulled down deeper by bearing all of our grief as well as his own. For God's sake, even Rosalie is silent and dreary. And though no one will admit it out loud, I know they all believed Bella dead. And I, I have the rest of this cursed eternity alone.
"EDWARD! Get off your lazy ass and get out here!" A voice cut off my depressing thoughts. A moment later, a short, black haired pixie had knocked open my door.
"Get dressed," Alice commanded, throwing me a pair of black pants and a dark blue button-up. "We're going clubbing and you're coming too. Jasper can't take it anymore and I'm tired of everyone being depressed and dead boring! Be dressed in five minutes, and don't even think about bailing!" And with that, she left.