Yet another attempt at fanfiction, guys. Please R&R. This is like one- tenth a song- fic, based off of Halo by Beyonce.

I was stunned with shock. Laurent bit me, and the giant wolves pulled him off of me. I couldn't even grasp the pain; I was still so freaked out. It eventually hit me, and it was all I could do not to scream out.

"Edward," I whispered.

I was aware that people were surrounding me, but only subconsciously. They were talking about me, quite obviously.

"We have to take her back, explain the rules. Or we kill her."

Days later, I arose from the pain and took my new form. The wolves quickly explained themselves, giving out the rules. I was only surprised to see Jacob there, but I couldn't care anymore. Someone had just given me immortality, and I didn't want it. I never thought that I wouldn't want this, but I don't. Not without Him. I couldn't do anything foolish, as He put it. So what would I do?

I guess Alice still liked me. Just because He doesn't love me anymore doesn't mean no one does. Maybe I could go back to them, and see Esme and Alice and everybody. No, I decided, it would hurt too much to see him and not be with him. So, I'm abandoned to this lifestyle forever, and forever alone?

So I walked from the wolves and collapsed, still in our meadow, and as memories overtook me, I began to shake with sobs, although no tears came. The wolves left all but one. Jacob put his hand on my shoulder and I looked up to him. He said nothing, but I received the message. It was the same as Ed- His- Be safe, don't do anything reckless.

He left, too.

Remember those walls I built

Well baby they're tumbling down

And they didn't even put up a fight

They didn't even make a sound

I wanted to go back to Charlie. I wanted to at least say good-bye. I quickly hunted a deer or two, and immediately ran to the house. Yes, running was exhilarating, but I didn't care at the moment. I held my breath the whole way there. I climbed in through my window and began to walk towards the door. I heard a barely noticeable creak coming from beneath my floorboards. I guess I hadn't noticed it before, but when I carefully pulled it up, there He was- or at least pictures of him, and my lullaby.

Most importantly there was a letter.

My Dearest Bella,

I love you. When it isn't good for you, even when I'm hurting you unintentionally, I love you. Remember always, that I do love you. Forget what I said, as you are my life. I've pulled my life away from me, and now I have nothing left. I left to protect you, from my family and myself. I'm not good for you, Bella. You have to understand that. I truly hope that if you ever find this letter you will have moved on. Not for my sake, for if it was, you would still be by my side, but for your own. I hope that you get married, and that you have children, that you grow old with your new love. Most of all I hope that you are happy. I don't want you to forget about me, but you have to. Bella, when you do find that person, love him with all your heart, because that's all anyone could ask for, ever.

Don't worry about me, as I know you may. It is true that I can never forget, but maybe it's better to remember.

I Love You, I Love You, I Love You,


For the second time in the last few days, I sobbed. What would he do if he knew what had happened? I began to pack my bags, carefully putting everything found under the floorboards into my backpack. Sadly, Charlie wasn't there, but he was never one for tears. I showered and changed, and then left out the window again, leaving a note for Charlie on my bed.


I will never regret coming to live with you. You have given me so much, in so little time. Don't worry about me, I'm fine. I can't come back though. I urge you not to come looking for me. If you trust me as much as I think you do, you won't. Live, daddy, and even when it hurts, remember how much I still love you.


With that I left through the forest, running to Alaska.